I Didn't Know I Loved

I Swallowed a Star

I watched the stars

Then i consumed their light

One by one

A darkened sky

Then little by little

Their light consumed me

In return.

Thoughts on Love #16

This is neither what i expected, nor what I wanted. 

I thought love was about fighting for something, not with someone- then i realized how similar the two concepts were. I understand now that i was fighting with you in order to protect myself, when really all I needed was you. 

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.

Charles R. Swindoll

Denouement

The untying of knots

Resolving the loose ends

Or cutting them off

Of all the insults you've thrown

"Soft" has hurt the most.

To hear that the years of love and laughter

That carved the lines in my cheeks

Were a weakness

Wounds me as much as the slaps you endured

At the hands of people far less soft than I.

In a moment my pain will pass, I know

And pity will set in

At how sad it is that you were raised

To see compassion as a flaw.

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Day 3/14

When will i learn

That your love

Was never for me

To hold?

Only for me to veiw

At a distance

But never to really

Touch.

Graveyard At Midnight

The crow caws once.

A shiver down my spine

I wanted nothing more than to preserve what was mine.

The crow caws again.

Another eerie cry

I tried to fight fate, but you cant win with a lie.

The crow caws once more

A body in the ground

No headstone to mark, only soil in a mound.

The crow falls silent.

The empty only grows

The last attempt to hide my sins, causes them to show.

Fly, little Icarus

But don't you touch the sun

Your wings may melt and falter

But you are still my son.

I saw you walking as a babe

Your first few tottering steps

And now you soar so high above

But you cannot imagine its depths

So fly, my little Icarus

But fear the sun's hot rays

Your fragile feathers fall apart

And you fall back from whence you came

A rumble in the fog

Tells me I am not alone.

Quickened breaths

Faster steps

I try to flee

What stalks me in the dark

But when the fog clears

I see an empty field

Where the weeds have grown

Unkempt

And i wonder how i am meant

To trust others

When i can barely trust

Myself

Butterfly Blues

In my stomach were butterflies

But I had no idea why,

I loved you dearly, yet still I see

Myself franticly clipping their wings.

The world is in a state of gray

But you come in and brightly say

“Only you, my love, will I adore.”

I never could have wanted more.

For you I live, for you I breathe

My heart wants these creatures freed

Escaped from their cage, released today

My butterfly blues finally fade away