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Smashcut to Harry

I redid that one post. Because the quality was, well, abysmal. Thank you everyone

i’ve been struggling to come up w/ what disco elysium is about for people who want to get into it cause. it’s a post soviet depression simulator. it’s a bisexual man who has amnesia so bad he forgot what being gay means. it’s about that man having amnesia so bad because he tried to kill himself by going on a three day bender. it’s the funniest game i’ve ever played. it’s the most deeply profound game i’ve ever played. a central character to the theming is a big bug. i think fundamentally, disco elysium is a game about living in a world without hope and choosing to survive but that’s kinda hard to say when part of “living without hope and choosing to survive” also encompasses taking psychic damage and dying after a kid calls you a fag

disability in fiction

You know how Viktor sometimes gets this superpower, when he can just ignore the fact that he can’t move without a cane or a crutch?

People with mobile disability do not forget about their pain. And I believe people with any other don’t do either, but I can only speak for the mobile type. We do not fuck through it because the sex is so great. We groan and stop having sex in the middle because with pain it sucks. Our dicks go soft and our vulvas dry out at the pang of pain, especially when it comes in the spine/legs area.

Our partners have to be mindful, careful, present and attentive. They don’t get the luxury of losing themselves, they have to listen, observe and pay attention because a lot of things can be misread during sex. They have to make sure we are alright after.

Did you ever get a cramp during sex? Multiply it by an impossible number and then it’s still probably not good enough.

So yeh, Viktor can’t just abandon his cane and lift someone up. He will probably drop his cane by accident and then lean his entire body weight on you. ‘His leg hurt but he ignored it because the pleasure overwhelmed the pain’. No bitch, he fucking pulled out and asked for a breather, his dick flopped and now he needs a cuddle. Own it. It’s HUMAN. It’s cool. It’s beautiful.

Write about his cane, make it good looking, make the crutch in the colours of house Tallis, describe the braces, I wanna read it! It’s not boring!

And for the record - this is not an angry rant, I just have a big mouth. Love you all people who create art and send it to the world, it’s awesome. Don’t be afraid to explore something you don’t know, just imagine yourself when you had the worst flu of your life, the worst food poisoning of your life, when you were so hungover you wanted to cut off your head, when you fell off your bike and your ass hurt for a week and think if you wanted to have wild sex on the floor. Nah.

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

One of the crew members said it took six people holding the door up on the other side to keep Mads from breaking it down

so yes he has a six year long total nervous breakdown over a divorce which does seem kind of unwarranted on the surface but the thing is that his breakdown wasn't just because of his fiance leaving him, it's because he's lived for four decades in this absolutely untenable state of being on the coattails of the revolution. the fact that dora even has the choice to pack up and fly away and leave behind the poverty and disability and addiction and misery and, as he imagines her saying, "leave him alone in hell forever" while he has no hope of ever leaving revachol or becoming anything more than what he is is what causes the breakdown just as much as her making that choice. and so that's why he sees her as dolores dei right, like yes it's because he deifies her but it's not just that, because dolores dei isn't just some ambiguous religious figure, she's specifically the innocence of moralism and the welfare state and interisolary travel. it's not dora that failed harry, it's the world that failed harry, and because dora was able to escape and moralism and the welfare state and interisolary travel were able to save her in a way they never saved him, he projects all the ways the world has failed him onto her. like harry has this breakdown because the woman he loved (rightfully) left him yes but also harry has this breakdown because he was born into poverty in a military hospital and he got polio as a child and never quite got better and all his childhood friends are dead of car accidents and drug overdoses and he's lived his entire life under a form of capitalism that allows for no self-determination, no political representation, no upward mobility. so when she leaves him it's not just a broken heart that does him in, it's the culmination of a lifetime of misery that he falsely blames her for because she was able to escape. you feel me. and that's why his breakdown is so insane and massive and disproportionate and that's why he sees her as god you feel me. like love did him in but capitalism killed him. right

Barbie (2023) ✦ Dir. Greta Gerwig

I hate white women so much like even their feminism is awful. All they want is the power to harm and kill people with impunity and get away with it the same way that men do. I mean, look at how they latched onto Gone Girl and Midsommar as the ultimate girlboss power movies! There’s no compassion in their fight for liberation from the patriarchy. There’s no love in it; they’re only concerned for how THEY THEMSELVES and women like them can wield power over those weaker than them. White women’s feminism is nothing more than shallow, self serving cruelty.

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