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Sherlock x Reader

Summary: When Euros entangles Y/N in her violent game of intellect, Sherlock must sacrifice something he never expected to care for.  As he looks back upon what he will lose, he sees only the fragments of his shattered heart…​

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Sherrinford, High Security Prison

“If you want her out of the game, you’ll have to burn her out of it.”

“Sister, please. I beg of you… don’t.”

Sherlock Holmes stood hunched before the monitor, his tone bleeding with desperation.

“I’m afraid this is non negotiable. It’s either her heart or her life. Choose one or I’ll have no choice but to take both. Of course, the bit about her heart won’t be in the metaphorical sense, you understand.”

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study hard, become rich, and buy multiple books everyday. that’s the goal.

Take On Me {Steven Grant x F!Reader}

Summary: You end up on an accidental date with Steven, but it ends up being the best date you could’ve asked for. It leads into more, but things aren’t as simple as they appear. With adoration strong for the man, you take a chance on him. (Minor Marc interaction).

Warnings: None

A/N: okay my heart actually hurt writing this. please let me know if there is anything you don’t agree with regarding the depiction of DID. I didn’t go too into detail as it’s not something I am fully knowledgable on, however, I have read posts from those who do have DID and what isn’t correct wording.

We're talking away

I don't know what

I'm to say I'll say it anyway

Today's another day to find you

Shying away

I'll be coming for your love, okay?

Wandering the streets in London so late at night probably wasn’t your best idea but staying in well lit and populated areas was though. It was 9:45pm, and you were craving something sweet, so decided to head towards your local shop to grab some snacks. It was starting to become a habit, a routine of some sort as you often found it difficult to get to sleep. Staying asleep was fine, but it was the process of getting to sleep that often troubled you, and so it often resulted in you going out for late walks through the bustling city. You had your headphones in as you listened intently to the song that was playing, almost fading out the world around you as you walked. However, once you finally snapped out of your little daze, you looked over to the other side of the street, preparing to cross, when you thought you could see a familiar face. Furrowing your brows and narrowing your eyes to try and focus in on the person, you realised it was in fact a familiar face.

Steven.

Your work colleague Steven.

You worked at the museum as admin, so had very little interaction with the man, but whenever you did he was always so sweet and somewhat nervous. He was currently sat outside a steak house, a box of chocolates on the table with a bunch of flowers on top of them. His own eyes seemed to be searching the area, as if he was looking for someone. A second later, a waiter approached him, as you watched Steven’s face fall, his head bowing as he fiddled with the napkins that were on the table. Not long later the waiter left, as Steven seemingly put his head in his hands. He looked distraught. There was no nice way to put it.

You bit your lip, wondering if you should go over, ask if he was ok. If he’d even realise it was you, that is, otherwise he may get weirded out at the fact someone had approached him and intruded on his obviously low moment. Fighting with yourself, it appeared your legs had made the decision for you, as before you knew it you were walking across the road towards the steak house.

You awkwardly shuffled over to his table, as he didn’t notice you approaching, his head still in his hands. You felt your heart ache at the man. He was obviously having a very bad day and it was clear he had supposed to be on a date, which you deducted hadn’t showed up.

“Steven?” You called to him lightly, causing him to pull his head of his hands, as he looked up at you in bewilderment. His eyes were glossy, as he stared at you. “It’s (Y/N).” You continued. “From work…” You further spoke as he instantly nodded.

“Y-yeah.” He cleared his throat, sitting back in his chair. “I know.” He nodded slightly once again. Of course he knew who you were. You were one of the nicest people who he worked with. And of course, very pretty. There was an awkward silence that settled between you both as you pursed your lips.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt-“ He cut you off, scoffing slightly.

“No, no, you’re fine.” He raised his brows. “I was just-“ He looked ahead at the empty chair in front of him. “Having an invisible date. She’s quite the catch.” He sighed as you gave him a small smile. If there was one thing about Steven, he would always try and find a way to make a joke.

