I May Think Of You Softly From Time To Time, But I Swear I'll Cut My Hands Off If They Ever Reach Out

Pete: I want to be the mole.

Kinn: Vegas will torture you if he finds you.

Pete: I fucking hope so

Kinn: What?

Pete: What-

jokes aside i think it’s amazing and heartwarming to see like 4chan incel bros perform the miracle of crawling out of that hole and becoming real human beings and chronicling their journey to realizing that they can be well adjusted happy normal dudes

i don’t think i can do it. i can’t even talk to people i don’t know. but this, i have to tell their fortunes and give them advice. and i don’t know how to talk to humans.

aylin in every episode: 4/12

EXACTLY!

— Friedrich Nietzsche

vegas: you ruined all my plans 😡 i'm gonna make you regret it. get ready for 500 volts straight to the balls.

pete, a masochist:

I know that the underlying theme for chanbig is daddy kink but what if I raised you: soft chan.

Chan who just can’t say no to this boy that got thrown at him with a “make something out of him” order.

Chan who gives up on fighting big over his hair and one day decides to walk up to him and tie the loose strands in a ponytail.

Chan who doesn’t say anything when Big breaks in to his office at night to steal his liquor because he’s crying so Chan might as well leave him be.

Chan who always tells big to wear a bulletproof vest because “this fucking kid has a death wish, I swear”

Chan who refuses to acknowledge that he might have a favorite amongst the bodyguards and maybe his favouritism has something to do with the affection that he feels towards Big (who is now a man with sharp features and long limbs).

Chan who holds his breathe while he stands at the edge of the pool because Big is not coming up and even Ken seems worried about it and why isn’t Big coming up?

Chan who pushes Big against the lockers because “what was all that? were you trying to drown yourself?”

and Big who looks at him with narrowed eyes only to spit a whispered “why? do you care?

and the thing is: Chan cares — he cares so much it hurts so he simply crashes their lips together and Big clings to him: he clutches on chan’s jacket, his hair, his waist, on every single thing within his reach.

Chan who loves Big in the night and holds him so close that their foreheads bump against each other and big laughs and gasps and melts under chan’s touch.

Chan and Big don’t die in this story and when Kuhn Korn summons Chan it goes something like this:

“I believe your loyalty has shifted”

“My loyalty? No, sir. My loyalty belongs to the family but my life? Not anymore”

But I am so deeply lost in my own soul, how can I expect anyone else to understand me?

- Courtney Peppernell

It was so nice to meet the real pete this episode! Take that punishment pete, you love it anyway....