Just A Reminder That Sirius Did Not Call Harry “James” In The Book.

Adrian Baxter

Thinking about Sirius' anger issues.

who do you think Sirius had healthy relationships in his family?

The healthiest relationship Sirius had with ( from his entire family ) was: cousin Andromeda and uncle Alphard. Surprisingly, or not so those from the Black family who ended up marrying a Muggle-born seemed like the only normal people. Their only crime against the family was the capability of love, fondness, and compassion for anything different than themselves. It was obviously already too much, so we know that things like marrying anyone whose blood is impure and being sorted in Gryffindor are a total catastrophe.

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𝐈. ) ᅠANDROMEDA While being cousins and close by age, the two would often exchange the looks of silent agonies towards each other amidst traditional family festivities where their parents obviously glorified their supremacist soire. The two would quite often share secrets with each other about their tripping in the muggle world among a few laughs. If there was someone who wouldn't judge Andromeda's sympathies toward Tonks it would be Sirius.

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𝐈𝐈. ) ᅠALPHARD The only adult Sirius could lean on for support. It couldn't be his father for obvious reasons. Young Sirius couldn't spend as much time as he wanted with him because his parents feared Alphard was already enough of a bad example, and his infectious habits would only worsen Sirius' image in society. In fact he was the first and most responsible inspiration. We know how Alphard ended, posthumously disowned all thanks to Walburga's effort, leaving Sirius under the impression that it happened thanks to the charity gesture towards him. I believe it wasn't just a decent amount but well - a lot. A crucial moment that provided him the right aid to not be dependent on Potters and ruin his family's expectations, for his defeated return from utter despair to the place where he wouldn't be accepted regardless, and that would humiliate him even further.

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𝐈𝐈𝐈 . ) ᅠREGULUS Regulus? Regulus ... the question mark remains there for a reason. While Sirius and Regulus shared the same noble lineage as members of the ancient and most pure-blooded House of Black, the two brothers could not have been more different in their temperaments and ideals. There were a few bright moments, but their relationship could not be considered healthy, no, but it was ... less tensed than with his parents, at least. Sirius was semi-aware of Regulus' good consciousness, but he couldn't forgive him for its deliberate suffocation.

Regulus, on the other hand, was Sirius' polar opposite in nearly every regard. The younger brother was a dutiful son, obedient and eager to please his family's elitist pure-blood mania. Where Sirius was a trouble-making non-conformist, Regulus was a stickler for rules and tradition. In appearance, manner and conviction, the two siblings were as different as night and day - one a shining star who refused to be constrained, the other a shadow who sought belonging within the confines of his family's rigid ideology. The chasm between them was wide and unbridgeable, a testament to the vastly divergent paths an upbringing can set for two brothers.

A self-portrait 🥀

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“   i really hope you've had your fun.  ” // for Sirius !

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓:ㅤ𝐉𝐎𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐀 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘 || @ssevruss ( & accepting )

The lively bustling of the street carried along with the scent of butterbeer wafting from the Three Broomsticks, and the colorful banners of the nearby shops fluttering in the gentle breeze.

The elder of the Black brothers had a way of gliding through the crowd, weaving between people with an ease that suggested he was both part of the city and apart from it. Dark hair fell in tousled waves, framing his angular face, and every now and then, each step purposeful yet relaxed seeming both casual and deliberate. The jacket was adorned with subtle silver studs along the collar, catching the light as he moved. Underneath, a simple white t-shirt clung to his form, the fabric soft and slightly worn, hinting at countless adventures. His jeans were dark and fitted, frayed at the cuffs, revealing a pair of scuffed black boots that seemed to have stories of their own etched into the leather.

The laughter of the engaging collective around him soaked the aura of their carefree demeanor, a stark reminder of everything Severus despised the closer they got towards each other, until -- [ ... ]

The air between them crackled with tension, and for a moment, the laughter of the other students faded into the background. Sirius’s eyes narrowed, and the playful facade slipped away, revealing a flicker of something more serious. Uncomfortable silence, and the reality of the situation settled over them like a heavy fog.

