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camping x damon albarn

*fluff*

the pond was a beautiful site as the sun had just set and the only light was the moon. we sat in our summer clothes with our legs hanging off the doc.

“this is my favorite place to come and write”

i smiled just letting his voice set in. his voice is beautiful and made a water like feeling down my spine. we sat there for another half hour until he stood up and grabbed my hand we ran to the campfire. our friends were still sitting there from when we left and all of them talking in the dark they didn’t notice as we sat down. i’ve never felt as at peace as i did when i was camping but to now bring the love of my life and my best friends it was one of the best experiences i’ve ever had.

we sat in the fold chairs looking into the fire. it was warm but the feeling of uneasiness still lingered in the dark. the thought of anything else but the fire washed away until he spoke.

“i’m getting sleepy”

he looked at me with red eyes and dry lips. his hair was a terribly beautiful mess. he was wrapped in a blanket and i sat in his sweatshirt. all the others have either passed out in their chairs or were already in their own tents.

without a verbal acknowledgment we both stood up and cuddled into each other’s arms as we walked. when we got in the tent i took my skirt off and was left in his light blue sweatshirt and my gray underwear. i looked over to damon who had just finished getting in he was taking off his shirt and shorts and put on some gray sweatpants. his skin was so soft, even though i’ve seen it so many times it still amazes me how perfectly imperfect his body was.

our tent was cozy with string lights strung in the inside. our bed was an inflatable mattress with lots of blankets. he dropped down next to me.

“i’ve never had so much fun”

he smiled as he closed his eyes in peace. i could see him look back on the memories of the week. like when we went swimming at 4am at the pond, or catching our marshmallows on fire, and when we caught a jar full of light bugs.

i snuggled up next to him and the blankets while i turned off the lights. he smelled like fire and cigarettes. the sounds of loons and cicadas made my body melt. i felt his breath on my face. he looked me in the eyes and tucked ny hair behind my ears. i went in too kiss his nose. and we soon fell asleep.

okay this is my first fic i hope you like it :,)

Spring is here again

Graham: Morning.

Damon, in the studio: It’s close to seven PM.

Graham: As I said, morning.

cutest guy ever: graham coxon.

[x]

could you do like a farm life with graham?! it’s kinda weird but i always imagine growing up in a cute cottage with him <3

cotttage-core graham cottage-core graham cotttage-core graham cottage-core graham cotttage-core graham cottage-core graham. i’m practically foaming at the mouth at the idea of this oh my GOD. also i went on holiday to a cottage in the middle of the countryside last year and writing this made me miss it :-(

- one thing, matching wellies! sharing bobble hats, jazzy jumpers, woolen scarves and wearing graham’s big coats to go on morning walks around your fields in the winter; graham loves seeing you wearing his clothes and regularly excessively bundles you up before you two head out, tugging his coat straight on your shoulders with a gentle pat. he keeps your hand alongside his in his pocket as you’re walking, only to keep your hands warm of course, totally not because he’s smitten or anything. 

- stargazing at night. the distinct lack of light pollution in your area ensured that the sky was always bright with little white lights. throughout your time there graham had grown pretty knowledgable about different constellations and the specific times of year that meteor showers occurred; you’d usually set up camp outside for those nights. he’d keep you tucked into his side, flask of hot tea prepared for the two of you, one arm pointing to the sky and a soft voice quietly speaking about the names of the patterns you observed. graham would carefully observe your face in the darkness when he was sure you were fully absorbed in watching the sky, he’d always feel his heart swell in his chest. in moments like these, graham wanted nothing more than for you to feel safe against him; “you’re comfy, love, aren’t you?”. if he was very honest with himself, when you’d both see that fateful shooting star and he’d watch your face light up in pure happiness, he wasn’t sure what more he could wish for and would settle for wishing his life would always always stay this sweet. 

- hot summer nights with you in some flimsy cotton sundress, barefoot, and you couldn’t help but stand up to sway to whatever music graham had picked for you to listen to whilst eating dinner on your patio. graham couldn’t really keep his hands off you, you looked so pretty with the fading sun painting your skin, a light layer of sweat making you glisten like you weren’t quite real. 

- graham painted often in your garden, using a little pochade box you’d decorated with stickers to paint little beautiful pieces of your grounds. if you were lucky, sometimes you’d even notice he was painting you.

- taking film pictures and polaroids of graham laughing, a little daisy in his hair as he lies in the grass. (im going to cry)

- your cottage being decorated in little eccentric trinkets you’d managed to procure from the sweet, small business in your area. a hand-knitted duvet with patches of all different colours, a clock in the shape of a tabby cat, healthy plants stacked on every windowsill. 

- graham being insistent on the use of candles as your light source at night, making your cozy living room smell like a mixture of whatever scent graham was particularly infatuated with at the time (he mostly liked fresh linen, though). 

- graham reading to you softly at night, curled up on the sofa together, legs tangled under a soft blanket i need to stop now im going feral 

Thanatophobia Thoughtdump

1. If we are able to worry about it, it means we are alive right now.

2. Don’t try to envision what’s beyond it, unless you’re religious, because it’s physically impossible. Our brains don’t have the capability to imagine it.

3. I try to distract myself with the political world, as it’s much faster-paced and very grounding in how it changes so quickly.

4. Yes, I am terrified, and wondering how everyone else is happy, but then I have to remember that many of us haven’t truly lived yet. Many of us have been resigned to quiet, boring lives by overprotective parents.

5. It mostly hits you the strongest when you’re the least satisfied with your life; when there’s so much you want to achieve but you don’t want the time to pass in order for you to be able to.

6. Life is an A-Z, NOT an A-B.

7. It’s time we went searching for life’s peripheral, rather than just the tunnel.

8. Obligatory the-school-system-has-failed-us: life is prepared until you turn 18 and most children see that as being forever away. I reached 16 and then felt wrong going any further. Education for children is often centred around “don’t do this or you will DIE and it’ll be HORRIBLE” which is fine to prevent a toddler from doing something, but completely forgets that one day that toddler is going to grow up.

9. Today is in its own bubble, and I’m going to try and believe I’m okay.