Conflicted: Pt.3 🎀
Maddy P.O.V
When I woke up I found some leftover cereal in a bowl and a few bottles of beer scattered around the place.
I went around the kitchen island and found a note attached to the fridge.
“Went to rehearsal with Iz. Be back soon sis.” Duff wrote.
I rolled my eyes and crumbled up the paper throwing it in the trash.
“What am I supposed to do all by myself!” I groaned looking around the quiet and empty apartment space.
I planned on waking up early and spending some time with Duff but I knew how important the band was to him and I wasn’t going to be a pain in the ass about it.
I just missed my brother which is why I wanted to be around Duff.
“DUFF OPEN UP. I’VE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOU ALL MORNING.” yelled a deep voice from outside.
I opened the door and was met with a fiery redhead who upon seeing my face softened his features and raised an eyebrow towards me.
Axl.
“Is Duff around?” he asked leaning an arm against the door frame and peeking around the apartment.
“I thought he was with you rehearsing? Izzy went with him too.” I told him.
“Those fuckers. I knew it.” he barked kicking his foot against the wall.
I jumped up a little at his sudden outburst and backed away from the door.
“Shit. Sorry Maddy I didn’t mean to scare you.”
“It’s just, we’ve been trying to work on a new song but instead of including me they go by themselves because apparently I have anger issues and spaz out when things don’t go my way.” he huffed
Anger issues? That’s for sure…
“That sucks.” I muttered staring down at my feet kicking the air softly.
“You probably don’t get it. I don’t know why I even told you.” he laughed giving me a look.
“Okay well Duff isn’t here so you can leave.” I huffed angrily.
“Could I still come in?” he asked giving me puppy eyes.
“Fine.” I said letting him through to Duff’s apartment.
“So what’s a girl like you doing in L.A?” he asked looking me up and down.
It felt like everyone in L.A dressed glam and metal except for me.
Duff and I were from a small town in Seattle and I didn’t really catch the whole punk vibe being from there but instead I had my own style.
I was a girly girl but not in a shove it in your face type of way.
I believe everyone has their own unique style and people shouldn’t be shamed for having a different style than others.
“I’m here to see Duff and spend some time with him.” I told him handing him a glass of water which he generously gulped down.
“Hm. Well since Duff isn’t here maybe I could show you around?” he asked with a smirk.
“I’m not sure if Duff will like that.”
“Oh come on. I’m not a bad guy. I won’t try to hit on you or anything but I can’t keep a promise.” he joked winking at me.
Duff P.O.V
Izzy and I had left to practice some lyrics and come up with a catchy riff for our next song without anyone else or Axl.
I didn’t really have anything against anyone but it was more peaceful when Izzy and I were the only ones recording in the studio.
The rest just brought chaos with them especially Axl.
Every-time a certain part of the song wouldn’t go his way or he wasn’t feeling in good shape to sing he would just throw a tantrum and end up leaving an unfinished song for us to finish.
Which is why I convinced Izzy to wake up early and help me finish this song for our next album.
“Can we go home now. I’m hungry.” Izzy whined pulling out a new pack of cigarettes and lighting one up.
“Yeah man. Let’s get out of here. I hope Maddy made something to eat.” I said hearing my stomach grumble as we both exited the recording studio and headed towards my car.
“Oh shit. I forgot my hat. Wait here.” Izzy said rushing back in the studio.
I groaned and started to make my way towards my car when I heard a deep laugh and a giggle accompanying it.
“Axl. We should get back now.” the familiar voice echoed.
“Got it!” Izzy yelled coming out of the studio fairly quickly with his hat in the air.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw two heads whip in our direction and that’s when I saw Axl and my little sister practically holding hands with how close they were.
“Axl Rose you motherfucker.” I yelled.
Maddy P.O.V
Axl and I were walking down the same street that they would go to record music often.
“Axl are you sure we won’t run into them here? We should get home now anyways.” I told him worried that Duff would show up any minute now.
“Nah. Don’t worry. I doubt they’ll see us.” Axl said shrugging me off and walking ahead.
“Are you sure?” I asked again catching up to him.
He leaned in close so that our hands were practically touching about to tell me something when I heard….Izzy?
“I got it!” Izzy yelled.
And when I turned around I saw my brother standing by his car shooting Axl the meanest look I’ve ever seen on his face.
Fuck.
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing so close to my little sis.” he yelled shoving Axl causing him to tumble over a trash can.
“Stop it Duff. He was just showing me around the city since you decided to ditch me with Izzy.” I yelled at him while helping Axl up.
I could see Izzy giving me looks from behind Duff not saying a word.
“Relax Mckagan. All I was doing was showing her a bit of L.A.” Axl groaned rolling his eyes at my brother.
