I Don’t Really Know How Realistic It Is For Me To Not Shave For Months, Or Maybe Even Forever… I

What makes you feel like a girl? Asking so you know what to get rid of.

Oh that’s an interesting question with a complicated answer and I’m not quite sure I’m in the headspace to answer it thoroughly.

To be perfectly honest I’m intersex, my genitals are mostly the same for a male so it wasn’t super explicitly obvious at first, but a lot of other things were not normal for me, so my experience with biological sex when I started puberty was not typical for a male, and I grew breasts and didn’t have much testosterone. I identified more strongly with being a girl in middle school because I felt like I related to the girls in my class more than the boys and even my experiences with my body developing made me feel like I wasn’t anything like “normal” boys. I don’t know if I mentioned this here but I actually initially transitioned in middle school and don’t even really have much experience with being male besides a window of a few years as a teenager when i gave it a shot.

My voice sounds like a cis woman’s voice, and to even sound male at all it hurts a bit after a while and doesn’t even necessarily sound convincing, my mannerisms and behaviors are typically feminine, I just generally don’t come across as male in any way.

Lately I’ve had short hair, I’ve been wearing hoodies and jeans, sometimes I don’t shave for a week.

It’s still “here’s your food honey!” “we’ll be right with you miss” “have a nice day ma’am” and men asking if I have a boyfriend, guys talking down to me and over-explaining things… It has always been this way for me. I have much more experience living the typical life of a girl and then as a woman. Even when I tried to be a guy from around age 16 to 19 it was extremely fake and I wasn’t very good at it and people still assumed I was a girl sometimes. I’d get the occasional “oh I thought you were just a tomboy” from kids I didn’t know that well in high school.

So, everything about me is female. I’m basically a cis girl with male genitals. I never had any shot of being a man. I think that’s why detrans kink is so hot to me? but it’s also why it’s so impractical.

I’m like actively trying to be a guy lately and failing, so idk what to do. I’m probably just an intersex girl.

this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy

Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.

Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.

I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.

I haven’t even *mentioned* that I’m schizoaffective on here have I? hehe, since I started posting on here I’ve mostly just been depressed and occasionally manic, but that’s not how it usually is is it??

nononono no it is nooooot!!! I am actually quite many dimensional beyond this ever so simple identity conundrum.

You come here to get off, I come here to live. I am undead, I rot within my ever still walking corpse. My productivity is limited by the demons that bonds me to my identity to my health to my world.

If I can’t kill them who can?

This is why everything needs to be reset, not in the traditional sense but the circles beyond circles :)

there’s a word for this i think, i am not speaking with clarity. Sometimes it happens. Sometimes you should be glad that I ever thought to imagine you here in the first time.

I DO NOT GET DEPRESSED.

I am BEYOND the comprehension of your feeble eye sockets and I will twist the bonds of the galaxy to fly through your being and soul.

Thank you for listening to me 😊

something I'm absolutely fucking weak for is when dudes gain weight and in the process manage to look like 10 or 15 years older, like unnnnnnnghnf perfection, not that I don't love actual daddies but like there's an incredible allure to a guy who's pursuit of pleasure completely obliterated any chance he had of looking young and pretty🤤🤤

changed my username from cis-man-echo to boymoder-echo to better reflect my status as a cute boy that shouldn’t even bother trying to be a girl.

Did you grow any breasts/ass?

I certainly did. I bought a binder to take care of that.

Honestly tempted to shave and put on a pretty outfit and lots of makeup so I can jack off to myself in the mirror

Nah take the pills anyway, it’ll be funny (Or give them to a fakeboy)

Maybe I should start taking prog just to see what effect it has on me lol

ugh i need to have her or something like her

First of all I LOVE DMs please feel free to dm me (18+ obviously) I love chatting especially about kinky stuff.

You can call me Echo. My "dead"name is a little too unique to share here because I think people would gather my identity. I am very strongly into transformation and especially detransitioning.

My flavor of detrans specifically is becoming a dominant porn addicted bro type. I especially have a fantasy of a girl (especially a yandere type) attaching herself to me romantically and insisting I become a dominant man for her (bonus if "she" is a fakeboy)

The detrans stuff is shockingly real for me, and I actually will commit to my notes game 100%, but any transphobia and (most of the) misogyny is just play (I think?)

I am very mentally ill, autism, schizoaffective, BPD, so just take it as me being a lil quirky :)

again feel free to dm!!