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looks kinda like the creation of adam

i feel like i'm failing myself, there's nothing i can do

(pictures are not mine!!♡)

high, high, neglectful lover

waiting for something to happen today

(pictures are not mine!!♡)

at school rn, i just want to go home and sleep. i can't even use my phone since my seat is right in front of the teacher

you know it's bad when you stop the true crime podcast you're listening to and you try to understand maths by watching some random youtube videos

and so it's autumn. i don't want to go back to school.

like i'm not saying that i know him or that i am in love with him, i just wish i could have had the chance to do so

I'm like a hot & mysterious girl except I'm ugly and never shut up

what's up everybodyy so i just heard my mother screaming and complaining at my father about me, calling me ill-mannered, rude, stupid, irrational and imbecile. she probably had some more adjectives but i decided to close my window and bear with the heat instead of her heinous voice

watch what you say to meeee, careful who you're talking tooooo im on fiireeeee babyy im on fiiiiree

they say i'm wasting time, they say that i'm no good

summer of my life, not doing what i should

those nights were on fire, we couldn't get higher

we didn't know that we had it all

so hi. i haven't opened tumblr in like a month as i was away from home for my scholar internship, now i'm back and i don't even know where to start. first of all, i hate my house and my parents, i wish i could go back to vienna every single moment of every day since i've been here. i despise my bedroom, i eat too much, my bed stinks and everything reminds me of depression. today's been the worst so far, i don't even have the strength to wake up or answer some texts. and viennaaaa, oh how i miss the place, and the people. to them, it probably isn't as important, this is just a normal experience a lot of teenagers do, but to me, it was most likely the closest i'll ever be to knowing what it feels like to be alive, to have a group of friends you can laugh with and get high with and to have people who care about you and know you, even if just a little bit. i was alone and i was alright. nothing will ever bring me back to those feelings. feelings my mind has already erased due to how i'm used to this sick place. and i don't want to go back to school, i fear there's no more energy in me to spend another year like the last few ones. always swinging, ranting and raving, feeling like I'm being dragged around. and that one boy...for the first time ever, i felt like i could be interested in someone in a normal way. for the first time, i wasn't obsessive or unnatural, at least not while living through the moment. only he has a girlfriend. and like, who am i fooling? i am able to recognise that i am not his person anyway, and that nothing would have happened even if he hadn't already been with someone because of how i normally act and handle these situations -i don't feel like i deserve to be with someone, I'm firmly sure nobody will ever feel romantic attraction towards me-, the problem is that i don't know how to forget and how to move on from all of the simple, yet special things that have come upon me, as it never happened to me before.

sometimes i just feel like i wanna hang myself

she just uploaded on letterbox the film we were supposed to see together😆😆 + she's been ghosting me for seven days now, leaving me without an actual answer about the time we should meet for our day out, which is this friday by the way.

I just wish I had at least a real friend, just one person that would care about me

I fucking hate her

I can't stand to live with this burden she leaves in me every single time she acts like she cares about me just enough to play with my feelings and have me only when she needs me, I can't explain it but it physically pains me and I hate herr I hate her so much

then you better call meee ᯓᡣ𐭩

call me 💋

spent so much time making this, hope somebody's gonna like it! (I found all of the pictures on pinterest) ♡

i loove today's weather, it's cloudy - but still hot, just more bearable than usual. I went out in the backyard and it was mystical, I could smell the rain that is about to come and hear the cicadas (as always). It just gave me the will and the strength to stay out of my bedroom for a while, which isn't easy at all. I think I'm happy this way

was just thinking that we are so close to hot summer nightssss mid julyy when you and i were forever wiilddd ♡

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Barbie Dreams & Vintage Gleams !

I couldn't sleep so I made this. It reminds me of my bedroom's vibe and I kinda like it, so I'll probably make more!

can I get a fucking hallelujah? ➳♡₊˚.

cause I just wanna dream, I just wanna drink

I'm a pop-blues singer, glam-bam zinger

fairy tales always have a happy ending🩶

just came back from my school trip. the only things that happened in these three days were crying and constantly being left alone, which resulted in ruining my impression and my memories of such a magnificent city as the one florence is. all that I am thinking is why, why, why I deserve to be treated this way. I asked my only friend not to forget me, but she did so, and then she screamed at me in front of everybody just because I pointed out how I was completely neglected by everyone for three days. I wonder why I am not worthy of having friends, people in my life I can consider as my sisters, a deskmate, even having a mother...

OMGGGG i never posted like this but I don't know anyone I can show my excitement to, I just won a scholarship!!!!!! I'm going away for one month this summer, I still don't know where but I worked so hard for this, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DO DESERVE THIS, I'M CRYING