“Yeah right. And then afterwards you were gonna take her to your bed. Isn’t that right Axl?” Duff retorted grabbing me by the arm and moving me away from Axl while accidentally shoving me right in front of Izzy.
“Duff I think you’re overreacting. Besides I’m with Erin and she’s the only girl for me.” he told my brother as they got into another argument completely ignoring Izzy and I.
“S-sorry.” I mumbled staring at my Mary Jane’s which were accompanied by frilly white socks in contrast to the dark black rocker boots Izzy wore.
“It’s fine.” he murmured putting his cigarette to his mouth and blowing out away from me.
Axl was a handsome guy. But for some reason I never felt shy or awkward when I was around him or any of the others except for Izzy.
He had that effect on me where I went dumb and didn’t know how to speak properly.
“Cute outfit.” he said with his iconic smirk tracing his eyes over my pink mini skirt and white top.
“Thanks.” I blushed looking away from him and towards the other duo that were busy talking each other’s ears off.
“So how was your date with Axl?” he asked nudging me lightly on the shoulder.
“It wasnt a date. He was just showing me around!” I protested turning back around to give him a stern look.
“Axl doesn’t just take girls to see L.A.”
“That must mean you have something or look like something he wants.” he joked looking at me with an eyebrow raised.
He took another long drag from his cigarette before dropping it on the floor and stepping on it, coming close to my ear.
“If I were you I’d be more careful near Axl.”
“Especially when you wear tiny clothes like these.” he whispered bringing his hand out to play with the mini skirt I was wearing.
“Izzy.” I breathed out but before I could get another word out my brother stopped me.
“Come on Maddy. We’re going back to the apartment.” he said leading the way for all 3 of us to follow.
Conflicted : Pt. 2🎀
Izzy P.O.V
"So..how long is your sister staying with you?"
"Why?" he asked narrowing his eyes towards me.
"She's 16 Izzy and Maddy is my baby sis. So it'll never happen." Duff remarked rolling his eyes and scoffing at me.
"Chill man. I was just curious." I replied nonchalantly.
"I've been staying with Angela and she's been a real pain in the ass lately."
"It's only a matter of time before she gets enough of me and throws me to the curb." I groaned slumping further into the couch.
"You know you're welcome here anytime Iz . But my sis is taking the guest room so I guess you could take the couch." he shrugged getting off the couch to get some water.
Maddy P.O.V
I woke up in the middle of the night to some noise out in the living room.
I groaned and got out of bed to tell Duff to shut up but instead I saw someone I didn't expect.
"Izzy?" I softly called out.
"Hey Maddy. Sorry did I wake you?" he asked peeking up from the guitar he was lightly strumming.
"No it's okay." I stupidly grinned even though he did indeed wake me up.
Whenever Izzy was around I always went dumb like a schoolgirl with a silly crush.
That’s probably how he saw me anyways.
"I couldn't sleep so I thought I would play some notes to finish this fucking song for Axl.”
Axl…as in Axl Rose the lead singer of Guns N’ Roses.
I had met Axl along with Izzy when Duff formally introduced me to all of them the day I arrived in L.A and the first one to introduce himself was Axl.
He was extremely flirty but I couldn’t tell if he was like that with everyone or just to me.
I couldn’t help but get giddy since I hadn’t ever gotten any attention from anyone at school since they all thought I weird just because I was shy and quiet.
Being around the guys boosted my self confidence and made me feel like I was pretty and wanted.
Something I also felt around Izzy.
I came around to where he was sitting forgetting that I was in the same pajamas he had seen when he first came.
"Shit." I giggled.
"What's wrong?" he asked looking at me with a big grin.
"My clothes aren't really appropriate." I quickly muttered pulling my pajama shorts down to cover my ass.
"I don't mind Maddy." Izzy shrugged wondering why she kept repeating herself.
He thought she looked sexy.
"How long will you be staying with us till?" I asked.
"Probably not too long."
"You can stay here as long as you need. I'm sure Duff won't mind." I said giving him a soft smile.
"Just to see that smile I might extend my stay here." he grinned not forgetting to look me up and down.
"Izzy...my brother-
"Chill Maddy. You're basically like a little sister to me and besides your 16." he nonchalantly shrugged.
Is he being serious right now?
He’s only like 3 years older than me since I’ll be turning 17 soon. That's practically nothing!
"Izzy you're only 3 years older than me technically since I’m turning 17 soon. It's not even that big of a deal." I unintentionally whined as my bottom lip pouted.
He saw that and smirked.
"Little Mckagan thinks she's grown." he joked giving me a similar pout to mock me.
"Come on Maddy. Be real. You're a fucking child." he spat out quite harshly.
