I will never send a picture of myself on this blog ever but believe me when I assure you that I look unambiguously female in every way outside of the dumb thing between my legs, and that was kind of the case even before I started hrt. This kink has so many layers to me and one of the big ones is like… i haven’t really been male since before I started puberty??
I really am kind of done with this kink at this point. I’m still getting off to it I just think any genuine desire to be male is kind of gone at this point. All it took was me looking at some nude pics from before I shaved my head and really taking in like… yeah, that’s transition goals. I achieved it. I’d be an idiot to give that up.
So I am definitely going through with bottom surgery :)
It’s in 12 months!!!
I would love to answer these
So, how big is it?
Circumcised or uncircumcised?
How musky?
What's the name you give for your dick?
Are the veins of your dick visible when it's soft?
Can you jerk off with two hands?
How full are your balls right now?
How many times do you jerk off in a day?
Have you ever cum during sleep?
What was one wet dream you still remember?
Did someone ever accidentally touched your dick? How that make you feel?
Have you ever used your ass for sexual pleasure? At all?
At what size does your dick stop fitting into your panties?
Briefs or boxers?
What kind of boy did the girls in your school perceive you as?
Do you automatically plan to pay for everything in a date?
What was the last girl you rated on how fuckable she was?
Just how obsessed with pussy are you?
Have a real woman ever called you a creep?
Your crush just told you they are not attracted to woman but love femboys. What do you do?
Can you speak without swearing?
When do you plan to hit the gym?
Have you joined the army?
Do you piss standing?
How loud can you burp?
Blue or green?
If you like boys, have you thought in buying a gay flag?
If you like girls, don't you think being more manly will attract more woman to you?
What fantasy do you visit often?
Have you ever realized you are a confused boy? If so, what made you realize?
It can’t possibly be 2025.
It’s not.
That would be ridiculous.
How do you feel about being forcefemmed into giving up any silly little notions of ever making it as a man?
honestly rn i’m begging for someone to forcefem me. Maybe that sounds crazy based on my blog but like genuinely if I had a 1 on 1 dynamic with someone very interested in making me in particular into a very feminine girl I’d be all over it. Please please please someone come into my dms and offer to turn me into a girly girl.
Oh I forgot I impulsively said this, oops. I failed it. I'll reduce the notes needed for the really big goals.
Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)
I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…
I've cum to this like 5 times now.
Real men deserve worship
13, 15, 17?
I’ll do the two less interesting ones first.
13 was something like “at what size can you not fit into panties” and idk I don’t think it has anything to do with my genitals, just the width of my hips. I can always just tuck.
17 was something like “what was the last girl you rated out of 10” uhhh i did that in literally my last reblog.
15 is the interesting one: How did girls in my school perceive me? Basically eccentric, autistic, sexually ambiguous theater kid. I wasn’t actually in theater anymore by the time I got to high school because I did pre-recorded productions so I guess technically i was a film kid? But same vibes. I’m autistic but like the type of autistic where I’m not just sociable but like, i dunno, people are kind of drawn to me. I’m good at working a crowd and networking and all that stuff but also I was seen as kind of weird because I was probably a little *too* charismatic sometimes. Also I had pretty bad mental health issues and everyone knew that so I think if anything a lot of people just felt sorry for me. I did have a girlfriend late in high school. I broke up with her because I figured I was asexual. Chat do you think I’m asexual? Oh also as I have mentioned before I was kind of like, half out of the closet that I was trans and that I’m intersex. I was pretty androgynous and towards the start of high school I was pretty openly a girl and had long hair and stuff but I think a lot of people still thought I was a boy, then roughly age 15-19 I tried way too hard to be male and it probably didn’t work. My voice has never been unambiguously male, and I don’t sound like a guy at all nowadays, but idk how people saw it back then. Probably a lot of people assumed i was gay. I wasn’t. Or at least not mlm, maybe I’m technically a lesbian.
I love being a boy! I love my dick, my musk, my flat chest! I love how easy it is to get horny and how good it feels to be able to cum 🥴
ugh i need to have her or something like her