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Vegas: *tries to intimidate Pete with his whole unhinged psychopath thing*

Pete: bitch I’m crazy too

“And I sit here without identity: faceless. My head aches.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

i love that nobody on tumblr knows me and that my friends don’t even have tumblr it’s like i’m really building my bubble here

really wish "abolish the police" was trending with all the news, it feels like a lot of ppl have forgotten since the height of blm

Why in the world would you like toxic characters? Why are you so proud of that? What is it even to be proud of? What's wrong with you?

Well, my dear Anon. If you only knew how many times I've asked myself those very same questions…

And the answers always come down to: It’s fiction.

And even though fiction is a vital part of life (just like any other art form) and you can learn a lot from it (you have no idea how many toxic people I’ve been able to avoid, before they even found out my name, thanks to my love for toxic characters and seeing their red flags), fiction is also just fiction.

The characters aren’t real, even though they can seem like it. Just because I love a character that's toxic as fuck doesn't mean I would condone real people who behave that way.

Also, I’m not hurting anyone with my obsession with toxic characters. It’s not like I'm forcing anyone to think like me (and for the love of all things holy, don't do that!).

Besides having a healthy obsession with the toxic characters I love, I’m not very emotional (for lack of a better word) about what I watch. I can be intrigued by toxic characters without either excusing their behavior and actions or hating them (because there’s enough hate in the world for me to do that shit). I can watch taboo topics and other shit that most people find triggering and not be triggered (even though I see the taboo topics for what they are). I can watch problematic stuff and see beyond it to what’s really being said (even though I see the problematic stuff for what it is).

But that’s just me. And I would never force my perspectives on anyone else because I know the majority isn’t like me (which is a good thing, btw).

So, if you don’t vibe with my shit, block me. I don’t mind.

Trust me. I’ll survive. You’ll survive. The world won’t fall apart. We’ll both be okay. Just block me.

Because I will keep loving my favorite toxic fatherfuckers. I won't excuse their behavior and actions. But I will love them.

And the only one who can stop me is ME. But I don’t want to because I love all the shades of toxic bitches and their red flags.

Like Boston from Only Friends.

And Todd from Not Me.

And Chalothon from The Sign.

And Ray from Only Friends.

And So from House of Stars.

And Yai from Big Dragon.

And Way from Pit Babe.

And Boeing from Only Friends.

And let's not forget Vegas from KinnPorsche!

And Yoden Ryoji from Dangerous Drugs of Sex.

And Yong Jie from HIStory 4: Close to You.

And Rio from The Novelist.

And Ritsu from To the End of the World With You.

And definitely Ming from My Stand-In!

I love them all because I have issues. But so do all of them, which is precisely why I love them.

Thank you for your ask.

YUTA WALK MV

Pretty sure he wants me dead

Vegas has to die...

*la petite mort (a little death, and just not the sexual kind), but a death nonetheless.

Episode 9 highlighted that Vegas is aware that his life is surrounded by death.

I joked last week that Pete would be the one to kill Vegas if Vegas kept up his behavior, but...

It will be Pete. Pete will kill Vegas.

While fighting with his dad, Gun smacks the book Vegas is reading on the ground, symbolizing not just the end of a childhood, but the end of being Gun's child.

The book is about an alien invasion that sacrifices humans' unique individuality, which reflects Vegas and his father's relationship. The book's overall theme is that in order for a metamorphosis to occur, the old form needs to die.

During that fight, Gun tells Vegas that he will never be the best in this life as he is right now

But Pete brings up something Porsche mentioned to Kinn before during their main vs. minor family competition conversation

Why can't Vegas just be...himself? Why does he have to be "Vegas, from the minor family, always under the main family"? Why does he have to be Vegas, the bad guy? Because he has been written that way by his family? Even on the phone with his dad, Vegas asks "Do you think I want to be here?!".

He doesn't but doesn't know how to escape. It's an incomprehensible aspiration. Korn tells Kinn that "in this business, once you get in, it's hard to get out" so how bad is it for someone born into it? The only escape is death.

Vegas has been shown to be the villain...for Pete (Gun is the actual protagonist of the series because everyone conflicts with him, even his own sons), but what happens when Pete, the hero of the story, doesn't see Vegas as a villain?

Khun's questioning of Porchay emphasized what has to happen in the storyline between the hero and the villain.

The bad guy, Vegas, has to die, so Pete, the hero, can live. But according to our hero, there are no absolutes, so *THIS* version of Vegas must die, not the whole being. In order for him to remove himself from "Vegas, from the minor family" and "Vegas, Gun's son", he must end *this* life, so he can meet Pete in the next one as two equals that share both good and bad instead of being consumed by one.

Even though Pete is the one being held hostage and tortured, the one who begins to die in this room is Vegas. When they have sex, Vegas will notice just how much of himself he has buried and what Pete, the one who knows exactly how it feels to be beat down but still sees the bright side, is awakening. He can't grow in the darkness, and Pete offers light.

Pete is killing some part of the Vegas that can't escape, but the final blow will come when the family's face each other. Vegas, once again carrying out his father's plans for the minor family against the main family, will realize his life is not his. Pete might not deliver the actual shot, but somehow Pete will be the reason that Vegas decides this version of himself can't continue to exist. Because before he can change, Vegas Theerapanyakul has to die.

*la petite mort -  an expression that means "the brief loss or weakening of consciousness" and in modern usage refers specifically to "the sensation of post orgasm as likened to death.

(Mystery) in Seoul #YUTA