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Are you american?
yes I am!
maybe i should just become super transphobic
How do you feel about being forcefemmed into giving up any silly little notions of ever making it as a man?
honestly rn i’m begging for someone to forcefem me. Maybe that sounds crazy based on my blog but like genuinely if I had a 1 on 1 dynamic with someone very interested in making me in particular into a very feminine girl I’d be all over it. Please please please someone come into my dms and offer to turn me into a girly girl.
Are you attracted to men, women, nonbinary faggots, or all of the above?
I’m attracted to cis women and feminine trans mascs. I don’t like penis. Most of the people I’ve had sex with had penises so I know from experience I am not a fan.
How many cunts have you bred?
2 but I didn’t cum inside so I’m not sure if that counts as “bred” hope to increase that number significantly.
would you recommend detransitioning to other trans "girls"?
hmmm it depends. I think it would probably be good for a lot of them. I have three answers to this.
trans rights answer: chances are this kink is a complicated psychological response to insecurities you have about your gender and you should try to pick them apart and figure out what you really wanna do if you pull back the curtains of trauma and insecurity and such. There’s a chance maybe you should actually detransition! Gender is something that can change over time and maybe you used to be a trans girl and that is no longer the case. People evolve and it’s okay to decide being a girl is no longer for you.
internalized transphobia answer: You will never be a cis girl, and is being a “trans” girl even worth it? Either you don’t pass and like, okay ew, what are you doing thinking you can be a real girl?? Just be a guy. OR you pass and are pretty and stealth which like okay cutie you get to cosplay as a cis girl but how long is that really gonna last?
bioessentialist answer: i know you’ve got the idea in your head that that it doesn’t matter that you’re biologically male and that you can identify however you want but like c’mon dude 💀 it’s a little cliche to just say XY = Male but let’s be real, your genetics having programming in them that build your body to a specific design and every action you take to realize your mental gender is working against the very nature of your physical destiny. It’s exhausting isn’t it? Just give into your DNA! It’d look good on you.
What's the most depraved thing you've done for the sake of getting off?
A lot of my answers to this would be some variation of pretending to be someone I’m not. My biggest kink is transformation and that has led to me doing some catfishing or giving falsehoods about my identity.
I think specifically the thing I feel most guilty about is when I was doing some detrans rp and I sent a pic of my face and they *recognized me* (I know I keep alluding to my micro-celebrity but I’m really not that famous, still, sometimes people know who I am) and I, in my horny daze, decided it would be super hot if I pretended to be some random person catfishing as myself. This really hurt the person I had been talking to as they had previously seen me as kind of a role model and they got really upset and threatened to blackmail me. All that sent me into a deep depression and resulted in me not uploading any videos for months.
Not really a sexy answer, more of a sad one, but this blog is nothing if not honest.
Have you told anyone in your life you're a guy again?
I have not really. At most I’ve told a few friends I’m questioning if I may be gender fluid.
what's your favorite thing about being off HRT?
The main reason I’m off hrt is because of my breeding kink. I want to get someone pregnant 😘
Similarly I want to be able to get massive erections.
To take it a bit further I like the idea of no longer being able to pass as a girl because of the effects of testosterone, but that hasn’t really happened yet.
My asks are very open right now, I want to hear every question you have about my gender and how I feel about this kink and why I’m a guy and such. Please ask me questions!!!
Been hearing from a lot of people that they find my genuine public exploration of my gender identity really hot because I’m clearly also still jacking off to it and because clearly this is a very real thing for me. Honestly it’s a lot of internalized transphobia. I want to be a cis girl not a trans girl, and if I can’t I might as well just be a cis guy.
I think maybe I should shave my head again. Trap myself in this for longer.
I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…
My favorite moot by far tbh
awww thanks, I’m curious what makes you say that.
Cute, pretty, quirky girl cursed to get an erection when she thinks about someone pressuring her to become a dirty gross man
Very interesting results! Overall this is 31% wanting me to be a girl and 69% (nice) wanting me to be a boy. Of that 69% like half want me to have a short, masc haircut rather than totally shaved or kind of longish “for a boy”
I don’t know exactly want I’ll do yet.
I guess I’m sorry for a while now this blog has been less detrans kink and more detrans self-exploration. That’s maybe not what you’re here for. I think most likely I am gender fluid but I don’t know if maybe that’s just a step on a larger path towards being 100% male. After all I used to be very binary female and now I’m kinda 50/50 so it’s clearly trending in a male direction. I don’t think I *like* that exactly. I kind of detest the idea of becoming male. I’ve toyed with the idea of listening to sissy or bimbo hypnosis to reinforce my girliness.
This is pretty specific but if anyone knows of any hypnosis intended to turn you into an obnoxious manic egirl send it my way 😘
I might change the name of this blog to reflect my uncertainty.
I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P
maybe you could get something semi androgynous, a haircut you can style either feminine or masculine depending on the day. i know you said you wanna commit to one permanently but for now you can just do that maybe?
Yeah so, I’m maybe a bit more clear headed about this than usual right now so I can give a very genuine answer: That’s probably a good idea, and realistically I probably am gender fluid. I think the reason I’m so hesitant to identify with gender fluidity is because I’d have to give up my “one of the good ones” sticker, which like I know is not good motivation but idk when someone tells me “You’re the first trans person I’ve seen that I think actually looks and sounds good” I’m kind of like “ew that’s transphobic but also an incredibly strong compliment i think???”
My concern about this is less about randos on the Internet and more about how some of my extended family sees me. It might complicate my life if I started openly saying “Yeah I’m fine with being a boy sometimes”
Having an androgynous haircut would probably be good! Something where I can pass as either cis male or cis female (which is probably achievable for me!)
That being said, and I’m at risk of hinting at my identity here a little bit, I’m going to in an indie film production later this year and I play a male character (it’s a sequel to something from before I transitioned) so really I just need to have a haircut that fits that role and then after we wrap I’ll probably get it styled in a feminine way.
Most likely I won’t do anything with my hair at all until we start filming in order to maximize the options for how my character’s hair can look because we haven’t 100% decided yet. My plan for after we’re done is actually basically the Gwenpool or Enid Sinclair haircut lol so, blonde, around shoulder length or a little shorter with the ends dyed pink or something similar.
That being said we might not finish filming this for quite a while, so actually I’m trapped in boyness whether I like it or not (which is part of why I’ve been so into this kink lately) but I was the one who decided we should just keep the character male anyway so whose fault is it really?
(He really wouldn’t have worked as a trans character at all)
this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy
Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.
Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.
I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.
I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.
reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are
For any ftm chicks that wanna see my mtf man penis: my dms are open. 😘
Tomorrow I’m hooking up with a fakeboy irl and we’re going to start working towards fixing each other <3
perfect bounce
Maybe I’m gender fluid or something idk, but really I want to be binary one way or the other, permanently.
ugh i need to have her or something like her
anyone come in my dms and ask me anything
Need to be a good boy and tell my deadname real name to people in my messages
Went through a whole arc about my facial hair today but in the end it is now gone :)
erm so I may have impulsively shaved my face which I know I said I wouldn’t do but to be perfectly honest having facial hair is just not practical for me. I can’t openly be detrans rn I’m not ready for that and I don’t know if I ever will be. I’ll keep skipping my hrt for the foreseeable future but I just have to shave.