“Your Life Does Not Get Better By Chance, It Gets Better By Change.”

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

Blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge. If you are never alone, you cannot know yourself.

Paulo Coelho, Manuscript Found in Accra

breaking free of everything

the cage

my heart

my thoughts

and suddenly it's all quiet

“If you knew how hard it was, and how long it took, to rebuild my little universe of peace and happiness then you would understand why I’m so picky about who I allow in my life.”

— Weird People

I reach for you even when you’re not there.

i think i am so enamored with devotion as violence, because i want someone to love me even when i am covered in blood. most days, i am more teeth than lips. more claws than hands. more desperation than gentleness. if i am to love, i want it to consume me as surely as a forest fire. when the smoke has cleared, trees will grow stronger than before. i will only let my wounds be tended to by someone unafraid of gore, and i fear softness hurts more than any double edged sword. if i am to be loved, let it be in a slaughterhouse we might make into a home. then the heartache will be holy. and i will be whole.

Rune lazuli

“You’ve got to find yourself first. Everything else’ll follow.”

— Charles de Lint

“Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again.”

— Vladimir Nabokov