TOA: Addiford In Colour:
Original Sketch by @hntrgurl13
Clean Up/Colour by @scipunk63
He thinks alone.
I think it happens at a time when he was forced to be away from the band.
how it feels to log on to tumblr and read a shallow ford analysis post with at least 4 counts of victim blaming
Fiddleford Hadron McGucket is truly the character ever. He's a mad engineer. He just wants to play baseball with his son. He's a cult leader. He used to live in a dumpster. He is the smartest man in the world. He is married to a raccoon. He grew up on a hog farm in Tennessee. He had a homoerotic relationship with his science partner. He's divorced. He has eaten a baby dinosaur. He's the president of the United States.
man.
I like to draw Bill as a father
Let's just say, Alastor and his first murder, when he was still an ordinary person ... I can assume that before that the guy lived a completely ordinary life, but then all sorts of troubles that prompted his breakdown fell upon him
Thanks to @callipraxia for inspiring me to write this.
I know I've joked about how silly it is that Ford wears a turtleneck and trenchcoat in the humid Oregon summer, but as someone who lives in the humid midwest and has dermatillomania, I 100% understand.
Perhaps most important is the fact that he's basically cosplaying as Carl Sagan, which I've mentioned before, but I think I finally found the words to explain why it's so meaningful. I know that modeling my own outfits after my idols provides a huge measure of emotional safety and that is something that Ford would absolutely need after coming back to his old house.
That house is ground zero for his biggest failures. That house is where he met Bill, where he was manipulated, where he slaved on working a damned portal for a demon. He stayed awake for days upon days in that house, bleeding from his eye, unsure if the whispers were only in his head or leaking from the dimension beyond. His brother was branded in that house and it was his fault. Fiddleford lost his mind in that house and it was his fault. The world was doomed in that house and it was his fault.
I'm particularly concerned because Ford spent a lot of time alone in the lab with the portal, just him and his thoughts. He was so close to fixing everything once and for all and what right did Stan have to rob him of his heroic moment? Manually dismantling the portal feels a whole lot less heroic than storming the nightmare realm with a massive gun and it does very little to distract him from how angry and tired he is; he's angry about being tired and he's tired of being angry.
I personally headcanon that Ford is absolutely covered in tattoos and scars under those long sleeve layers. He's been through hell and his body reflects that. But those marks are incredibly personal; a lot of them represent pain and failures and this is the author of "TRUST NO ONE" we're talking about. Vulnerability gets people killed in his experience and there's a reason he's still alive. He has to stay alive to fix his mistakes.