Baby It's Halloween

In the immortal words of The Doors, ‘The time to hesitate is through.’

EMPIRE RECORDS (1995) | dir. Allan Moyle

CARRIE (1976) dir. Brian De Palma

Need help for my laser operation

A couple of hours ago I had my appointment at a hospital specialized only in eyesight and they confirmed to me that I have keratoconus. A disease that affects the cornea in a gradual way that occurs mainly due to rubbing the eyes too much. My doctor told me that the only treatment I can apply is a laser operation which is a bit expensive.

Here are some pics of the total cost for my first (and I hope is just one) operation writtited by my own doctor.

It’s written in Spanish because I’m South American specifically from Peru. The translation says that my first and most important operation per eye is 5.800 soles which to dollar change in my country is 1,606 dollars and unfortunately I need to have a operation on BOTH eyes which the final amount will be 3,213 dollars. I know, is a lot of money and I don’t even gonna go to public service because they would left me blind because is so bad (Public service here sucks).

So I know I’m probably asking a lot and this pandemic situation is not the best for many of us. But if you even could donate me 1 dollar I will thank you so much, any amount is well received ❤️

HERE’S MY PAYPAL

Timothy Olyphant in SCREAM 2 (1997) & THE MANDALORIAN (2020)

Douglas Island News, Alaska, November 15, 1918

All the time I’ve been… I’ve been looking for someone to love me. And now I love somebody. And it’s so easy. Why is it easy now?

REBEL WITHOUT A CAUSE (1955)

gofundme.com

Help A North African Lesbian get to safety, organized by Maryam Allami

Hello, my name is Mei/Mim I am a lesbian from the global south (specifically … Maryam Allami needs your support for Help A North African Les

this is an urgent situation!! a north african lesbian woman is trying to flee her country because her own brother is blackmailing her and threatening to out her to her parents.

partial gfm description:

“Hello, my name is Mei/Mim I am a lesbian from the global south (specifically North Africa but for my safety I can’t precise where) I have been struggling for years in a country that criminalizes my identity [...]

I have been closeted my entire life however last year my younger brother found out about my sexuality somehow and has been mentally blackmailing me with it. He already attempted to out me once but I was able to control the situation however I now live in a state constant fear of what he can do next especially since I know that if my family does find out about this, I will not be able to carry on living (the best things that can happen is that I get disowned and thrown to the streets) and the pressure of this has taken a huge toll on my mental health.”

$4,195/10,000

as of 6/21/2021

A letter James Dean wrote to Barbara Glenn, circa 1953.

Dearest Barbara,

I never suspected one could know as few nice people as I know. My own damn fault. Lamas and scientists may fume and quander. Everything is not just illusion. You are my proof. You have gone to Israel but you have not. I am very lonely for you. I am alone. Thoughts are sweet, then wicked, then perverse, then penitent, then sweet. The moon is not blue. It hangs there in the sky no more.

Please forgive me for such a sloppy letter, I’m a little drunk, drink quite a bit lately. You see, I don’t know whats going on anymore than you do. Remarkable lot, human beings. I care too.

In antiphonal azure swing, souls drone their unfinished melody… When did we live and when did we not? In my drunken stupor I said a gem. I must repeat it to you loved one. Let’s see “great actors are often time pretentious livers. The pretentious actor, a great liver.” (Don’t get a headache over it.) God Damnit!! I miss you… You’re terribly missing. Come back. Maybe I can come up and see you. You think you need understanding? Who do you think you are? I could use a little myself. You’re probably running around up there with all those handsome guys. When I get my boat, you’ll be sorry.

Hope you’re ok up there. Working pretty hard I guess. More than you can say for us poor thespians back here in the city.

Got to move out of this crappy old apartment. Can’t get along with nobody I guess. Makes you feel good when you’re not wanted.

Love, Jim

Honoring the lives lost in the Atlanta shooting

Xiaojie 'Emily' Tan, 49

Tan, 49, was the mother of Jami Webb, a recent graduate from the University of Georgia. She was a licensed massage therapist and the owner of Young’s Asian Massage, along with other businesses in the area, including another spa and a tanning salon, according to state records. She was “the sweetest, most kind-hearted, giving, never-met-a-stranger person,” a friend told Atlanta’s WSB-TV. Just one day away from her 50th birthday when she was killed, according to USA Today, Tan was described by her daughter as thoughtful, devoted to her family, and looking forward to traveling in her retirement.

