It's Such A Mervyn Peake Dead Rat Poem Morning

i’m so sick of hearing people complain about “whiny transmascs who don’t transition and still want to be treated like men”

either pay for my top surgery or shut your mouth. some of us are disabled and have to find doctors willing to take the risk of a potentially deadly health crisis mid-surgery, on top of living paycheck to paycheck. do you have 13k, plus travel expenses for a week to the only surgeon i trust to not kill me? because i don’t.

a peppino to make me (and you) feel better

Diary entry #1 :)

I had a dream where I went through the timeline of my voice on T. Not on T yet, the dream made me so happy and I was so goddamn sad when I woke up. Also it had something to do with furbies, that's all I remember.

Sometimes I watch Jamie's (Jammidodger's) vid on his transition timeline and it makes me want to weep. I've basically had almost 4 years of my life stolen from me bc my grandparents are very unsupportive and I'm nearly to the finish line (getting T and getting my apartment) but it feels like I keep tripping on the track. I could've been nearly 4 years on T if my grandparents just fucking listened to me when I started questioning. Instead of thinking I'm a stupid "girl" who can't think for "herself".

But on a brighter note I'm learning how to drive and also have a job now. Like I said, close to the finish line. I kept on dissociating or something at my job, like my body is technically there vacuuming but I'm somewhere else entirely. Just feels like I'm wearing a suit that doesn't fit how I actually look, and my brain is really, really freaked out by it.

I'm scared. I'm a trans man and I'm scared.

Who knows how much longer I'm going to even be able to say those words so I'm gonna say them now.

I'm not gonna let them erase me.

Fuck all of you who voted for Trump.

If you fucking voted for that self-interested, classist, misogynistic stupid ass mother fucker,

UNFOLLOW AND BLOCK ME RIGHT THE FUCK NOW.

And don't come crying to us when your "savior" fucks the world up even worse.

Y'all did that, not us.

I'm scared. I'm a trans man and I'm scared.

I was a roblox kid, thought "oof" was like the funniest sound to exist. It was [deadname]oof on most platforms for a long time, but I changed it to augustoof and never looked back. It's auggieoof on here because Auggie is a nickname for August and I'm pretty sure augustoof was already taken, probably by me from a couple years ago.

USERNAME LORE GIVE IT TO ME NOW YOU ALL

getting gender euphoria from looking like the dorkiest white guy. i look like i build model trains and have a room dedicated to Marvel posters. i look like my degree should be computer science. none of these things are true about me.

This vid by Drew Gooden is incredibly informative and funny, and related to this. I recommend it

Also if you don't watch Drew Gooden watch him now he's awesome!!

I feel like you guys should see this

Sound on if you guys wanna know what a little King Vulture sounds like 👀

me: you literally have a disorder. this is symptoms

me: no perhaps my soul is rotten