*incredible Art Made By One Of The Official Pvz Comic Artists, Ron Chan!

rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious

Diary Entry #20

I got a binder and two packers!!! Too bad I can't wear them basically anywhere lmao but still. I cleaned my room with my binder on. I was so worried it wasn't making me flat enough, i mean it doesn't matter now but when I go on T it might.

I made sure to order the right size but after like an hour of wearing it I still kinda hurt. But I'm okay now (it's my second time wearing it, first time wearing it for any significant amount of time.)

I went down a very brief spiral (brief being like 15 minutes tops) where I was like "OH MY GOD WHAT IF I'M NOT TRANS." But looking back, I think it's because my binder didn't make me like 100% flat, more like I have pecs or maybe gynomastia and I'm pretty sure now that's what it was.

But seeing me in pictures with my binder (with my face/hair mostly cropped out) on made me super happy, it's just that looking at me irl still makes me think I look very fem because I still have these fem characteristics and it makes me feel kinda bad. My spiral was not very rational.

I think the thought "what if my binder doesn't actually bind enough?? What if I still look like I have a large chest??" isn't actually very cis, looking back on it. I'm gonna post some pictures of me in a shirt with and without the binder and let y'all be the judge. I think I'm just freaking out over nothing, but I can't stop thinking like that. Under the cut btw, first pic with binder second pic w/o.

soup...

I follow this lady on instagram who rescues cats, and i have been thinking about this video for literal months. behold the transformation of this wretched little beast

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Diary entry #18

I was with my grandparents at chilis and a transfem lady was our server. I wanted to shrink down and die because, although I wasn't paying much attention, I think my grandma asked my sister if she was trans. She wasn't near when I thought my grandma said that, but transfem lady at chili's I am so sorry I wish people were fucking normal.

I wish I could feel camaraderie (hope that's the right word) with the queer people that I see out and about, but I'm always looking over my shoulder to see if my grandparents are there because GOD FORBID i interact/even look with people like me I guess.

I don't say anything to them, I'm not the type to out people, but I look at them and think they are cool and maybe compliment them. I don't have any friends at all, let alone any queer ones, so these are the only people that are like me in that way I see irl. God I hope this doesn't come off as weird.

"I want to be a dragon."

Harvey Ball- creator of The Smiley Face

....nevermind

thst wikipedia poll tricked me earlier I was like aw I got the rickrolling article I don't want that one. maybe I should try again for a different article.

True. Happened to me (I made the post not the art)

I have been thinking the last several days about the horror of being mutilated as a intersex baby, or an intersex teen/kid. I'm perisex, and over the last few years (mostly in the last year) are the only times I've heard about intersex people.

How can this happen to so many people?? How has this gone under the radar?? It's a human rights abuse, and nobody is doing anything about it. Sometimes I can be naïve, but I would hope that the world isn't this cruel.

I have a lot to learn about a lot of things, but I hope to learn as much as I can.

Sorry if this sounds stupid

people really fail to see the physical violence behind the hyperinvisibility of intersex people.

we are erased in legislation and society broadly but we are also victims of an extermination campaign.

our invisibility doesn't come from people just failing to recognize us it comes from the fact that we are mutilated at birth and if we are not mutilated at birth we are mutilated at puberty. people without variations that can be changed by surgery are put on hormones against their will. it is rare to find an intersex person who hasn't experienced medical violence!

so many intersex people don't even know that they, themselves are intersex! some people have their intersex variation hidden from them, being outright lied to by parents and doctors about their own body. other people are never given the word intersex, they are told they have a DSD (disorder of sexual development), that they have a medical problem. almost no intersex person is told that they are intersex by a doctor.

our lack of visibility is written in literal blood. so when someone tries to say "well, intersex people don't have it that bad, no one is thinking about them" they're saying that all this "isn't so bad" that an effective extermination campaign "isn't that bad" because they can't see it happening.