Hyun Jung Grant, 51

Hyun Jung Grant was a Korean immigrant who worked at Atlanta’s Gold Spa. Her son Randy Park, 23, shared a tribute to his mother on GoFundMe: He said his mother was a single parent who “dedicated her whole life to providing for my brother and I.” She loved dancing and sushi, according to Park, who told The Daily Beast, “She wasn’t just my mother. She was my friend.” Park, who now has to raise his brother alone, is not buying law-enforcement officials’ suggestion that the attack was motivated by a supposed sex addiction, not racism. “That’s bullshit,” he said.

Delaina Ashley Yaun Gonzalez, 33

Yaun Gonzalez, 33, was a mother of two — 13-year-old Mayson and 8-month-old Mia. She had worked all day on Tuesday at the Waffle House a few shops down from Tan’s spa business. She had been looking forward to having a relaxing night out with her husband, Mario Gonzalez, whom she married only last year, and the couple had reportedly never been to Young’s Asian Massage before. According to Fox 5 Atlanta, family members say that Mario Gonzalez, who survived the shooting, is “taking [the situation] hard.” Delaina Ashley Yaun Gonzalez’s friends and family have set up a GoFundMe to address her funeral costs.

Paul Andre Michels, 54

Michels, 54, was a handyman at Young’s Asian Massage and the owner of an electric company. He was only recently hired for the role and excited to take it on after looking for more work during the pandemic, according to a friend who spoke with CBS46. An army veteran originally from Detroit, Michels is one of nine siblings and is survived by his wife of more than two decades. In an interview with the Guardian, his brother John Michels emphasized his kindness. “He was just a regular guy, very good-hearted, very soft-natured,” he said, while noting that Michels had expressed an interest in getting involved in the massage business.

Yong Ae Yue, 63

A licensed massage therapist, she was laid off at the start of the pandemic last year and was excited to finally start shifts at the spa again, her son Elliott Peterson, 42, told The Atlanta Journal-Constitution on Friday morning. Yue’s youngest child, Robert Peterson, 38, agreed, recalling their mother as a kind and deeply caring woman. If you stopped by her house, she’d sit you down, ask if you’d eaten, and then insist on a trip to H Mart grocery store so she could make a meal.

Daoyou Feng, 44

Daoyou Feng, 44, began working at Young’s Asian Massage in recent months, according to Tan’s friend Hynson. She was kind and quiet, he said. Her relatives could not be reached for comment.

Soon Chung Park, 74

Soon Chung Park, 74, was also a worker at an Atlanta spa. Her family didn’t respond when reached for comment. Park previously lived in New York, where she has relatives, her son-in-law, Scott Lee, told the New York Times. “She got along with her family so well,” Lee told the newspaper.

Suncha Kim, 69

Suncha Kim, 69, worked at one of the spas in Atlanta. Her family could not be reached for comment. Kim, a grandmother, was married for more than 50 years, a family member told the Times. She enjoyed line dancing and worked hard, the relative said.

Elcias Hernandez-Ortiz, 30

Hernandez-Ortiz, 30, was the only survivor of the victims who were shot on Tuesday, and he remains hospitalized for multiple gunshot wounds in his “forehead, throat, lungs and stomach,” according to the Washington Post. He was shot while standing outside in the shopping center where Young’s Asian Massage is located. “He came from nothing and has come a long way; that is why I have faith he will survive this,” his wife Flor Gonzalez told the Washington Post. Gonzalez has also set up a GoFundMe to help with the costs of Hernandez-Ortiz’s medical care.

James Byron Dean (February 8, 1931 — September 30, 1955) photos by Richard C. Miller

“I don’t even want to be ‘the best.’ I want to grow so tall that nobody can reach me. Not to prove anything, but just to go where you ought to go when you devote your whole life and all you are to one thing.” —James Dean