When You're So Tired That You Cannot Even Sleep

I wanted you to be better.. I wanted you to be that better...

some people say

it's painful to

wait for someone.

some people say

it's painful to

forget someone.

But the real pain comes

when you don't know,

If you should wait for them

or try to forget about them.

I know I should forget and move on but what am I supposed to do when this heart is reluctant to let you go. When these memories hunt me down every single time I think of love.

They say people remembers the sad moments more than those happy moments.

But I remember all those moments that I dreamt about you. Lived all those happy moments, erased all those bad moments just to think about you. I know that I'm delusional. But this never happened to me before. Untill I met you. Even if it sounds cliche I just knew that you were the one for me. But I had to let you go. Cause I was never the one for you.

Once I heard, 'If even the waiting is joyful, then it's love'. I loved waiting for you. I loved thinking that you'd change and realise why I said those staffs. But I guess not everyone is like me who read through the lines.

Everyone said I deserved better. I guess I knew that too but I really wanted you to be that better and wanted myself to be a better version for you.

Everything is now a story when I wanted it to be a book where we both would have kids and a beautiful home to begin with...

oyeee ....tell me something you hate about me

Hate?? I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!!!! why did you ask me this question?? 🙂

okay- I mean- I am a november girl- but- ITSSSS TRUEEEEEEE...... 😭🌸

what is your ideal type of guy/man? You are so into art, film, drama, theatre, book and other stuffs so this is my question to you.

Anirban Bhattacharya

.....is my ideal type. He is the person of charm, intellect, education. I learned alot from this person. If I ever date someone, I would surely date someone like him.

He has captured my whole heart after Uttam Kumar and Shah Rukh Khan. He is the one who gave the inspiration to read Bengali books and to cherish the fact that "Yes I am Bengali".

I lose words when I write or think about him. He told in one of his interview that "I don't have to choose someone, life is not a toy shop that I will go and find my ideal type and when my works are done I will throw it off" . If someone say these things obviously being head over heals is not a crime..

Lots of love Anirban..📜

Hello everyone.. I had to pen down these thoughts which kept lingering in my mind for past three or four hours! Like, what has happened to tumblr?? People are being so cheap here!

(Nothing has happened with me but with one of my mutuals..)

My profile is not for controversial items or stuffs but these hypocrites are taking a hectic test of my patience...

People are here for sexting, wanting nudes, playing a "sasta shark tank" investment game with artists who are working day and night to make themselves survive in a country which includes structural and involuntary unemployment...

The ones who have invested themselves into movies, art, creation, books, music, dance and etc., are made fun of and they are even fooled. These unworthy hypocrites are taking the rightful use of their innocence...

I feel so sorry for those who suffer these things.. You all are purely unworthy of these things...

I have never defamed anyone here on Tumblr, if I have ever done anything, then I feel that I have done the right thing.. because Tumblr is not for the one's who are into sexual stuffs.. Please visit the pornography websites and enjoy yourselves but please... donot with the one's who are here to show their creative sides..

This is an earnest request and please @staff look after the people who are wearing the mask of positivity but are conman and pure hypocrites... They require immense therapy.. I repeat.. THEY. REQUIRE. IMMENSE. THERAPY.

No pun intended...

I am sorry... really sorry...

Tagging the one's who needs to be aware..💗✨

@itihaasisick @intellectual6666 @anarkali-disco-chali @emartirabdi @enigma-the-mysterious @choppedphilosopherharmony @arjokonna @zakhmpemarham @thecaffeinatedresearcher @amritaaaa5 @inmyworldblr @alhad-si-simran @alhad-maharani @embersariya @shyam-kariya @shrouded-mystery30 @shadowseductress @moonhymnss

পরিনীতা সিনেমার একটা সিন আছে, যেখানে শুভশ্রী বলে,'আমায় ভালোবাসলে না কেন বাবাইদা?আমাকে ভালোবাসলেতো আজ জীবনটা অন্য রকম হতো!'

আমার আরেকটা পছন্দের মুভি আছে Forrest Gump(1994) যেখানে জেনি কে গাম্প জিজ্ঞেস করে 'Why don't you love me, Jenny?I am not a smart man,but I know what love is.'

-কি অসম্ভব মন ভার করা দুটো লাইন।আমরা সবাই হয়তো কাউকে না কাউকে এইটা জিজ্ঞাসা করতে চাই যে-আমায় কেন ভালোবাসলে না?কিন্তু আমরা কেউই জিজ্ঞেস করতে পারিনা।কাউকেই জিজ্ঞাসা করা যায়না।কারণ শুনতে রূঢ় হলেও এটাই সত্যি যে-

'Unfortunately, People have the rights to decline your love no matter how pure your intention are! You are not what they want.'

Its hard to accept the reality when the person was never yours..

Tumi shondharo meghomala

Tumi amar sadhero sadhona

@callonpeevesie @medusasprotegedaughter @beingdevipdf @shaonsim @mitraavarunaa hehe check it out.

The sort of absolutely disgusting shit that takes place in my city, in my country, an example (TW: r*pe, m*rder):

I live in Kolkata, India. Recently, a second year doctor in training was brutally r*ped, and m*rdered, then her body was defiled again, in my city in her own workplace. It happened when she was resting after a long shift. She only wanted to take a few hour's nap before she went back to taking care of her patients, and she was accosted by what seemed like one person at first, later determined as a group. Only one person has been arrested as of yet, who conveniently gave himself up. It is suspected that this man is only a scape goat, and the real criminals are doctors and interns working in the same hospital as her (R.G.Kar Medical College). It is also suspected that this happened because she was privy to a bigger set of criminal activities taking place in this institution, and this was done to silence her. We are all angry and upset. This crime echoes that which happened in Delhi years ago (in 2012) to a physiotherapy intern. The chances are slim, since the criminals may have deep political connections, but I hope the perpetrators are brought to court. Even death wouldn't be a good enough punishment. Fuck r*pers and fuck the government.

I sincerely dont understand why CISCE has a grudge over the commerce stream. Today was my last isc exam and it was accounts in which I am actually good and I practice it everyday. LIKE EVERYDAY AND TO BE MORE ACCURATE I SOLVED FOUR BOOKS OF ACCOUNTS. TS Grewal as well as DK Goel.

Todays question paper was so tough that even the best accounts teacher of our school was shocked. Some of my CA friends told me that it was tougher than their intermediate and they even asked "bro how did you attempt all the sums and actually did it".

The question paper was not solvable within 3hours. It was more of less a 5hour paper.

This whole thing is making me doubt my other exams which went well. The question was not at all according to the specimen which was given by the council. Then why do they upload specimem if they don't want to follow it.

It would have been good if I was in WB board or CBSE. Things would have been much easier. Shame on CISCE.