“I can see that.” You hummed in agreement, going along with his antic. You leaned in, getting closer to him as you whispered: “God, she don’t half talk though? Has she been like this all evening?” You joked as he turned to face you once again, his eyes seemingly relaxing as he couldn’t help but let a small smile appear on his lips. You stood back up again. “Sorry love.” You turned to the empty chair. “But I think it’s time you left.” You paused. “I think Steven would like some actual company.” You then peered back over at him, your tone almost asking as he seemed to furrow his brows at your words before quickly nodding, gesturing to the seat opposite him.

“Y-yes.” He spluttered out. “God yes.” You laughed lightly at his words as you took the seat. “I’ve felt like a right knob sat here. People keep looking at me.” He sighed. “Probably feeling sorry for the idiot who got the days wrong.” Your brows raised at his words. So he was alone, because he muddled up the days…

“If it’s any consolation, I don’t think you’re an idiot.” You offered as he stared at you in the eye.

“No?” He asked, hope in his voice as you gave him a genuine smile.

“No.” You confirmed, seeing the tension start to ease in his body. “In fact, I still don’t know why Donna hasn’t made you a tour guide yet.” You told him. “Bet you know more than what the actual guides do.” He felt his heart swell at your words, feeling seen. You made him feel seen.

“Yeah, well… Can’t do that.” He leant forward slightly in his seat. “Who would sell the jelly sweets to the customers?” He inquired as you hummed in thought.

“That is true.” You smirked. “The giftshop would fall without you.” You said as he smiled bashfully. Suddenly, you were interrupted as a waiter approached, holding a plate.

“Your steak sir.” The waiter said, placing the plate down onto the table. “I didn’t realise you had company… Unfortunately the kitchen is closed now.” You smiled at the waiter.

“It’s fine. Thank you.” You told him as Steven looked down at the steak, saying a small thanks also to the waiter. As the waiter walked away, you looked back at Steven who was looking down at the meal in front of him.

“I don’t even eat meat.” He finally spoke, as you furrowed your brows. “I don’t even know why I planned a date at a steak house.” He shook his head, looking up at you, laughing lightly. “Don’t really remember doing it, to be honest.” He muttered.

“Well, I was on my way to the shop.” You told him. “I mean, I’m sure they have something more suitable in there for a non meat eater than a steak house.” You teased lightly.

“Yeah- But I can’t waste it can I?” He looked conflicted. “The poor cow died for this piece of steak.” He said almost sorrowfully and you held back the urge to go ‘aw’ at his face. He finally picked up the knife and fork as he began to cut into the meat. “We- We could share?” He offered, looking at you kindly, before stuttering over his next sentence. “I mean, if, er, if you wanted to that is?” You gave him a small smile and nodded.

“Alright then.” You picked up your own knife and fork that sat on your side of the table, as Steven moved the plate more towards you so you didn’t have to reach over awkwardly. “My first steak.” You told him as he looked at you surprised.

“You’ve never eaten steak before?” He inquired as you shook your head.

“Na, more of a fish and chips kinda girl.” You told him as he smirked.

“Yeah- me too.” He admitted. “Only without the fish. I know I’m vegan, but I also have a pet fish, and it just doesn’t seem right you know? Eating a fishy when you keep one as a pet.” You smiled at his words.

“What’s his name?” You asked, a piece of steak on your fork.

“Gus.” He told you.

“Gus the fish.” You nodded. “Good name.” You complimented as he also held up a piece of steak on his own fork.

“Ready to try your first ever steak?” He asked as you nodded. After a moment you both popped your pieces of steak into your mouths as you began to chew. You couldn’t tell is Steven was enjoying it or just persevering for the cows sake.

“Think I still prefer fish and chips.” You told him honestly as he hummed in agreement.

You hadn’t realised how quickly time had gone by, as you and Steven chatted and shared steak. In fact it was only when the waiter approached again to give the bill, that you looked around, seeing the place was empty. Steven got out his wallet as you went to reach for your purse from your pocket, but he quickly shook his head, holding out his hand.

“No, no, no.” He told you. “I’ll get it.” He gave you a soft look.

