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what it’s like to learn that you’re autistic as an adult.

“im a seed

and i’ve been sowed on to sand.

my whole life i’m raised as a crop seed, like my friends and family. so that’s what i believe i am.

but i can see them growing, and im still just a seed.

i just don’t fit in.

i wonder whats was wrong with me.

i start to think maybe i’m a bad seed, not meant to be successful.

When i turned 18 i was pulled into the ocean by the tide.

i’m panicking because i know i can’t survive out here alone. no one prepared me for this.

i get to the bottom of the ocean.

i realize this is reality. there’s nothing i can do about it. this is just adulthood.

i start to sprout.

the only way this is possible is if im actually a sea plant. but there’s no way. my parents would have told me.

but i never was a crop seed.

i’ve always been sea weed.

i start to grow.

and i realize there was never anything wrong with me.

so now i know who i am, and i can live the rest of my life. happily, a sea weed.”

だって、私はレインじゃない？

What it's like to have conversations with someone who has Autism Spectrum Disorder and/or ADHD

(Spoken from my own experience)

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was a kid, and ASD a few weeks ago.

I didn't have many friends because I was seen as annoying when I'd talk about my soexial intrests.

I try to control myself when I talk about something I'm incredibly interested in, but sometimes I do go too far.

I'd suggest letting an autistic person "talk it out" until they retire a subject. But from my experience I don't know when to quit.

So please when you would like to get an autistic person to retire a subject, DO NOT YELL AT THEM!

Spoken from personal experience, I was talking very intensely about a special intrest to a friend and without realizing it started yelling.

This friend decided to yell at me back, not in a mean way but to try to get me to be quitet.

I forget that other people have different opinions and that it's weird to get so passionate about certain topics.

That person yelling at me broke my self confidence and I immediately shut up and retracted from talking completely.

I knew if I started talking again I would start crying so I just didn't talk at all.

Sometimes it really feels like I'm an alien trying to understand when someone gets tired of me.

Is there anyone who gets what im saying?

I feel really alone.

Many entities located in a newly discovered area of the Far Plane. Entities form a body of water 2 around them that acts as both a vehicle and shield, allowing them to climb the walls of their environment. When they get to the ceiling, they fall back into the water 2 and start the cycle again.

Serial Experiments Lain (1998) Episode 2