123gocat

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@kittycat9876 okay here's the speedpaint! it might be a bit unclear, but what i did was i drew stuff and then imported photos on them using "alpha lock", and i also messed around with blending modes and effects such as chromatic effects, noise, and bloom. i also turned up the saturation a lot on it, haha.

(it's a bit long so idk if the upload will work ;;)

(also i'm aware of the controversies surrounding nekozuna/glitterpop. i don't really have a say as i don't have much info, but i put the song simply because,. i. just,. like the song .)

i wANT THIS ON MY TUBMLR DON'T ASK WHY you probably can guess it easily anyways

(okay i want to rant my thoughts here because tumblr and yapping and writing stuff down somewhere and/or posting it helps me actually do something about it or remember. ANYWAYS )

I used to like and identify with my chosen name (IRL) pretty well, but as of lately i haven't been resenting with it as much as i hoped. i'm kinda distancing with it more and here's why

(as if anyone will actually read this)

1: people still associate it fem

like, they would say "oh yeah (chosen name) said she ___" they get the name right but they don't call me "he". i know i could just correct them, and i did for a while, but after a bit, it gets exhausting. i've also had people associate it gender neutral,. "oh yeah she- oh i mean they" like uh. dawg no. dochira demonai. and alongside that, a lot people think i'm nonbinary?? like i just found that out recently and i was like?? ,. ???

2: people keep spelling it wrong, and saying it wrong, and it lowkey annoys me😅

i know that shouldn't matter but. come ONN it doeess. it does.

3: i dont fw it anymore 😞

people change guys . especially when you decide the name at a younger age,.

4: some guy sexualized my name. uh.

wild story, there's a kid on my bus and just today he said that he liked me (he's sexist) (he's straight) him: "i can't resist you🤤" me: "i do not reciprocate" (YEAH YEAH I KNOW THATs SOUNDS ROBOTIC AS FCUK BUT I my brain basically just shuts off after school when i'm not talking to my friends)ANYWAYS his response was somewhere along the lines of "plEASE Please plEAS i'm begging you🥺🥺😭😭😢🙏i can be a worthy man to my woman😏🤓💪" (blehh gross.) i barely know him we don't even go to the same school,. but he always bothers me on the bus in the afternoon)) he then sstarted talking to me weird and acting verrry inappropriate around me and i was sort of just like "okay no thanx 😀" and he kept doing it . then he sexualized my said chosen name (he doesn't know my old one) and like pet talking me and also purposely mispronouncing it and uUGH i don't want to go further into detail.

5: I MIGHT BE STARTING TESTOSTERONE SOON

I'M HIGHKEY EXCITED OH MY GAWWSHH . i feel like with a big change i want even more change to compensate for the . already existing change. uh. (and who knows how much other stuff will change) idk man my brain is weird XD

so yah. lots of reasons. i don't even know what to change it to, but i'm SO leaning on this name that's like. kind of similar to my current one but also not. but i shall explore more. no i wont share it online i just. feel like saying this i guess.

i just realized whenever i have an important post or just a long post in general, i always tend to customize it with the colors n sizes n stuff. that's interesting. i'm gonna keep doing that.

this guys name is chroma. i had fun designing him and i'll probably draw him again! :D

me when i say "oh yeah yeah ya i'll go to bed soon i'll get ready" and i don't and it's literally 12:28. i'll do it after this i SWEAR!!!

the "less than three" symbol that's a part of my bio (( >//< )) keeps disappearing . so it's literally just ">\\" anD IDK HOW TO FIX IT

i hate when something that's NEVER bothered me ever in my entire life just randomly bothers me out of nowhere. like??? i didn't care before?? why does it matter now??? what changed about it?? hhUH??

me when. me when i'm. when i'm ,. drums glitchy. glitchy breaky drums. ehehehhehehe :

@glittergluedrinker i noticed the tags in ur rb of one of my posts! i can export the speedpaint if you want! ^^ but idk if that'll make it much clearer, though. if you plan on making something like that, i'd love to see it! :D

literally my mind right now

having mydriasis (med/drug induced dilation of pupils) is lowkey fun sometimes. I have numerous photos in my gallery of me just intensely staring into my camera and laughing to myself.

i made bracelets of my characters spike and thorn! they are canonically a music duo and also boyfriends. :D

here's what they look like if you forgot

the whole gangs here X3 🖤🤎🩷

okay but no joke ,,. i've been getting these lil kitties for my birthday for the past three years ,,. it is so awesome i hope it continues. these r all on all separate events and the 3 different people don't even know each other it's amazinnng.

also the first one(s) i got were the black ones (tea for normal sized one and droplet for the small one)

the second one i got was the brown one (coffee)

and the third one i got is pink lemonade :3

i decided to make them all have names that related to drinks of some sort. droplets sort of an exception cuz she's tiny.

also on the same year i got coffee, i got this reeaallly big black one, and i made it cannon that that one is tea's mom :D the lore is deepening

this post contains a pretty sensitive topic so just be cautious . i will tag this accordingly . if you have any suggested tags please tell me so i don't miss anything!!