“You sure? I mean… I did eat half of your meal…” You furrowed your brows.

“Yeah, but you also sat with me and made my evening a lot better.” He told you sincerely. “Probably would’ve gone home and cried to Celine Dion if you hadn’t had appeared.” He half joked as you laughed lightly.

“At least it wouldn’t have been James Blunt.” You joked in return as it was his turn to let out a breathy laugh.

After paying the bill, you both stood on the sidewalk outside the restaurant with Steven holding the flowers and chocolates you’d observed earlier.

“This was nice.” You told him. “I’m sorry your date didn’t go to plan.” You told him sympathetically as he shrugged.

“I think it still went good.” He told you softly, before closing his eyes for a moment. “Not that this was a date.” He then realised how that sounded. “Not that I wouldn’t want to go on a date with you- I mean, you- you’re lovely and-“ You cut him off when you leant up towards him, surprising him as you gave him a kiss on the cheek. As you pulled back, he looked at you with wide eyes. “R-right.” He swallowed the lump in this throat. “What was that for?”

“Well, when someone likes someone they tend to show affection.” You explained rather simply, a playful tone in your voice. His mouth made a small ‘o’ shape as he registered your words. “I had a good time.” You told him. “The best accidental date I’ve ever had. Actually, it’s the only accidental date I’ve ever had.” He felt his face grow warm at your words.

“S-so, it was a date?” He asked, raising a brow.

“If you want it to be.” You told him softly. “It’s fine if you don’t-“

“N-no!” He almost exclaimed. “Of course I want it to be.” He nodded frantically as you laughed. “Why wouldn’t I? I’d be a mug if I didn’t want it to be.” He then looked down at the chocolates and flowers in his hands as he held them out to you. “It’s only right you have these… You know, considering it was a date.” You smiled as you took the items, thanking him. You both stood under a street lamp as the restaurants lights went out, only having the glow from above to light you both up.

“I should probably get home.” You said softly. “These chocolates aren’t going to eat themselves.” You waved them as he nodded.

“Oh, of course, yes.” He paused. “Do you want me to walk you or-“

“I only live down the road. I’ll be ok. Thank you though.” You told him, melting at his sweetness. “But I will see you tomorrow at work?” You raised a brow.

“Yes. I’ll be there. In my usual spot. At the giftshop.” He told you.

“I’ll see you tomorrow then.” You smiled up at him. “Goodnight Steven.” You took a step back.

“Y-yeah!” He nodded as you turned to walk home. “Night!” He called to you as you couldn’t help but have a smile on your face.

Who knew Steven from the giftshop would be the man after your own heart?

“Hiya-“

Steven walked back to his building, a small smile on his face.

“Date went horribly wrong, but then it went amazingly right!” He held the phone up to his ear. “Got the days muddled, missed my actual date by two days, but er- ended up bumping into a work colleague.” He paused. “And we had a wonderful time. I think she enjoyed it. I know I did. She’s lovely, you would love her.” He smiled as he reached his building door. “I’m seeing her tomorrow, at work I mean, so I’m sure we will sort something else out. But I better go now, let you get on!” He unlocked the door as he entered. “Love ya, laters gators.”

So needless to say

I'm odds and ends

But I'll be stumbling away

Slowly learning that life is okay

Say after me

It's no better to be safe than sorry

You and Steven had planned a more laid back date. As lovely as the restaurant date was, it wasn’t quite your style, or his really. You both were more homebodies than fine dining. So that’s how you ended up outside his flat door, holding a bottle of wine in your hand and your favourite dessert in the other. You and Steven hadn’t had an official second date per say, but would have lunch together at work when you were on the same shifts, or you would sneak off to the giftshop to visit Steven and just chat with him. You’d noticed he had been becoming more tired looking. In fact he almost always looked exhausted.

You knocked on the flats door, anxiously waiting for it to open. However, you heard a bit of commotion coming from behind the door. And that’s when it hit you… a smell… a smell of burning.

“Just a sec!” You heard Steven call as you could’ve sworn you heard a ‘bollocks’ also said. Eventually after a bit of noise and shuffling, the door opened, showing a slightly disheveled Steven, and a bit of smoke behind him seeping into the hallway.