"If I’m a child than what are these." I spat back yanking up my overly tight pajama top and exposing my bigger than normal breast.
"Maddy I-" he stopped when he looked and saw my hands holding my breasts together.
"Fuck." he muttered placing his hand over his crotch to hide any evidence of a growing buldge.
"Get out of here Maddy."
"Why. You’re the one who’s staying in Duff’s apartment. I should be the one to tell you to leave.” I retorted yanking my shirt back down and crossing my arms.
“What’s your deal?” he asked giving me a questionable look.
“You know how Duff feels about me hanging around you alone or any of the other guys.”
“Especially Axl.”
“Why does Duff have to control who I can and cannot talk to.” I huffed getting up from the couch and stomping back to my room.
“Don’t know ask him.” he silently muttered before laying down on the couch to sleep.
As I closed the door behind me I let out a squeal of frustration.
“I totally embarrassed myself out there.”
“I don’t even know what got over me to flash him. I’ve never been that bold to any guy in my life. Hell I don’t even talk to any boys anyways!”
“Whatever!” I thought climbing into my white comforter and calling it a night.
hope u all enjoyed🎀💞💘
Conflicted Chapter 21🎀:
Maddy P.O.V:
I didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to anyone because Duff had called our mother and told her everything that happened.
My mother was furious and demanded to see me as soon as possible which is why Duff had already bought my plane ticket for Seattle.
When I first came, I imagined the city to be full of stuck-up people and fashionable drama queens who would look down on you if you were from another city, but I soon grew to enjoy the mountainous city with endless sandy beaches.
I didn’t want to leave.
“It is for your own good. I can't stand seeing you surrounded by drugs and men who can't treat you right." he insisted, driving us to the airport as I gazed out the window, taking in the city for one final time.
I wasn’t even sure if I would be back.
Maybe in a couple of years but for now it was goodbye for good.
We drove by the diner we used to go to with the boys, as well as the rehearsal studio where Axl and I had gotten caught.
And then we walked by the theatre where Izzy had taken me and we happened to have sex for the first time together.
Not how I had imagined sleeping with Izzy for the first time, but I guess it wasn't a huge thing to him because he had sex with women in all kinds of places and it didn't matter to him if we slept in a romantic setting or not.
“I know you probably hate me right now but I’m doing this for your own good.”
“Whatever.” I shakily spat, unable to control the tears that were flowing down my face.
“Maddy he’s no good for you! He’s a drug dealer for christ sake.” he shouted.
“I don’t care. I love him! It’s not fair that I couldn’t even say goodbye to him.” I sobbed, covering my face with my hands and not holding back.
Duff looked at me with shame and felt terrible, but he knew that if I stayed, I'd be dragged into drugs and something even worse, so he put his foot down and sent me back home.
“We’re here.” he muttered, putting the car in park and getting out to grab my things.
I walked out, disregarding my brother, grabbing my belongings from his hands, and followed behind him to avoid him and to get checked in for my flight.
He spoke with a few employees who were fans of their band and had a laugh, with some agreeing to take a picture, which irritated me even more because he appeared as if he didn't care that I was offended by his decision.
“Alright sir, your sister is all checked in and will need to proceed through this corridor to her gate.” the attendant said with a smile.
My brother turned to give me a hug, but I dodged it and huffed past him, stomping as I marched away from him, through the mass of people, while sobbing.
“I love you!” I heard my brother's voice shout, but I was too stubborn to glance back, and when I did, it was too late since Duff had vanished in the the crowd, and I couldn't tell him I loved him as well.
I began crying even more since I loved my brother and knew he was only looking after me, and I became enraged with Izzy for making me angry at my brother, but I eventually got over it, understanding that it was simply my fault for being like a disrespectful brat to my elder brother.
My flight was about to take off, and I had arrived just in time, shortly after crying in the airport bathroom.
I found my seat and sat down, grateful to Duff for choosing a window seat for me, and peered out as the plane slowly began to take off with everyone settled in.
I wondered how everyone else was doing as I took off, and if Axl knew I was going because he was the last one to speak with Duff.
I sighed at the thought of having to deal with my mother when I got home and glanced at the time.
It was 8 a.m., so I decided to nap until the plane landed, which would be in 3 hours and 45 minutes.
… … …
Izzy P.O.V
When I awoke the next morning, I had a terrible headache and had no recollection what the fuck happened the night before or how I ended up in a bed.
It wasn't the comfortable couch I slept on, but Slash's bed in his new home.
The same bed I was in with Maddy when I fucked her at the party.
I rubbed my eyes and gulped a few Tynelols mixed with some leftover whiskey Slash had left on his side table before getting up to wash my face and clean my teeth.
"Finally, you are awake. "I got my bed back." Slash cheered, dashing to his bed, and doing a back flip on it.