(i am not a medical professional, i am just deeply invested in researching psychology. i apologize if any of this is inaccurate, or missing information.)

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okay so i just went down a strange and disturbing tumblr rabbit hole of people like,,. encouraging starvation? and like? saying "you don't need to eat food it's a want not a need" and also just,, glorifying eating disorders? even sexualizing them,. ;w; the internet can be scary,,.

it's even more disturbing that this kind of content is mainly aimed towards kids/ teens /preteens ,, like,,. that's not okay to encourage

just remember that like. yes you do need to eat. if you don't you will quite literally die? it's essential to life,.

ALSO!! **it's okay to go on diets!! just remember to eat enough food an stay healthy :3***

but,. just doing it bc ur insecure or dysmorphic isn't good for you. it can be physically damaging and exhausting mentally too,.

i know i can't like,, magically stop people from having eating disorders. i am aware of the complexities.

if you're currently experiencing this i'm sure that you've probably heard people tell this to you and that you know this already,. but in case if you haven't, that's why i'm saying it. or, if you're planning on doing it or feeling pressured. it's not a good thing to get into,.,,,

and if ur struggling with this just know ur loved <3 yall r awesome ^^

commission fur Niko !!! :D this was really fun 2 make.,., X3

comms r in bio,,,,

(edited post to b more decipherable ;w;)

wOAHZ i . i wear i lot of thes on my arm noww,,. not tday but sumtimez i do,. all of them r made by me except teh 1 with the happy face,,,,. :3

i wana make more but i don know how 2 make complex onezz,,. the kandi stuff i know r singlets, and ladder stitches, peyote stitchez. and i also know how 2 make a lizard. and a bow. myyeaahh.

bwah :0

it sidewayz

really bouncy head thing

i used warp effects, and back in /back in out easing curves :3

I MADE AN ALIEN GUY!! 👽💚💛

his name is #1394 and when you translate to letters it means acid

me when the outline are gradient . ,. look at hims eyes. 👁️✨⭐️🩷

i testd out a lotta different thingz.., like the eye shape, shading and coloring of the eyes, and the outlines bein gradientd :33

OKAYOKAY OKAY ok theyr names r spike (blue one) and thorn (red one)

i didn't mean to make their designs correspond with each other, but when i look at them side by side they match SOO well. ❤️🛑❌‼️🔺🚩💙🩵🌀🔷🧢🦋

okay theyr boyfriends now BYE

here's a nice contrast with the last one.!! very soft on the eyes -w-

‼️(HEAVY FRICKIN EYESTRAIN WARNING) ‼️

ok this is like,, ow?? but like kewll.. sparklefur nice..,,,.

i will probably never draw her again becuz it took so long,,,. well also the background the background took forever but the design did too but uh.., but i . had fun with it!! this is probably my eyestrain-iest art i've ever made lol. it hurts. but i love colors.

why don't we normalize stuff being whimsical and cartoonish sometimes that would be pretty cool

smthn i drew with the square brush thing i made! i like how this brush is, it's like,, kinda pixelly but not like pixelated?? idk i jus like the square vibes. 4 drawing of this character still don't know the name

also made the mouth a dark ish red pink? i jus liked how it looked. i like how my art is recently ,,. that feels nice i suppose.

i love having fun with art and doing silly things with it. i like testing stuff out and changing stuff. art is fun! :3

i made this square brush thing. there's not really a tutorial for it i kind of just put random stuff i have no idea lol.

idk how 2 link the brush aahhhh . but i do have it saved,,,

dawg what 😰

guh okay i'm bored and i'm thinking bout existence so here's this. probably will delete later.

when i was younger, i would hate on any form of popular or mainstream artist/creator/whatever. it was because i didn't want to be all popular and trendy and preppy, and such. anything that gained any sort of popularity and wasn't really underated i would "hate" it bc of that reason. even if it wasn't "overrated" i would still hate it even if it was good. i would also be obsessed with the terms overrated and underrated for that reason.

i realize now that that is very bad and i'm starting to get into better habits with that. i want to expand what i engage in so i'm not straight up missing out on life. like yeah bro, breathing's pretty popular, but i aint gonna stop anytime soon. there is so many aspects of life that i didn't engage in because i thought it was "too popular" and "too mainstream". and the same goes for the other way i thought stuff was cringe as well. i missed out on so much of my childhood that way. also, no i'm not saying i'll engage in trends or mainstream stuff in my content. i still very much enjoy more 'original' ideas, so to speak.

i don't want to become repetitive, but i also don't want to be like "waahhh wahhh i'm quirky give me attention"

i basically just want to enjoy stuff i like, unrelated to it's popularity status.

okay done with the info dump i'm done now byyeee

these r my favorite emojis!! 🦄🐾🌸✨⭐️💫🌈🪐🥭🧇🍭🍬🎨🧩🎀🩷💜🩵💛🎵🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🎹💿📀💎🪩👺🤠🤑👽👾🛼🎲☯️☮️5️⃣

it's bc theyr either pretty, silly, or.. some other reason >:3

real