“Hi.” He breathed out, stepping aside as he allowed you to enter.

“Hey…” You said softly as you entered, the smell of burnt food fully penetrating your nostrils. “Everything alright?” You asked, looking over to the kitchen to see it in disarray. Steven closed the door behind you as he rang his hands together anxiously.

“Er-“ He paused, traipsing past you as he walked back into the kitchen. “Well, I had planned a nice dinner, but it seems my cooking skills are a bit rusty.” He scratched his head, as you couldn’t help but smile at his sweet gesture.

“You did all this? For me?” You asked, your voice gentle as you stared at him, placing the items you’d brought with you down on the counter. He looked at you as if the answer was obvious. Which it was. Of course it was for you. If it was just him it would’ve most likely have been a microwave meal or a oven pizza. He wanted to impress you. ‘Woo you’ as people say.

“Y-yeah.” He nodded sheepishly. “But er, as I said… Bit rusty.” He then peered over at the burnt vegan dish he had cooked, black covering what did look delicious before going into the oven. You bit your lip, trying to stop yourself from laughing. Not in a mean way, just in a ‘of course it would happen to you’ way. You walked round to stand beside him as you looked down at the burnt food.

“How did you know I like my…” You trailed off, waiting for him to fill in the blank.

“Vegan lasagna.” He told you, his tone defeated.

“My vegan lasagna very well done?” You teased as he couldn’t help but let out a breathy laugh. “Aw, you didn’t have to do all this.” You told him gently, looking up at him as he furrowed his brows.

“I wanted to.” He frowned. “L-look, I even got out my nice napkins.” He pointed to the dinner table as you smiled.

“The nice napkins?” You fake sounded shocked. “I didn’t know the queen was attending!” You joked as he instantly began to ease around you. He loved how you calmed him down, make his worries slowly dissipate. You never judged him, you never said a ill word to him, you just accepted him. And that’s why he wanted to treat you. He wanted to make you feel special. Like you were the only woman in the world. Little did he know all he needed to do was look at you for you to see that.

“We could get a takeaway, I suppose?” He offered as he turned, grabbing some leaflets from a nearby draw. “Italian, Chinese, Indian-“ He began rambling off the options, as you watched him. You didn’t know what came over you. Well you did. Him. But you found yourself edging closer to him as you placed your hands on his own that we’re holding the leaflets. He instantly looked at you, almost jumping from the contact, but before he could say anything, you had planted your lips on his own.

It was a sweet, innocent kiss filled with adoration. He didn’t move at first, seemingly in shock at your action. But soon enough, his hands had become slack and dropped the leaflets to the ground as he turned his hands to clasp your own. Just as he began to reciprocate, you pulled back, allowing your eyes to flutter open as he stood in the same position for a moment with his own closed a second longer than yours. His cheeks were warm as he felt his heart racing. You looked at him with such soft eyes, it made his knees almost go weak. He felt like the luckiest man alive.

“M-my leaflets.” He stuttered out, mentally face palming at his words as you giggled at his words. “Sorry, that wasn’t very romantic, was it?” He wrinkled his nose.

“Don’t ever change, Steven Grant.” You replied, shaking your head at his antics.

Oh, the things that you say, yeah

Is it life or

Just to play my worries away?

You're all the things I've got to remember

You're shying away

I'll be coming for you anyway

You were worried. Maybe you shouldn’t be. He is a grown adult after all. But you were. Steven hadn’t shown up to work 2 days in a row, or returned any of your texts or calls. It was unlike him. He would often text you every morning, something silly or even a random fact he had found out. But you’d gotten none of that.

“Hey, Donna-“ You approached your boss as she turned to you, chewing gum as always. “Have you heard from Steven?” You asked as she put her hand on her hip.

“No, I ain’t.” She almost hissed out. “He’s left me with no cover for the giftshop, so one of our guides has had to step in.” She complained as you felt deflated that he hadn’t been in contact even to call in sick. “Anyways, he’s your boyfriend ain’t he? Thought you’d know where he is.”

