Shaking Myself (very Gently) . Being In Pain Takes A Lot Of Energy!!!!!! Being In Pain Is Exhausting!!!!!!!

I think the most fucked up thing about intrusive thoughts is it's really difficult to discuss them without discussing their content, because without a discussion of their content it's impossible to get across just how distressing and debilitating they are. "Oh, you have unpleasant thoughts sometimes? Yeah we all have that, I guess."

But if you discuss their content there's this huge risk of people just pulling away in disgust. "Oh god, you have THOSE sorts of thoughts? They should lock freaks like you the fuck up!" As if they think people act on every single thought they have.

There's only one real way to categorise disorders and it's when you google it and the first results fit into one or more of the following categories:

1. "Is your child-" "Does your child-" "How to cope with the burden of being a parent for-"

2. "How to get better: Step One: have a lot of money!" "How to get better: Step One: simply stop having it!"

3. "10 Ways To Spot Sickopaths With This Disorder So You Can Protect Yourself" "The Bad People Disease -by Dr. Eugene X."

being chronically ill with fluctuating symptoms is so annoying because when it's at it's worst im like "okay i desperately need some type of mobility aid right now, i haven't been able to leave my house in days" but then i'm able to go for a walk one day and suddenly i feel like im exaggerating my symptoms and that i actually can walk fine and it would just be embarrassing and pointless to ask for a mobility aid assessment

but like ... not struggling as much one day doesn't take away from the days that i struggle the most

our pain is valid even when it's not at it's worst and we deserve the accommodations we need even if we don't always need them at all times

Trauma is the response, not the event.

And when we talk about how DID is formed from severe childhood trauma, what is not meant is that what happened to you needs to have been objectively "severe". If you have severe trauma responses (such as DID), then you have severe trauma.

Your trauma is enough regardless of what happened to you.

Trauma is incredibly subjective; what was incredibly traumatizing for one person may not be for another. How we become traumatized is related to a complex web of factors. No case of traumatization will look the exact same.

Trauma is not a competition. What matters is that it affects you. It's enough.

It's all fun and games talking about your disability and advocating for it until your disability disables you and you start hearing that stupid voice in your head telling you that you're a faker and don't deserve your accommodations

I will be the first to admit that I’m not a good friend. I forget people exist, therefore I don’t text them. I don’t call them. I don’t acknowledge them.

I forget people are…people. To me most the time, everyone is just people that float around. People that help me as I float too. It sucks. I wish I saw people as more. I wish I had friends.

I’ll be the first to admit that I have disorders that cause me to not be a good friend. They aren’t excuses, but explanations. I try my best, yes. But sometimes my best just isn’t good enough. That’s ok. I’m content with that at the moment. However, I work everyday to get better and be a better friend. A better brother. A better person.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized by one event, I love you.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized multiple times, I love you.

Hypersexuals who grew up in traumatic environments, I love you.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized at a young age, I love you.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized at an older age, I love you.

Hypersexuals who are still in traumatic situations, I love you.

Hypersexuals who said no, I love you.

Hypersexuals who "agreed to it", I love you.

Hypersexuals whose actions are greatly affected by these experiences, I love you.

Hypersexuals who cope by making jokes about their trauma, I love you.

Hypersexuals who cope by venting about their trauma, I love you.

Hypersexuals who talk with "inappropriate" language, I love you.

Hypersexuals who get uncomfortable talking with that language, I love you.

Hypersexuals who engage in risky behavior, I love you.

Hypersexuals who are scared of intimacy, I love you.

Hypersexuals who show these parts of themselves, I love you.

Hypersexuals who hide these parts of themselves, I love you.

Hypersexuals who are trying to learn healthy intimate boundaries, I love you.

Hypersexuals who struggle with intimate relationships, I love you.

Hypersexuals, I LOVE YOU!

Your experiences are valid, they'll always be valid, and they do not make you less lovable.

autism thing where i have to watch youtubers i generally agree with react to every drama or apology ever (multiple sources) because someone can make the worst, most manipulative and dishonest apology video, and i will watch it and go "yeah okay :3"

i just cannot detect it like at all. i will not notice anything is wrong. & then the youtuber reacting is like "look how awful that was look at all of these bad things they did in it" and every time i'm like holy shit man you're so right actually i did not see

have to be super careful about where i get my news bc i know i'm so easily influenced bc i miss out on this stuff. & i'm tired of ppl talking down on people who don't pick up on this on their own. it's not my fault. i try to educate myself by watching other ppl talk about it but if i make a mistake please just educate me don't assume i'm evil?

its rather annoying to me how its so normal to demonize people that get angry and bitter because of trauma instead of sad. its such a normal reaction to get angry because something bad happens to you but theres so many people that have such tight views of "good victims" that you have anything other than depression or anxiety or smth or turn bitter and theyre like. Your honor, kill them with rocks

It's always infuriated me hearing people say that children have it easy. It's only gotten worse as I've gotten older and have been able to reflect on my childhood and see the children around me grow up.

They do not have it easy. They don't get a say in most important things. They're seen is unintelligent, yet expected to understand things that full grown adults struggle with.

They've got a job, which is school, that is actually proven to not be working for a lot of them; myself included. They're expected to sit still and in silence for at least forty minutes at a time, and those with ADHD are treated as though they're immature and lazy because they often physically can't do it.

Far too many of them have abusive parents that lie through their teeth to make people think everything is fine, and of course, who would believe the child over the parent?

Aspects of abuse has been normalised. Parents are sympathised with when children open up about the things they've gone through, especially if they're not physical. They're told that their parents are only doing this because they love them, or that the child needs to start seeing things from their point of view. Meanwhile, adults can freely complain about their children on public forums and to friends and family and get away with it because "it's hard being a parent".

Fuck off and do better.

DNI Believers of narcissistic/borderline/anti-social/histrionic abuse.