'' Snivellus, '' Sirius replied, his tone dripping with mockery at the mention of infamous nick. Shouldn't the Dungeon bat stay geared toward self-preservation? Apparently nah, be there Prong(sie) he'd be far from staying idle. ' I really hope you've had your fun. ' Sirius’s grin faltered for a moment, replaced by a look of mild surprise. Eyebrow quirked, amusement dancing in his eyes, '' Oh? I always have mine that's for sure ... should I be asking what brings you to this side of Hogsmeade? Looking for a potion to cure your perpetual sourness? ''

cinemagraph artist

MEANWHILE James:

James: *exists*

Severus:

Detail of the Snakes from Caravaggio’s Head of Medusa ca. 1596

»  ━━  𝐉𝐎𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐀 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒.

lyrics  pulled  from  joshua  bassett’s  trilogy  of  songs.  please  amend  wording  or  pronouns  where  necessary.

𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐒.

“  my label said to never waste a crisis.  ”

“  here i am, guitar in hand.  ”

“  honestly, i didn’t want to write this.  ”

“  if you get to tell your truth then so do i.  ”

“  it’s cool if you want me to play the bad guy.  ”

“  don’t you dare act like i didn’t love you.  ”

“  don’t go thinking that i didn’t hurt too.  ”

“  don’t you ever wonder if i’m okay after all you put me through ?  ”

“  half the shit you’re saying is only half true.  ”

“  you’re messing with my life as a career move.  ”

“  i can’t help but wonder why you won’t make it end.  ”

“  i guess you would never dare to waste a crisis.  ”

“  what the hell am i supposed to do with that ?  ”

“  i wish that i could open my eyes and the nightmare be over.  ”

“  keep fanning the fire for the headlines.  ”

“  weren’t you the one who left in the first place ?  ”

“  weren’t you the one who called things off ?  ”

“  was it an act to love me ?  ”

“  was it an act to hate me ?  ”

𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓.

“  i pulled into your driveway again.  ”

“  we kissed, but it felt different.  ”

“  i should have seen it coming then.  ”

“  you swore that you only had a crush.  ”

“  you told me that you would cut him off.  ”

“  my friends all warned me i should run for the hills, but i defended you still.  ”

“  because i knew rumours could kill.  ”

“  your secret is safe with me.  ”

“  oh you don’t even know i know.  ”

“  don’t worry because i’m keeping my mouth closed.  ”

“  how could you be so cold ?  ”

“   i really hope you had your fun.  ”

“  good for you fooling everyone.  ”

“  you had me tricked for sixteen months.  ”

“  your smoke and mirrors had me hypnotized.  ”

“  i heard the truth last night.  ”

“  when  your woe is me stops working, i bet your songs won’t sound the same.  ”

“  the truth you can’t dent, it changed everything.  ”

“  you can’t hide behind what’s clear as dare.  ” 

𝐒𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄 𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐄.

“  i don’t know what i did to deserve all this.  ”

“  i don’t want to be rude or on the defensive.  ”

“  but i’ve been through it too.  ”

“  i know you feel used.  ”

“  i know you’ve been hurt.  ”

“  anything i did to make you feel worse, i’d take it back if i could.  ”

“  nothing i say will ease the pain.  ”

“  why must i hurt for you to feel okay ?  ”

“  you don’t get to take all of me.  ”

“  set me free.  ”

“  i don’t need your apology.  ”

“  i don’t recognise you, not anymore.  ”

“  you’re not the love that i fell for.  ”

“  i’ve been running away.  ”

“  i’ve been facing my fears.  ”

“  it’s been a fucking year.  ”

“  i’ve been doing my time, i’ve been working on me.  ”

“  i wasn’t sure i’d survive.  ”

“  i’ve never felt so weak.  ”

“  i hope you know i still care about you dearly.  ”

“  i’ve got to lock the door and throw away the key.  ”

“  i won’t never let you hurt me how you hurt me again.  ”

#BETRAYUR     ✦     indep. canon divergent   REGULUS   ARCTURUS   BLACK    written   dangerously   by   elle  - 25+ [ anti-jkr ]

✦ ❝    I    know   I   will   be    dead    long   before   you   read   this   but   I   want   you   to   know   that   it   was   I   who   discovered   your   secret    .   .   .    ❞