“Oh, we’re not-“ You shook your head. “I mean, we are but we’re not official… yet.” You spluttered out as she rolled her eyes.

“Men.” She commented. “He’s lucky he’s got this far with ya. And he still ain’t made it official.” She shook her head as she walked away, leaving you with your worry.

Once you got off your shift, you decided you would go to Steven’s flat. You had to check. For your own sanity, but more importantly to make sure he was ok. As you got to his flat door, you noticed it was open a crack as you furrowed your brows. You gently pushed the door, letting it swing open as you peered into the dimly lit room.

“Steven?” You called softly, not hearing any sound as you stepped inside. “It’s (Y/N)… I just wanted to check in…” You continued, as your eyes scanned the flat, not seeing anyone. You walked further in, your eyes noticing something that wasn’t there the last time you had been in his home. Around his bed was sand, and on the bed was what appeared to be a single restraint, with tape on the bedside table. You looked at it, confused. What on Earth was this all for?

You heard a noise behind you, as you jumped, spinning round to see the man you had been so worried about, stood behind you a few feet away.

“Steven!” You let out a relieved breath. “Thank god you’re alright, I was worried.” You told him softly. “Are you ok? What’s happened?” You asked, but the man in front of you didn’t react in the usual manner you had become accustomed to. In fact, his brows sat lower on his face, making his eyes seem more hard and cold in appearance. “Steven?” You tried again as he seemed tense, his jaw tight.

“I’m not Steven.”

You froze at his voice. No longer was it unsure, sweet or even British for that matter. It was gruff, detached and American in accent. You blinked rapidly, immediately feeling like you were in a room with a stranger.

“What do you mean? You aren’t Steven?” You asked, voice wavering slightly.

“My name’s Marc.” He said as he took a step towards you, as you subconsciously took a small step backwards, which he noticed, causing him to hold his hands up slowly, trying to show you he meant no harm. “I’m sorry. Sorry.” He tilted his head slightly. “I don’t want to scare you. He doesn’t want me to scare you.”

“He?” You raised a brow. “Who?” As you slowly began to understand who he meant. “S-Steven? You mean Steven?” He nodded once, as his gaze slowly turned to look at a mirror that hung on a nearby wall. You couldn’t see what he saw, but in the reflection was Steven looking back at him, looking broken, and worried. Worried about what Marc might do. What he might say.

Let me back. Please. Let me talk to her.

“I’m sorry.” You breathed out. “But I don’t understand.” You felt tears welling up in your eyes. “I-I don’t know what’s happening.”

Look at her. Just let me talk to her.

You saw Marc close his eyes, looking down at the ground as you saw his hand tighten into a fist. It was like he was fighting with himself. Or with someone else.

I promise, you can have control again after, just please- She’s all I’ve got.

Marc sighed, before his head rolled back, his eyes closing as you watched closely. Suddenly the tense posture of the man before you loosened, as he looked back forwards at you.

Steven.

His eyes held that familiar warmth you knew, whilst his features relaxed, and his shoulders were slumped a little so he wasn’t so big looking. He looked at you with fear in his eyes. Fear you were going to leave. Fear you would never want to see him again. Fear he’d ruined it with you.

“(Y/N)…” He breathed out, his British accent returned. You stood in confusion, and a little bit of fear, but mostly concern for the man you had strong feelings for. “I-I can explain- Please.” He almost begged, as he stepped towards you, but more uncertain than previously. You bit your lip, nodding silently.

You ended up sitting side by side on his bed. He’d told you everything. You could feel his growing anxiety the more he explained. You could see the glassy look in his eyes as he held back the tears that threatened to fall. Your heart ached for him. Every word he said he believed. Which made you believe him. He even showed you the bag, with the passport, the passport that clearly stated ‘Marc Spector’. You felt sick. Not because of the situation, but because of the turmoil Steven was clearly dealing with.