I rolled my eyes annoyed at his hyper attitude, still coming down from my headache.
"Dude you know what you did last night, right?" Slash remarked, raising one eyebrow at me.
“What do you mean?”
“You totally scared off Maddy, Axl had to come and save her from your heroin rage.”
“Oh and Duff hates your guts now.” he added at the end.
“I don’t remember any of that.” I murmured.
“You pushed her and she cried, then Duff and Axl came to help her. I would’ve helped her too but I was totally wasted which I regret because you were being a real asshole bro.”
“Where is she right now?” I worried, wondering why I was at Slash's place instead of Duff's.
“Maddy left this morning back home.”
I rushed down the stairs to get his house phone and phoned Duff, hoping he would pick up and that Maddy hadn't left yet, so I could persuade him to alter his mind.
“Yes Slash?” Duff answered.
“Where’s Maddy, can I speak to her please-
“Izzy, she’s gone and you don’t deserve to speak with her after what you did to her. You pushed her on the ground and when she was crying out for you, you ignored her.” he huffed, angry about how his sister was treated by someone he considered one of his best friends.
“Duff, I’m really so-
“Save it Iz. I’m just really disappointed in you.” he sighed, rubbing his forehead.
“Did she hurt herself anywhere? I hope she’s okay…at least you were sober enough to take care of her.”
“Axl and I were.”
“….Axl?…”I grumbled, imagining him rushing to her rescue and making himself the hero in front of her.
"I didn't even say goodbye to her." I mumbled to myself, loathing how she last saw me and how I treated her.
“Sorry man.” was all Duff said before hanging up the phone.
Fuck.
I was mad at myself but I was more mad at Duff for letting her go without getting the chance to say goodbye to her.
I didn’t even know her house number back home and there was no way that Duff would give it to me after what had just occurred between us.
I just hope she didn't forget about me when she returned to Seattle, because I could never forget her, no matter how hard he tried to keep us apart.
I loved that girl.
Maddy P.O.V
My flight arrived sooner than expected, given how cloudy the city was, a dramatic contrast to the blue skies of the Golden State.
“I hope you enjoyed your journey with United, and we hope to see you all soon. Welcome to Seattle, Washington. Enjoy your visit, and for those returning home, welcome back!" The flight attendant spoke with a cheery grin, opposite my look.
Which was gloomy, like my hometown, not because I was hated home, I love Seattle more than I loved California, but because of the wrath I was about to face from my mother.
My mother was waiting for me outside, so I grabbed my suitcase and proceeded to the exit to find my mother's car.
“Madalaine, is that you!” I heard my mother's angry voice ring in the cold breeze of the city.
“Yes. It's me mom." I murmured, already annoyed by how upset she was with me.
"I don't want to be here any more than you do." She persisted, collecting my belongings and leading me to her car as we both entered.
"We will chat when we go home, young lady. You can nap on the way home," my mother replied quietly, turning on the radio and hearing the booming voice of the local Seattle news station as we drove
I gazed out the windows, gazing at the familiar snow-covered mountains and green trees that loomed over every street, which always seemed taller than the mountains themselves.
“We’re home. Are you awake?” she asked, nudging my shoulder lightly.
I pretended to be asleep so I wouldn't have to deal with my mom later, but she knew better since she called me out and threatened to ground me permanently if I didn't get out of the car, so I jumped out right away.
We got situated in, and I hung all of my clothing in my closet because I knew if I didn't do it now, I wouldn't get around to it later due to laziness.
There was only one piece of clothing left and it was the tiny black dress I had wore that day when Izzy cheated on me with the groupie.
I made a face at it and knew if my mother saw it, she would scream, so I immediately flung it under the bed, hoping she would never have to check there, put my luggage on the shelf in my closet, and climbed into my bed, cuddling my stuffed bunny and watching TV to soothe me.
And when I turned on the television, there was a special screening of Guns N' Roses playing their songs on loop on MTV, which made me want to scream and yank my hair out when I saw Izzy appear on the screen.
He didn't even see me before I left for my trip because of Duff, which reminded me of how I felt on the way home, causing me to cry, and that's when my mother went into my room.
She stood quietly at the entrance, observing my face, as a song played in the background. My mom scoffed at "Paradise City".
“Yeah right! Madeline, don’t you think the girls are prettier in Seattle? My mother joked, attempting to lighten the mood given how distraught her daughter appeared over the alleged superstar her older son had called in about earlier.
“So, tell me, which one is he?" She demanded, sitting at the end of my blanket-covered feet as I watched the television in front of me, anxious for another look at Izzy.
“That one." I whispered as Izzy appeared quickly on the television screen in the music video for Paradise City, wearing red leather pants that contrasted with his white shirt, black vest, and bandana that was wrapped around his head.
