Cece-flii - Cece

i’ve become the villain’s lover!

summary: You have the worst luck in the entire world to be transmigrated into a novel as some faceless side character, where the most notorious villains in the story won’t leave you alone. (ft. Riddle, Leona, Azul, Jamil, Vil, Idia, Malleus).

notes: 12k words, scenario, fluff, mentions of violence, reader gets injured once, heavily based on my love of cheesy isekai/reincarnation/villainess manhwa

All of your problems started with the book your friend lent you.

You didn’t even want to read it at first, but you took the copy because she wouldn’t stop pestering you and spamming you with texts. The title—I’ve Become the Villain’s Lover!—was embossed gold, and the cover picture had seven beautiful men lounging around a woman with brown hair, the woman gazing wistfully into the distance. In short, it was so cheesy it sent chills down your back.

You really weren’t going to read it. But that summer night was hot and humid and you had nothing better to do than stare at the television and stir around your half-melted ice cream. So when you saw the book on the edge of the kitchen counter, you thought, why not? and opened it up.

If it was bad, you would stop after a few pages. But the television kept droning on as you read, and your forgotten ice cream was now melted slush in its bowl, and soon you were halfway through the story.

The premise itself was simple enough: the heroine, Hera Winn, was the treasured daughter of a down on his luck baron. He sent her to the city to make her debut, and after a series of mishaps, she ended up running into the crown prince, Malleus Draconia, who fell in love at first sight. However, the crown prince was feared by his subjects, and rumors swirled around about his fearsome power and his family. To make matters worse, six other men fall in love with Hera. The cherry on top? All seven men were notorious villains, feared by people far and wide for their cruelty.

You were still a few chapters away from the ending when your eyes started drooping; it was impossible to keep them open, even though you were dying to text your friend. It was deliciously bad, in an over-the-top and campy way, and you appreciated how self-indulgent the author was. Seriously, why would seven villains even fall for an ordinary person? It was way too contrived.

Whatever. You could call her tomorrow.

You closed your eyes, and when you opened them again, you found yourself staring at an unfamiliar ceiling. Oh no. No way. This wasn’t what you thought it was, was it?

Conveniently, there was a hand mirror next to you, and when you stared into the frame, the face of a stranger stared back at you.

Your worst fears had come true. You’d transmigrated into I’ve Become the Villain’s Lover!

Shit. You were never going to read another book in your life.

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i'm really interested in the path that asa's character arc is headed. i think it's going to be a really pivotal one. it's going to force her to confront her self-concept and lack of self-esteem.as we know, asa is a character who has extremely low self esteem, has suicidal tendencies, lacks close friendships, and all around is disconnected from her peers.

now she is thrust into the spotlight with people finally respecting her and idolizing her proving that she indeed has value in this world. while she outwardly denies liking fame, i think deep down she really doesnt believe this. with fame, she has external validation to prove all of her notions of herself wrong. she's finally being and celebrated for who she is. she is even called beautiful and her accomplishments are affirmed by the media and society as well. she has coveted fame which so many people especially teenagers crave and desire.

many teenagers in our society often ones who are lonely and depressed yearn to be famous. they believe that being famous will make them happier and will solve all of their problems. (wanis, 2013). people with low self esteem tended to desire to be famous since they believe it would compensate for their vulnerabilities and perceived sense of inadequacy. they tend to fear who they are and are unsatisfied with their lives and fame seems to be the natural solution for that as it may help them overcome their feelings of self-worth (noser & zeigler-hill).

boys tend to believe that it will make them happy while girls are more likely to think that it will make them happier in school (wanis, 2013). tying this in with asa, she has mentioned that she has little desire to establish relationships with her classmates. deep down she probably she genuinely does. she is completely alone with no one who cares about her not even her parents. fame finally has given her this. people care about her. they like her. they notice her. her status in school has probably drastically changed because of this. she is probably no longer bullied because her classmates finally respect her and love her.

on this note, i immediately think of mean girls. cady heron is a social outcast in her new school. she eventually is able to rise in the social hierarchy and insert herself into the plastics who hold influence and power in the school. she eventually becomes just as self-centered and egotistical as them, losing herself to popularity. this form of social influence and power genuinely does corrupt. when you go from a nobody to a person who is noticed and valued, it does something to you. you lose yourself, your self-concept changes. as professor of psychology mitch prinstein states regarding popularity, teens "become almost addicted to any type of attention from peers" (kris, 2017)

for someone like asa, someone with little self-esteem, the external validation will fill temporarily fill the void of loneliness, depression, isolation, lack of appreciation, and purpose but this is nothing without a sense of internal validation. you are forever chasing that high of being appreciated all the while not loving yourself. external validation cannot fill this void. you will be empty and hollow relying on people's words to uplift you.