“I don’t want to be him.” He sniffled. “I don’t want that life. I-I just want to be me.” He told you softly, not looking at you in fear of a look of rejection from you. But that was far from the look you were giving him. “Why can’t I just be me?” He whispered out as you finally broke, allowing your arms to wrap around the man’s body, much to his utter surprise. You placed your hand on the back of his head as you soothingly stroked it. You both sat in silence for a few minutes, as you stayed in that position.

“I believe you.” You breathed out and you swore you felt him grip you a little tighter. “I think you need to speak to someone.” You said softly, not wanting to push him or cross a line. “People who can help. We can get through this.” He quickly pulled away, looking at you in the eye as he felt his heart stop.

“We?” He said in a small voice.

“Yes, we.” You confirmed for him, taking his hand in your own. “Steven, I’m not going anywhere. We’ve all got our demons.” You gave him a soft reassuring smile. “And whatever it is, whatever is going on, we can get through it. I’m always here. Always.”

He looked at you like you were his whole world. Like he couldn’t believe you were real. Were you? He couldn’t trust his own mind now a days. He found himself being drawn closer to you, as he slowly began to close the gap between you both, placing a gentle, longing kiss on your lips as you instantly responded. After a few seconds, he pulled away, looking at you deeply.

Steven. We need to go.

You watched as he closed his eyes, shaking his head.

Steven.

“I know!” Steven suddenly exclaimed as he waved his hand in frustration. “I know.” He said softer as you understood he wasn’t talking to you. “I’m sorry.” He breathed out. “I-I’ve got to go.” You nodded sadly. “But i‘ll be back. I promise you, I will be back and I-I will make up for all of this. And once this is all sorted, it can just be you and me.”

“I’d like that.” You tearily smiled at him. “But I’m here. For both of you.” You reached a hand out to caress his face, as he furrowed his brows at your words. “So, Marc… if you’re listening, if you need me. You let me know. Please, just… Call me. Tell me you’re ok.”

Okay.

A simple reply, but Steven knew that was all Marc could give. Steven nodded to you, as he slowly removed your hand from his face, as much as he didn’t want to. He had to.

“I should probably go.” You sniffled, wiping your cheeks, not even realising tears had fallen. “Steven, be careful.” You said as you stood, him following suit. “And when you get back, I want to try that vegan lasagna. Preferably not burnt.” You joked as he let out a breathy laugh.

“Sounds like a plan.” He smiled as you began to walk away, standing in the doorway to his flat as he stared at you longingly.

“I’ll see you soon.” You said softly, your heart aching at your own words. He nodded as he gave you a small wave as you left, breathing out:

“Laters, gators…”

Take on me

Take me on

I'll be gone

In a day or two

I’m so proud of myself for that :D

sometimes do you ever just want to

something about marc going to every length to protect steven from the knowledge of his role as moon knight, including resetting all of the sleepwalking alarms, buying a new goldfish, and fronting long enough to convince him the incident in the alps was a dream, all presumably to offer them a chance at a normal life. then, when the knowledge can no longer be avoided, patiently calming steven down enough to take care of the monster in the museum… it just made me very emotional idk about y’all

Remember his name!! 😭😆🦋🐝

new male standard unlocked: quirky museum gift shop man with a love for Egyptology who might have a little bit of an identity problem

still cant believe taylor used to throw chairs on tour. lets bring that back

#Pick now 

Summon the suit!

BONUS

Hii! I'm new to Tumblr and you're one of my first follows and I LOVE YOUR WRITINGS!!!💖

Also I'd like to ask 15, 21 and 61 from random asks😁

hey girl, welcome to the hellsite (affectionate) we're happy to have you here ;)

15. do you have any piercings/would you want to?

Right now I have my ears pierced. I really want to get my septum pierced but my school has a pretty strict and ridiculous rule about no facial piercings so I gotta wait a few more months

21. what is/was your favourite subject in school?

Definitely English :) Politics comes in as a close second because my classes vibe is ✨ immaculate ✨

61. where is a place that you’d love to visit?