"Hm." she paused, gazing at the man her daughter had fallen in love with before shifting her gaze to another who was dressed entirely in white.
“What about him?” she said, peering at the lead singer and winking.
"Mom." I grumbled, embarrassed that I had to have this conversation with her about the same males I had sex with, which my mother was absolutely unaware of, else she would have murdered me.
“I sent you to L.A. because I trusted you to spend time with your brother not so you could go fall in love with some guy who thinks he's a big rockstar."
“Mom you don’t even know him.”
“I know him enough to know that he’s no good for you.”
“How would you-
“I was a young girl like you once.” her mother, reacted to her foolish daughter, who assumed her mother was always this elderly.
“So…who was it?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Elvis…..and no I didn’t sleep with him or date him but I know how it feels to have a crush!” my mom insisted.
“This is different.” I mumbled, curling up into a ball underneath my comforter.
“Honey, I know I was mad earlier but I realized that won’t solve our problem.”
“You have to tell me Maddy. So I can understand your feelings toward….Izzy? Is it?”
“Mom I love him.” I spat it out, feeling the need to get it off my chest, and burst into tears because I realized he wasn't with me and how much I missed him.
“Sweetie don’t cry. It’s okay.” my mom cooed rubbing my back, coming to cuddle with me.
“Are you sure you love him?”
“Y-Yes.” I sobbed, hugging my stuffed bunny tighter, wishing it was Izzy.
“Okay then why don’t I speak to Duff about this and have them all visit?”
“All of them?..” I asked, wondering why she couldn’t just invite Izzy alone.
“Honey I would like to meet all of them so I can see if they are respectful enough to be around my daughter or not." she said.
“That’s alright.” I replied, if it was anything to get Izzy back, I wouldn’t have a problem with agreeing to it.
guys i found an interview of axl saying girl’s boyfriends would come up to him saying their gf went up to the hotel room w izzy & asking when is she coming bck & axl would say idk but not right now
like hello?? we been knew he was a man whore🤣🤣🤣🤣(i still want him)
i’m so excited to go out in cute outfits this summer
Conflicted : Pt. 7🎀
Maddy P.O.V
Axl joined us a while later. It was peaceful but then Axl mentioned something about rehearsal and Izzy started arguing with him about it.
And instead of helping, Duff turned up the radio even more to drown them out leaving me stuck in the middle.
"Guys stop please!" I pleaded pushing them away from both sides.
“Sorry, Maddy. But my friend Izzy here has an issue with my singing, and I need to figure out why." Axl argued.
“That's because everytime something doesn't go your way you disappear and our fucking song goes unfinished!" Izzy yelled.
“Izzy stop.” I begged, pleading with eyes.
“Whatever.” he scoffed turning the other way to face his window.
Axl gave me a strange look, glancing at both of us before shrugging it off.
“Axl how are you and Erin?" I asked, not sure how else to start a conversation.
"She’s fine. Why do you care?"
“I was just asking." I said, rolling my eyes.
“So did you enjoy my L.A tour, or would you like another private one?" he grinned, scooting closer towards me.
I noticed Izzy shift in his seat when he heard Axl, so I played into it.
I laughed and twirled my hair with my finger before responding.
“Yes I would like that."
“Are you gonna wear that sexy outfit of yours that you wore last time?” he smirked.
“Okay that’s enough Axl. Leave the poor girl alone.” Izzy spoke.
“What’s wrong with you? You’re just jealous because you want her.” he retorted making Izzy scrunch his brows.
“I don’t!”
“Save it Izzy. I can tell the way you look at her you have the hots for your best friend’s little sissy.” Axl mocked.
“What are you gonna do about it?” Izzy asked putting an arm around me.
“Fuck off. She doesn’t want you.” Axl barked pulling me into his arms.
“She doesn’t want you either!” Izzy spat yanking me back towards him.
“STOP.” I yelled causing Duff to slam the brakes.
“What’s going on!” Duff yelled turning around to face Izzy, Axl and I.
“Nothing.” we all said in unison.
“Okay well not that any of you were paying attention but we’re here.”
We all climbed out of the car wanting nothing more than some fresh air.
Axl and Duff went running towards the beach but Izzy pulled me back behind a shed and shoved his lips on mine hungrily.
“Stay away from Axl.” he whispered pulling off my lips.
“You’re not my boyfriend.” I huffed crossing my arms.
“It doesn’t matter. Your mine.”
Duff P.O.V
I wasn’t a dumbass as everyone around me thought.
I saw the way Izzy looked at Maddy and I intended on letting him know to back off.
If there was one thing I was keen on, it was keeping family away from any of the guys.
Including Izzy.
