Hello,

trump dies of congestive heart failure before being sworn in charge to like cast to reblog

i do better under pressure sooooo i’ll also do the whole notes = i actually get off my ass and work towards my transition thing. this probably won’t work but it’s kinda fun to write out what i want to do

10 notes - i actually correct people on my pronouns socially

20 notes - i throw out any old girl clothes (old leggings, just in case girly dresses, etc)

30 notes - i work on voice training for a deeper voice

40 notes - i stop shaving any facial hair

50 notes - i start packing (i usually don’t because i’m convinced people will clock it as fake, but also who gaf ??)

maybe i’ll reblog with more later, idk

okay update ??? i asked for a diff friend’s comb yesterday to fix my bangs and the friend i mentioned above (i have a huge fat crush ngl) insisted on being the one to do it. like, they grabbed me by the chin and started fixing my bangs, and when i moved my head to look at something they grabbed my jaw to move my face back and kept holding my face even after they were done ???

is that a sign chat

i just had the FREAKIEST dream about my friend at a sleepover and woke up with my head on their chest and their arm on my back refusing to let me get up… it is NOT casual anymore

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sadly i can’t donate, but i hope this spreads this to people who can. lots of love <3

so we’re way past 100…. so, comment / reblog with any ideas and i will do my absolute best to listen to them <3

i do better under pressure sooooo i’ll also do the whole notes = i actually get off my ass and work towards my transition thing. this probably won’t work but it’s kinda fun to write out what i want to do

10 notes - i actually correct people on my pronouns socially

20 notes - i throw out any old girl clothes (old leggings, just in case girly dresses, etc)

30 notes - i work on voice training for a deeper voice

40 notes - i stop shaving any facial hair

50 notes - i start packing (i usually don’t because i’m convinced people will clock it as fake, but also who gaf ??)

maybe i’ll reblog with more later, idk

ngl the forcemasc got to me before i even realized what it was 😭 thank you forcemasc tumblr for being a part of my trans awakening

i fully thought i was a cis girl until i saw fucking reuploaded forcemasc content on pinterest and it clicked. that shit works crazy style.

I HAD ANOTHER WEIRD DREAM ABOUT THEM. in the first dream they murdered me. in the second they also murdered me ngl

dream one- they kidnapped me and kept like… taunting me before they eventually stabbed me in the face while being flirty. i did watch hannibal edits before bed so makes sense.

dream two- a ton of weird stuff happened but at the end, i found out they murdered people and tried to make a video of myself explaining that they did it. but they grabbed me and said “if you wanna keep breathing i’d shut the fuck up” and started choking me

is this a thing ??? they keep teasing me about me wanting them to kill me/attack me… don’t call me out bro 💔💔💔

i just had the FREAKIEST dream about my friend at a sleepover and woke up with my head on their chest and their arm on my back refusing to let me get up… it is NOT casual anymore

another random thing

did any other trans guy just get REALLY attracted to men once they realized they were trans ??? like, i’m not talking about once you start t because i’m not on t yet but like

i thought i was a lesbian for a while, but i’m not even THAT into women anymore ?? i’m bi with a heavy male preference, idk if this happened to anyone else or what?

i was too !! if it helps, maybe start with more baggy pants. it’ll be less noticeable, but it could help you with the feeling. that’s what i do at least. rolled up socks are an easy start if you don’t have a packer, or any similarly shaped object

first time packing in public! honestly, i thought i’d feel weird or gross, but it feels good? like not in a physical way, but like a “yeah that’s supposed to be there” sense. 10/10 recommend.

UPDATE HES NOT TRANSPHOBIC ?????

okay funny thing. at first he was. like, he was kinda weird about it and was like “oh well maybe just lose weight and you’ll like your body as a girl” which YIKES

but we had to paint the house and i think it clicked that i do more “man” chores than my brother so he’s just like… okay with it ??? as long as i’m doing the “man” house work ??? he keeps calling me man instead of my deadname and trying to get me to understand football

tl;dr he’s like an opposite terf i think ??? trans inclusionary misogynists??!

this is gonna be an incoherent rant but i’m actually so sick of stuff rn

so, for context, i’m a trans guy. i’m out to my mom, not my dad. he used to be such a genuinely kind human being before trump got elected, and suddenly it feels like i lost him. he’s a totally different person and i genuinely feel like i can’t come out to him

i’m going on t the second i can but i know when i do i might lose him forever. i feel like i’m already mourning our relationship and he knows, he can sense me pulling away and doesn’t know why

i don’t wanna hurt him. i wanna go back in the closet so fucking bad and have his love forever but the idea of pretending to be a girl any longer makes me literally wanna claw my skin off. i don’t know what to do and i don’t know what’s worth it.

before anyone worries, he’s not violent at all and he won’t kick me out, i just know that our relationship might not be the same. i used to be a daddy’s girl, going to see every new marvel movie with him. now i can’t be around him without him going on a fox news rant and it makes me sick

i just want to be his son and i don’t know if that will ever happen