I'd love to visit London, Edinburgh or Greece, (really anywhere with a dark academic vibe)

I am looking absolutely disrespectfully. I don't even have enough brain cells to make a generic witty comment. No thoughts. Void. Null.

girls be like *he is my comfort character* and then bam its the most emotionally traumatised ficitonal man you’ve ever seen

Things I've been daydreaming about lately that scream "hopeless romantic"

bookstore dates

forehead kisses

love letters and beautiful poems

holding hands while looking at the moon

cuddling in the morning

cuddling at midnight

cuddling at all tbh

sitting in someone's lap while reading

soft kisses while it storms outside

forehead kisses

slow dancing in the kitchen while cookies are baking in the oven

waking up to roses and a latte

reading passages from our favorite books out loud to each other

relaxing together after studying

more cuddling and more forehead kisses

*Thorin and Bilbo skipping stones on lake*

Bilbo: It’s such a beautiful evening.

Thorin, whispering: Take that you fucking lake

okay but imagine someone handing you a copy of a romance book fully annotated with their thoughts/feelings/reactions, and when you get to the scene with the love confession, you find a handwritten letter tucked within the pages & you see that it's their love confession to you. fuck.

Happy international women’s day!

(◡‿◡✿)

(ʘ‿ʘ✿) “what you say ‘bout me”

(ʘ‿ʘ)ノ✿ “hold my flower”

Its even a palindrome when you write it like 22022022

Tomorrow is the legendary twosday - 220222

Touch Starved

Pairing: Sherlock x Reader

Summary: It’s taken you a while to realise. But Sherlock Holmes is a very touch starved man.

Word Count: 800

Warnings: none, just fluff and soft Sherlock

a/n: It’s been a while since I’ve written for Sherlock and I think it’s about time I go back to my roots :)

You hadn’t noticed it before now.

You hadn’t noticed when his fingers would drag across your palm when you released his hand, almost as if he were hesitant to let you go. You hadn’t noticed when his hold on you tightened and your shirt bunched in his fists each time he had his arms around you. You hadn’t noticed when his eyes softened and slid shut when your hand fondly made its way through his hair.

But now, as you lay together in the quaint living room of 221B it was clear as day. You suddenly couldn’t believe you hadn’t noticed it before. Sherlock Holmes was touch starved.

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Hold me closer

Author: @sabine-leo

Wordcount: 1529

Hurt/Comfort/Fluff

Tom x Reader

Summary: In a world where distancing is required, a safe hug from a friend can go a long way to keep one sane.

Note: I felt as if I should send out a virtual hug to everyone in need. Hope you are safe and well! This may turn into an ongoing friends to lovers story. Who knows what my twisted mind will come up with.

A blended hue of orange, red and violet tinted the darkening sky while leaves in similar shades danced to a silent melody before your window. It was -after all- still your favourite time of year. Inside your cosy home a fire was crackling and the scent of fresh brewed tea lingered in the air. You were about to put another log onto the fire when you heard an elusively familiar knock on your front door. Frowning, you looked to the door and walked over covering your face with a mask that lay ready on a shelf in the hallway. When you opened the door, a tall shadow blocked the view onto the side road. A dark ballcap and mask hid a face you hadn´t seen in person for a while now. Even though his face was mostly hidden, the smile that lit up his features shone through his hauntingly blue eyes but was somehow reluctant.

“Tom…” You smiled under your mask and opened the door fully.

“Oh my, it is so good to see you…” He started and you felt that he had to restrain himself from reaching out to pull you into one of his famous hugs.

He looked into your eyes and tilted his head a bit.

“…I needed to see a friendly and familiar face.”

Laughing softly, you answered. “You´d see more of that face when you would have video called me.”

“Not the same.” Was his quiet answer. Tom teetered on his feet for a moment before directly looking at you again. “Do you…” He started and stopped himself again. A sigh escaped him before he could start again. “Do you think I could come in?” Before you were able to answer he continued. “I haven´t had any close human contact in the last 3 weeks. You know I am fully vaccinated and I tested myself before walking over here.”

“Come in Tom, I just made tea and started a fire.”