and we can see with denji who is forever chasing that high of being chainsaw man. without it, he feels like he is nothing. he is aimless because in the end he doesn't value himself. there is no fake it until you make it even with fame. when that fame goes away, you are left with nothing but yourself. at the end of the day, you are the only one capable of uplifting yourself.

references

Patrick Wanis

Teen Loneliness, Low Self-Esteem and the Desire for Fame ~ Patrick Wanis

In this week’s Success Newsletter, I would like to share the findings of a study which reveals the link between teenage low self-esteem, lon

KQED

The kinds of popularity adolescents and teens experience can affect the relationships they have later as adults, according to Mitch Prinstei

tandfonline.com

Self-Esteem Instability and the Desire for Fame: Self and Identity: Vol 13, No 6

THE BLUE NINJA??????

Secret Relationship - Silver

(note: Book 7 is not released at this time in eng server, so i'm sorry if this is ooc a bit.)

It was mostly a secret for a little bit.

Silver is a little sleepy and so he's sometimes just waking up and distracted because he's hazy and didn't want anyone blaming YOU for him being distracted.

Also yes, he's a guard in training but he's currently Malleus's retainer. What if something were to happen to you which took Silver out of the way and this happened during club so either Sebek stayed in club or went with Silver so Malleus was alone and something happened and it would be his fault and-

that's extreme and unlikely but nobody told him that.

Also didn't want to tell Lilia for a little bit until Silver knew if Lilia would let him date because he's a good child and does intend on coming clean.

One time Lilia made an offhanded comment about how if Silver were to romantically like someone Lilia would do his own "light digging around". Silver understood this as Lilia was strict with who he could date, rather than Lilia casually/secretly but obviously trying to find out little facts about you.

The thought of Lilia scared you a bit since you didn't want to be interrogated by someone who shows up upside down out of nowhere.

The classrooms have these seats which are basically rows of benches. You and Silver sit in the back and hold hands under the desk. No one sees that way, and nobody is behind you to look at your hands.

You're close acquaintances with Malleus because he shows up at your dorm to take walks in the woods behind Ramshackle, so you have been invited to sit at the Diasomnia table before.

Silver gets to see you a bit that way, but if he tried to hold hands with you, someone would notice right away. You sometimes touch knees if you're sitting beside each other or lightly tap each others shoes.

In that case, Silver knows you're smiling because of the shoe tapping rather than the conversation at the table, but he can't say that.

Silver ends up making a weird face because he's trying not to smile, so when he's asked about it, he says there was a bad mushroom in his risotto.

Sometimes Malleus invites you to walk in the halls in the morning and Sebek insists you do, so you hang out with the Diasomnia crew a little bit more than you would, but not every day.

Out of the crew, Silver is the only second year, so it's not suspicious that you sit at the Diasomnia tables sometimes and therefore Silver knows you better in his classes and he ends up partnering with you for projects.

If you're not in Equestrian club, or in any club, he urges you to join. You don't have to, but even if you don't join Equestrian club, Silver still takes longer with his horse because you secretly meet up with him in the stables.

He brings you to where they store the hay (away from the horses), so he can kiss you behind the stacks. He kisses you a few times and cups your face so when he stops kissing you he can look at your pretty face.

"Hi."

"Hi"

"How was your day?"

The only time Silver's sleeping curse is useful is when he's partnering with you for a school project so he gets to go over to your dorm and accidentally forget the time and ever so conveniently fall asleep while working.

Really doesn't care about Sebek telling him that he should be more mindful to you the next morning because the actual story was that it was all planned so you and Silver could spend time together and catch up on all the unspoken words.

Lilia catches on at some point because of all of Silver's increasing questions about dating. Lilia was just suspicious but the way Silver spots you and looks at you from across the hall made Lilia have an epiphany. (also you accidentally left a butterfly clip in Silver's hair and Lilia saw it immediately.)

Lilia called you over immediately and made sure you'd be joining their table for lunch.

It was passive-aggressive in the most friendliest Lilia way ever. You and Silver both knew that Lilia knew. (Lilia was teasing you with vague hints, he wasn't menacing)

You went over to Diasomnia dorm later that very day and Silver took your hand and announced officially to Lilia and everyone that the two of you were dating.

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