Paranoia

Paranoia

(fluffy Jinki trying to help your anxiety)

You stood at the counter making your morning coffee with an aching pain in your legs though the reason why made you blush like an innocent girl. When you made love all night with Jinki, you couldn’t help but glow in the mornings, even when your legs hurt from all the action. A daze swept over you as you poured the hot water in to your coffee and stirred it; you thought about Jinki’s heart warming smile, his protective hands, the softness of his lips as he kissed you everywhere. You were completely, madly in love, no one could argue with that. 

Your delicious boyfriend entered the room with a dramatic yawn, a large stretch of his arms, dressed in a large white shirt and grey boxer shorts, not even bothering to hide is morning glory. However, his erection and his beaming smile dropped instantly when your look of love turned in to a look of paranoia. Suddenly, when you saw him, your mind told you one day he might not look at you with such desire, one day he might stop loving you, one day he might leave you. The thought of Jinki leaving you made your heart crack apart. 

“Jagi! Are you okay?! What’s wrong Princess?” 

He hurried over to you and placed his warm hands gently on the sides of your cheeks, gazing in to your eyes and trying to read you.

“Ah..yeah I’m okay. I must be out of sorts this morning.” 

You replied quietly but even you knew Jinki would know that was rubbish. Jinki shook his head at your attempt to lie to him. 

“That’s not true baby, you know that. Something is wrong. Please tell me. Is it something I’ve done?” 

It was more like what he might do in the future. You just couldn’t help being paranoid. Having Lee Jinki was the best thing in the world, even a miracle. With him, you had everything. You couldn’t bear to lose him, to be alone and without his love. Looking down, you broke your eye contact with his deep, sad, puppy dog eyes.

“Oppa… I’ve fallen so hard and I love you so much…I just know one day you’ll stop loving me and leave me. I don’t know how I’d cope being without you. You’re just too good to be true.” 

You didn’t want to cry but a tear fell from your sore eyes and before you knew it, you were sobbing on Jinki’s shoulder, dampening the fabric of his shirt. For a moment or so, Jinki stroked your hair affectionately, helping you to calm down before making you look at him. 

“Where on earth did you get that idea from jagiya? You know my love for you is bigger than this earth. I don’t think I could stop loving you, even if I tried, which I don’t want to because you are my everything.” 

Even though he said it so sincerely, you still couldn’t help yourself from worrying and crying which visibly broke Jinki’s heart. He wiped the tears away from your face before kissing your forehead; you still managed to feel so many butterflies even when you were upset. 

“Please don’t cry baby. What can I do or say to prove to you, I’m not going anywhere?” 

Jinki asked in a concerned tone. The thought of marriage briefly passed through your mind but even you knew that it was too soon to be walking down the aisle. The honest truth was that you didn’t know what he could do. Jinki held you lovingly in his arms, allowing you to rest your head on his chest, listening to his heart beat and smelling his familiar cologne. 

“I love you. I love you. I love you.” 

He whispered repeatedly in your ear. Your emotions didn’t know how to react; your heart was racing over Jinki’s cute whispers as your mind worried about him walking out on you. 

“I love you too oppa. Please don’t leave me.” 

You uttered, closing your eyes and enjoying the feeling of cuddling his toned body. 

“I wouldn’t dream of it. I’ll be here, always. Don’t forget, you’ve made me fall crazy in love with you too. I worry if you’ll leave me but you own my heart. I just have to trust and believe that if you love me as much as you say you do, you’ll be mine forever.” 

You hadn’t thought of it from Jinki’s point of view, although you didn’t understand why he worried about you leaving him. However, flipping that thought around, he was confused at you worrying about him leaving you. Wiping your eyes, you looked back in to his sparkling, dark brown eyes that were glistening with adoration for you. With your heart fluttering, he brought his lips to yours and within seconds, everything was okay again. That’s what Jinki’s kiss did, heal all of your worries and wounds. 

“Now, if you don’t mind, I’d like to take you to the bedroom right this minute to show you my love even further.” 

You forgot how he woke up with an erection and a craving for you. Jinki smiled seductively when he saw you blush at his words. It was close to impossible to say no to an aroused Jinki who took such good care of you in the sexiest way possible. 

“I think my coffee can wait…” 

You hinted at him, wanting so much to be back in his arms, naked together. With that, Jinki grabbed your hand, eager to please you and keep the paranoia away.