He wasn’t exactly boyfriend material. And I saw the way he treated women like they didn’t mean anything to him.
I’m not saying I’m any better but I know I’m better than Izzy regarding women.
He didn’t even flinch when Angela was being shared between the guys.
It was a normal occurrence to him and I wasn’t gonna let him turn Maddy into a slut.
“Hey man you coming or what?” Izzy asked coming up behind me.
“Yeah. Hey Iz can I ask you a question?”
“Sure what’s up.”
“Are you seeing Maddy behind me back?” I asked scanning his face for any reaction.
“Maddy? Come on Duff she’s like a little kid.” he joked.
I saw Maddy listening to us out of the corner of my eye and once Izzy turned around she stomped off looking pretty upset.
What was that about?…
“Okay. I’m just making sure bro.” I told him giving a pat on the shoulder before joining Axl in the water.
Maddy P.O.V
I trudged around the water looking out to the waves when I saw Duff talking to Izzy with his arms crossed and brows furrowed.
“Are you seeing Maddy behind my back?” Duff asked giving Izzy a stern look.
But instead of admitting to it, Izzy gave a big laugh and shrugged it off calling me a little kid.
What the hell does that mean?
I stomped off annoyed by the attitude I was receiving from his and went to sit on the bench which was located on the other side of the beach.
This day sucked and I just wanted to go home and forget about all of this mess.
Clearly Izzy didn’t care enough to tell Duff about our relationship and I didn’t want to lie to my brother about it either.
So I decided I was going to call it quits with Iz.
I felt like that was the right thing to do.
“Maddy.”
“What do you want Izzy.” I sighed in defeat.
I quickly wiped the leftover tears off my face and scooted over allowing him to have a seat.
“I know you heard the conversation with Duff.”
“It’s fine. You did what you had to for your friendship.”
“I know but it was fucked that you had to hear that and so I’m sorry.”
“What exactly do you want me to say though?” I spat back.
“I just heard the guy I’m in love with talking in such a demeaning way about me.”
“You love me?” he softly asked pushing my hair out of the way so he could see my face.
“I don’t know what to say.”
“Just tell me you love me. Even if you don’t mean it please.” I begged letting a tear fall down my cheek.
“Fuck Maddy.” he shouted.
“You don’t even know what love is. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” he urged.
“This is humiliating. I have to leave.” I bawled getting as far away from him as far as I could.
“Wait.” he yelled but I kept running until I bumped into Axl.
“What’s wrong?” he asked pulling me into a hug.
“I-Izzy. Doesn’t love m-me.” I sobbed crying into his bare chest with my salty tears.
“He’s no good for you. I’ve known him ever since we were little. He’s never gonna change.”
“Maddy. What happened!” Duff called out grabbing my face between his hands.
“Nothing. C-can we go home?”
“Of course. Let’s go right now.”
His voice is so pretty 💋🖤
HOCUS POCUS (1993) dir. Kenny Ortega
Conflicted: Pt 11🎀
(i rewrote this bcuz the other version of this chapter lowkey didn’t make sense to me!!!)
Maddy P.O.V
The next day I decided to spend the day with Izzy since Duff knew about our relationship now.
I wanted to make the most out of it because I had no idea what I was going to do when I left L.A. after the summer was over.
“Are you ready?” Izzy yelled causing me sped up the rest of my makeup routine.
“Yes!” I replied shoving myself into my sundress and combing my hair.
“Finally. I’ve been waiting for like 30 minutes.”
“Geez. I’m sorry.” I spat grabbing Duff’s keys.
“It’s okay. Next time be quicker or else I’ll leave with Angela.”
“What!” I yelled staring at him with a confused look on my face.
“I’m only kidding Maddy.” he laughed coming up to kiss me.
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” I grinned kissing him before we both left to go to the movies.
On the way there I could see the hills in the background of L.A. peek out and it reminded me so much of home but instead of hills we had mountains back in Seattle.
“This reminds me so much of home.” I sighed leaning against the window.
“Your from Seattle right? I’ve heard so many good things about it from Duff.”
“Yeah. I love it there. It’s definitely not as glamorous as L.A. but that’s my home.”
“I feel you. Sometimes I miss Indiana too but then I remember there’s nothing for me over there. My future lies in L.A.”
“Yeah and me of course!” I winked causing him to let out a a little laugh.
“So I wanted to ask you something?”
“Yeah. What?” he asked raising his brow.
“What’s gonna happen to us when I go back to Seattle?” I asked wondering whether or not he would tell me something I wanted to hear or the opposite.
“I don’t know Maddy. I guess time will time.” he sighed shaking his head.
What does he mean by that.
As he turned the corner the movie theatre came into view and on the sign outside in big black bold letters read “BATMAN”.
