This

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full time job as a hopeless romantic

Who’s like waiting for someone to save them?? Just me? Ok

I’m tired I’m so tired whenever I think things are starting up look better they get worse

Am I so undeserving of love? From my parents?

The days just blend into each other like a watercolour painting...

the goldfinch, donna tartt // illustration by instachaaz (ig) // selected poems by frank o’hara // the witcher, netfilx // suffocation, crystal castles c. 2010 // the diaries of franz kafka // diary, virginia woolf

I’m not old.

I’m 19 years old.

But I feel old. I feel really old, like I’ve lived “life”.

Just not to it’s full potential

Maybe... I don’t know

But I feel old

I missed out on so much things that I’ve wanted to do

But life seemed to have stopped for me when I was 14

Life stopped and started hitting rewind every single day

Rewind

Rewind

Rewind

I’m so tired

Next October I’m going to be 20

Then 30

40

50

60

70?

How long will I life for?

Life’s so short

Fragile

Slips right through your fingers

Gone just like that

I

Will I age? Will I become old?

Because it almost feels like I’m already old. I have so much I want to do.

So much to look forward to

So much places to see, so much people to meet.

So much plans to carry out.

But it also feels like there’s nothing there for me. Nothing waiting for me.

Is it because I feel old...

Maybe.

Maybe not.

I don’t know.

I wish I could talk and talk and talk to someone and they’d look at me and tell me

Tell me why? How? When? What? Who?

Why why why why?

Tell me it’s ok...maybe

Because I don’t know.

-a

I wish someone would look at me and know I’m not okay

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Spoilers! I flipping love this show

Downton Abbey is wild because the stakes are always either SUPER low or crazy high. It’s like, one episode is, “Who will win the gardening contest at the fair? Is the countess cheating?” And another episode is, “The eldest daughter’s fiancé died in the Titanic, then she hooked up with a Turkish diplomat, her first ever sexual experience, and he DIED IN HER BED DURING THE CONJUGAL ACT, and now she has to move his corpse back to his bed without being of suspected of murder, BECAUSE IT COULD START A WAR, and also if people find out she’s ‘damaged goods’ and she can’t find an advantageous match, her family will LOSE THEIR ANCESTRAL HOME!” Then the show’s like, “A maid wants to become a secretary! Will she beat the odds?”

If someone would just whisk me away….