I've Always Wondered Why I Experienced Internalised Homophobia As A Lesbian But Not Any Other Identity

I've always wondered why i experienced internalised homophobia as a lesbian but not any other identity i identified with, and i realised that other peoples perception of me is entirely different.

i was out with friends the other day and i happened to hold the door open for two girls and smile at them as they walked past, and in my head i was just doing it to be polite but my friends assumed that i was only doing it because of some possible attraction i had to them.

i don't have any other lesbian friends so i cant assume it was just because i am gnc or if it was just because im a lesbian but i realised that everything i do is seen as some extension of my sexuality.

after i realised i was a lesbian i avoided mentioning it or being direct about it because i didn't want it to define me or for other people to be aware of it as if i had something to be ashamed of, but the only reason i felt ashamed is because people only refer to my identity in a negative or mocking context. i noticed that non lesbians hypersexualise me more than they would for a bisexual.

almost every interaction i have with women is seen as motivated by my attraction, as if thats the way i think. it makes me think that non lesbians view my attraction as some kind of perversion and honestly its kind of humiliating.

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