“HEY GUYS!” I heard as soon as we stepped out of the car.
Oh my god. What was Duff doing here with Slash and Axl?!?!?
“Izzy did you tell them we were coming to watch a movie.” I whined stomping my foot.
“I swear I didn’t say a word.” he shrugged putting his hands in the air.
“Soooo guys what movie are we watching!” Slash grinned with his dark black shades covering his eyes.
“Batman.” Axl replied looking rather angry.
“Hi Axl.” I waved, rather nervously after what had happened between us both.
“Hey.” he harshly replied before walking off with Slash to go get tickets.
“The fuck.” Izzy responded looking off at Axl in confusion.
“I-It’s fine let’s just go.” I said tugging on Izzy’s arm to follow them in line for tickets.
“We’re all going to see Batman. Looks like we’ll be in the same theater room.” Duff grinned holding up all our tickets.
“Did you do this on purpose!” I huffed scrunching my nose in anger at my older brother.
“No Maddy I did not.” he replied rolling his eyes at me before walking off to the ICEE machine.
“Look at my mouth guys!” Slash laughed sticking out his tongue which was now a dark blue color due to the raspberry ICEE he was slurping on.
Axl looked and rolled his eyes at the scene.
I noticed Axl didn’t have anything in his hand so I offered to get him something.
“Axl did you want anything? I was gonna go get some candy?”
“Coming from you. No thanks.” he scoffed crossing his arms.
“Did I do something?” I asked wondering why he had this sudden attitude change.
“Nope. Not at all.” he replied casually walking past me with Duff and Slash to the theatre.
“Forget about him Maddy. He’s not your problem.” Izzy groaned grabbing my hand in his and leading me to our seats.
I squinted my eyes trying to look at the dimly lit theatre to see where exaclty and seat was and you can imagine the shock on my face when I see my seat is right next to Axl.
And Izzy is right next to me. Making me the monkey in the middle.
Great.
“This will be interesting.” Axl smirked shifting in his seat towards me.
Wasn’t he just mad earlier?
“Keep your eyes on the movie Axl.” Izzy threatened giving him a stare.
Axl just rolled his eyes and grabbed a handful of popcorn shoving it in his mouth.
“Hey! That’s my popcorn.” Slash whined grabbing it and putting it away from Axl.
“It’s mine too. I paid half!” Axl argued grabbing it again causing some of the popcorn to go flying in the air.
“Guys! Behave for god’s sake.” Duff shouted as the movie lights became even dimmer and eventually shut off completely, signaling the start of the movie.
Izzy and I got comfortable in our seat and I leaned my head against his shoulder halfway in the movie trying hard not to fall asleep.
I could feel Axl staring at us throughout the movie as we cuddled but I ignored it not thinking too much about it.
“Can you guys move please. I have to pee.” Axl groaned shoving my legs aside to get through to the stairs.
“You could’ve waited.” I thought rolling my eyes as Axl’s childish behavior at times.
“Don’t worry about it. He’s just an ass like that.” Izzy said noticing the look on my face.
“It’s okay.” I said giving him an assuring smile.
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” Izzy grinned.
I leaned in and gave him a kiss unable to control myself when he started at me with those soft eyes of his.
He was so handsome.
“Your so handsome Izzy.” I moaned deepening the kiss and grabbing at him to pull him closer towards me.
“Ew!” I heard my older brother spat making me pull away quickly and sheepishly grin.
“I don’t know. I thought it was hot.” Slash smirked giving me a wink.
I blushed and looked away towards the movie screen seeing Izzy with a similar smirk plastered over his face.
“Tell Duff you have to use the restroom.” he whispered as he got up and left quickly so Duff and Slash wouldn’t notice.
“D-Duff. I have to go pee.” I muttered not giving him a chance to reply as I rushed down the stairs and opened the exit door, letting the cool air touch my skin.
I didn’t see Izzy so I continued walking down the narrow corridor of the theatre when I ran into Axl by accident.
“Watch where you’re going sweetie.” he said giving me a tight lipped smile.
“What’s your deal! I haven’t done anything to you today and your being so mean.” I shouted.
He looked rather harshly towards me at my behavior and grabbed my arm really tight to pull me aside.
“Why are you with him?”
“Izzy?”
“Yeah. I thought you two broke up after what happened.” he said referring to what conspired between the both of us.
“I love him. You know that.” I replied stern faced.
“I could treat you way better than Iz.” he whispered twirling a lock of my hair in his finger and caressing my arm with his fingertips.
“Axl stop. I’m with Izzy.”
I pushed him away from me and ran off desperately trying to find Izzy.
“What’s wrong?” Izzy asked catching me at the end of the corridor.
“N-nothing. Was just looking for you.” I lied not wanting to tell him about my encounter with Axl.
