Bluesapphirevirgo22 - E.Z@22

“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”

— Unknown

“Being willing is not enough. We must do.”

— Leonardo da Vinci

Life is about evolving. Don’t stay in a situation that’s not helping you grow mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.

“I’m still learning to love the parts of me that no one claps for.”

— Rudy Francisco

I fucking hate most people. I don't get them. Their lack of empathy or even emotionally understanding anyone else, even on a basic level. I'm so goddamn sick and tired of being abused and feeling helpless to make it stop. And meanwhile assholes in my life want to play devil's advocate to people that they don't even like themselves, against me. I'm fucking sick and tired of being gaslighted and treated like shit by people in my life THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO BE ON MY SIDE. Seriously, WTF is wrong with people??? Anyone? Everyone??? I feel like I cannot trust anyone to have my back anymore, ever. I'm so fucking sick of questioning myself, after knowing how I've been abused and gaslighted. I'm far from fucking perfect, I've sinned. I'm only human. But I would never fucking do what people have done to me. I would rather fucking die than treat someone else the way I've been treated. I would NEVER hurt someone else the way I've been treated, even after they've hurt me already. I don't give a shit about revenge. I don't have it in me to hurt others, even if they've hurt me. That's not me. But for these fucking psychos that still want to hurt me, for whatever selfish, jaded, fucked up reasons... I just don't get it. I'm a feral cat backed into a corner at this point, and in order to make it stop the innocent involved are going to be hurt. Because I'm out of options and people = shit. Everyone needs to grow the fuck up. I just do not get how most people can live with themselves. I'm far from perfect, but I pay the price of self loathing daily and don't like hurting others, even if they 100% deserve it, because that's not me. But at some point something has to change. Sorry if this is pretty repetitive. I'm really upset and tired of being abused.