I'm A Melancholic Alcoholic

Does time ever wish

That it could slow down

Even for a moment

Too?

The words rattle

In my mind

Like chains

But somehow

They are

Freeing.

They sing a

Silent song

To me

Like whispers in

The autumn

And they are

More beautiful

Than the words

Could ever say

Colorblind Problems... just me?

So I'm colorblind, and when I was starting at a new school everybody was super freaked when they found out. People always point at things and ask what color it is... is this just me? Like this,

People: Ooh! You’re colorblind? What color is the sky?

Me: Blue.

People: What color is this paper?

Me: White.

People: You aren’t colorblind, why would you lie?

Me: I’m not lying, I am colorblind. I’m just not colorstupid.

But then there are sometimes...

People: Ok, what color is this peanut butter?

Me: ...

Me: Green..?

Can you hear the darkness breathing?

In and out

The shadows are eerily still

Yet alive

With the telltale beat

Of a blackened heart

Strings of lights and

Yellow tapestries

Brighten up my room

In an attempt to hide

The darkened mess

That lurks in the corners

Lilac words

And lavender hallucinations

Illuminate a world

That is better off

Without me in it

I'm back where I belong, it seems

By myself at last.

I tell myself it's what I need

But thoughts are coming fast.

Maybe Icarus had the right idea

That it's okay to burn

For temporary bliss

All I need is a kiss

Cause we're already a match

And I'm soaked to the bone

With kerosene

How cute, he got me roses

As if plants could fix this mess

The paleness of the petals

Are completely meaningless.

But still, he bought me flowers

I guess that means he cares

But it takes a little more than that

To make this all seem fair.

Bye, Deciever

Listen close

Carefully

I have to say something

But you wont want to hear it

Anymore than i want to say it.

I want to be more

Than you will let me be.

So please

Give me time

This time

Wait- are you listening?

This is what i mean

I need you to understand

I need you to see

I am small,

You've made me this way

I am meant to be invincible

But you got in the way.

I know you've been hur- are you joking?

This is my point!

You ignore me

You restrain me

Then you slaughter my pride.

Do you understa- LISTEN!

It takes more courage

Then i have to say this

But i will

Because i must

So if you ever loved me

Listen now

To my final words

That is, for you

Goodbye