God I Fucking Love Tiktok Sometimes

Ppl without ADHD be like “oh if I get rid of all possible distractions then you’ll be forced to focus on the boring task!” Fool… You underestimate my Power 

My band director put a hole in the ceiling with a trumpet mute

the band room

When I first stepped into the place that we call

“the band room,”

I didn’t like it at all.

There was paint peeling

off the walls

and there were stains

on the carpet.

The room smelled like wet socks after it rained,

and instrument cases hung out of the cubbies.

But that was when the room was empty.

When my fellow band kids stepped inside

the stains on the floor magically disappeared.

When music filled the air 

no one cared about how much paint was peeling off the walls. 

When we came back in after a long marching practice

no one cared that they were sweaty or cold 

because the room felt like a warm hug.

After we came back from a long competition,

the band room was still waiting for us.

It always seemed to have that effect 

when the people I cared about most were in it.

On the last day I stepped into that room with my friends

they told me that the carpenters had finally painted over the off-white walls.

The old crusty carpet had been replaced with clean, gray fuzz.

I didn’t notice because to me

it had always looked that way with my friends in it.

When it was finally time to leave,

I stopped at the door

and smiled at the one place that had been a constant

when everything else in my life had seemed to change.

I guess that’s the thing about the band room.

It tricked me into thinking

four years

was a very long time.

Is it Waze?

We're on a road trip rn and the GPS dude is some weird AI thing? He tells jokes? I'm terrified and my dad WON'T explain

happy hallowing you can take TWO pieces

This is my dog except she’s stopped trying and just lets it hit the floor

I guess when you’ve been learning not to feel as anxious when talking to people and then get the anxiety “fixed” you become more outgoing than the average person since you’ve already been pushing through anxiety so the lower level is a piece of cake

So I started anxiety medicine like 3 months ago

The things I've learned are:

- I am a YAPPER. I love talking.

- I love making friends. I have gone from being afraid to open my mouth to literally walking up to people and complimenting them

- Social anxiety fucking sucks dude

- Feeling like your heart is dropping constantly ISN'T normal

It’s probably a mix of having practiced it a million times before, the anonymity of being in a large group of people who are all wearing the same thing, and knowing that your fellow band people have your back.

Idk what it is about marching band that takes away my anxiety. Like, I’ll be terrified to do anything in front of any amount of people. But halftime shows? Concerts? Why does my anxiety not mind them but then make me too nervous to read in class???

Oooooo so close I’ll go ahead and reblog this

ok

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