Botineh - Queen Of The Clouds

My inspiration:

A verdade é uma coisa bela e terrível, e portanto deve ser tratada com grande cautela.

Harry Potter e a Pedra Filosofal, J.K Rowling (via viemumlivro)

Ease your soul here

You’re better off without some people in your life. People that don’t know what they want, let them go so you can grow.

Unknown (via deeplifequotes)

Help me, aromantics Kenobi, you’re my only hope

Hey, I have never actually used tumblr much in terms of actually like posting stuff but a friend told me talking to people about this would probably help and I thought well maybe someone can help me on tumblr after i looked at a lot of posts about the subject.

Here it goes I guess. I’m bisexual, I know this for a while now and it’s something about me that doesn’t confuse me anymore. And I thought that was it, like I have myself figured out I know all I need to know. Recently, I realised, I know jack shit. Yes, I’m bisexual. That’s easy. It was easy to label and identify when i accepted that I did not only wanted to kiss boys.

Here comes the problem, I’m not sure I want to fall in love with anyone. Or can, really. I had a few relationships, they ended, I ended them. I’m always very uncomfortable in romantic settings. It just takes a lot from me to act in love, I don’t think I have been in love actually. Looking at the relationships that I had they all feel a lot to me like friendships that fell apart when people wanted more of me.

I think I’m aromantic, is where I’m getting with this unnecessary rant. I think I confused close friendships with romantic things and fucked all to hell. But I’m not sure because feelings are stupid and I have a very difficult time grasping and describing them. And also, I’m pretty sure I’m not romantic repulsed. Like, couples and ships and all that, I love reading about, I love seeing on movies I think it’s very cute. I just don’t feel that? Maybe? Or maybe I feel but it’s very small? I don’t know. I’m confused, it’s the whole point of this.

This shit is getting too long and I’m feeling too exposed. Maybe I’ll delete this right after I post, I don’t know.

THE POINT IS can someone aro pls talk to me? I know it must be super annoying talking with someone who is very lost, but I think it would really help me and I would be very thankful. If anyone can help me, thank you a lot. If you can’t, it’s okay I totally get it. I’m researching all I can I just think maybe talking with someone will help me. I don’t know.

Fuck, maybe this was a bad idea.

“Relatos Noturnos”. Outubro, 2016.