“C’mere.” he tugged, taking me to a corner of the corridor where no one could see us.
“You looked so good in this dress. I had to take you out for a bit so I could play with it.” he mumbled playing with the lace fabric on the ends.
I stared up at him with my big brown eyes waiting for him to do something as I had always secretly dreamed about in my bed at night.
He leaned in slowly and brought his lips to mine, capturing them in a french kiss.
“Taste so good. Like strawberries.” he said, licking my lips with his tongue before messily pulling me back into a sloppy kiss.
He ran his hand up my thigh letting go of the lace to slip a finger into my panties testing how much I could take.
“Fuck I wanna take you from behind right here.” he groaned feeling how nicely my pussy sucked in his finger.
“I’ve been waiting for you to fuck the shit out of me from the day I met you.” I whined looking up at him and spewing out all of my dirty thoughts which were coming to mind at a rapid rate everytime his finger curled upwards in my pussy.
I didn’t hold back and he could see it the way I was begging, whining and breathing out for him basically like a bitch in heat.
“I’ve turned you into a bad girl huh. What happened to my innocent little baby” he asked with a smug look on his face.
“I’m still your good girl but I wanna be a dirty girl right now for your cock.” I mumbled looking at him rather seductively as I had seen on television.
“Be quiet or else someone will hear.” he spat, roughly grabbing a handful of my hair and pulling me close to his face so he could swallow all my moans with his lips.
“I don’t care if Duff sees me. I want you.” I moaned feeling myself getting tighter around his fingers.
“Wait don’t cum yet. Get on your knees.” he said pulling on my hair to yank me down.
“You have to suck me off before I fuck you hard or else it’ll hurt.”
“O-okay.” I nodded looking up at him with big doe eyes as I took his jeans off, suddenly feeling a new sense of confidence, wanting nothing more than to please him.
I had no idea what I was doing but I nodded at everything he said wanting to please him as I looked up at him like a deer in headlights.
“Baby just suck on it like a lollipop okay.” he cooed noticing my behavior before he cupped my cheek and rubbed his dick between my lips, slapping it a few times on my cheek.
I let out a big glob of spit and let it run down his dick before rubbing it in with my hand and giving it a few kisses on the tip like I would on his lips.
I slowly stared sucking on it as much as I could fit in my mouth while rubbing off the part that wouldn’t fit.
“Fuck just like that baby. You look so looking sexy like this with my cock in your mouth. Like a dirty little slut.” he groaned bucking his hips forward.
He let me suck on it for a few more seconds before choving my head forward causing me to choke and then letting me up to breathe.
“Turn around baby.”
I lifted up my dress and put my hands on the wall so he could easily take me from behind.
I wiggled my ass for him as the puffy pink lips of my pussy were on display for him and the moment I had been waiting for ever since we met was finally happening.
“I don’t think I can be gentle with you.” he grunted shoving his cock inside me roughly.
Even though I wasn’t a virgin anymore I still felt the occasional pinch whenever he went deeper and I couldn’t help but out let tiny squeals causing him to slow down occasionally.
“Not even a virgin and I still have to fuckin open this pussy up huh?” he said spewing out all these filthy phrases I’d never heard before or experienced, making me go dumb.
“S-so big.” I babbled unable to think straight as I felt his girth stretching me out way more than Axl’s.
“Did Axl fuck you like this?” he asked grabbing my hair in a ponytail and jackhammering into my pussy.
“F-Feels so good I-Iz.” I sobbed hearing the wet sounds of his cock going in and out my pussy.
I could feel my arousal coating my thighs.
“Answer me.”
“N-no no he didn’t. I didn’t get f-fucked this good.” I whined, talking obscenely on the brink of orgasm.
He pulled out abruptly and turned me around to face him before sliding back in.
“Wanna see you when you cum.” he whispered kissing me and letting his tongue mix with mine.
“Faster Izzy. I’m gonna cum.” I whined as my back arched and my eyes rolled back involuntarily.
“Fuck yeah take my fucking cock. Cum all over it baby.” he grunted leaving red imprints on my waist from gripping it so tight.
“Uhnnn- I’m cumming.” I squealed before my vision went black and my legs shook rapidly.
“Shit shit shit.” he said before releasing inside me.
He let me down allowing me to fix my dress while he pulled his pants up and grabbed my shaky hand to give it a soft kiss.
“That was so good Iz.” I giggled with my newly flushed face and reddened cheeks, all of a sudden too embarrassed to look him in the eyes after all the dirty things I did.
“Yeah? I’m glad.”
Mean Girls (2004) dir. Mark Waters
HENRY CAVILL as MIKE Hellraiser: Hellworld (2005) | dir. Rick Bota