His eyes shone a little brighter. He waited for you to clear the doorway before walking in himself and closing the door behind himself. “Tea sounds brilliant.” He began to take of his jacket, shoes and ballcap. Tom ruffled his longer curls and looked at you. His movement was a little bit off if you´d be honest to yourself. His voice quieter than usual. “You do look even better in person than on my bloody phone screen.” His mask went into his jacket before using the disinfectant you had positioned on the shelf next to the coatrack.

Laughing quietly, you walked further into your living room, flopping down on your sofa. “Probably because there is more to me than just a face. Maybe you forgot over time.” Tom grinned and got himself a cup out of your kitchen cabinet before joining you in your living room. Since you had been friends for over 8 years now, he knew his way around in your home, as you did in his.

Tom sat down on your comfy wingchair opposite of you and just looked at you for a moment. Silence had never been uncomfortable between the both of you. You did enjoy lengthy and good conversations but comfortable silence was a gift in itself. The possibility of just being together, enjoying each other’s company without words…it was invaluable.

But today it seemed that Tom was not comfortable with just silence. “This damn pandemic…” He started and ruffled his hair. “…do you think it´ll be over one day? I mean, almost two years in and we are still keeping distance from one another.”

You poured tea into both of your cups and took in a deep breath. “I really don´t know but I sure hope so.” Looking up into Toms eyes with a comforting smile made him sigh.

“Without wanting to sound shallow…and I know I am very privileged…but I do miss…” He stopped himself.

“What?” You asked.

Tom snorted and sounded exasperated at the same time.

“Doesn´t matter how I phrase it. It will be the most dispensable problem of all.” Toms’ words made you look at him with a pang of worry in your gut. “It is not dispensable when it hurts you and makes you feel bad.” Tom rubbed his legs before he blurted out “I miss human contact. Hugs. God knows I am a big hugger. I hate keeping distance. I hate not being able to reach out or always having to think about my movement and restrain my natural behaviour. And I hate only seeing my friends, YOU, over a damn screen.”

Your heart broke for your friend, who clearly showed signs of physical and mental malaise now.

“Tom…” you started before he interrupted you.

“You know what, forget it. I should go. I should´ve just called and pulled myself together.” He was about to stand up.

“Sit back down and drink your tea!” You said a bit on the stern side.

Tom looked at you and flopped back down.

“Firstly!” You started. “It is not shallow and it also isn´t dispensable. You are a physical human being. You have a good selected circle of close friends with whom you can be yourself and that got ripped away in what felt like a split second.”

Tom closed his eyes at your words and sighed but nodded.

“Secondly…” You proceeded when you saw that he was indeed listening and thinking about your words. “…there isn´t only physical health.” You paused for a moment. “Don´t be ashamed to talk about what you need to get through all of this unscathed. Yes, you are privileged and you do give back a lot through various aid organisations and just by being who you are…but it all starts with you being healthy…body and soul. So, tell me…what do you need?”

Tom gulped and needed to take in a deep breath. When he stood from his seat a second later you froze. Would he leave like he wanted to minutes ago?

His gaze met yours and he slowly held out his hand while his eyes pleaded you to close the distance. He had come that far. Had told you what ached him. But he needed you to willingly take the step towards him.

Slowly you stood and placed your hand in his. The shudder that went through him, the anticipation of physical human contact echoed through you too. Living on your own, without close family nearby could take a toll out of you in a worldwide pandemic. And there was no shame in admitting it.

Tom pulled you close. His strong arms came around you and held you against him while his head came to rest on top of yours. He actually trembled for a moment before he very slowly relaxed into the hug. Softly stroking his still rigid back with one hand and listening to his fast-beating heart with your ear against his solid chest made a tear escape your eyes. How much effort had it cost him to come to your door and ask for help? How often had he tried and talked himself out of it?

“Hold me closer…” The whispered ask nearly broke you into pieces. You wrapped yourself fully into his hug and pressed in.

You actually lost track of time. How long you just stood there and held each other was beyond you. But Toms heart had calmed down, his body not tense anymore. When you leaned backwards and tilted your head upwards you saw him smile down on you with wet streaks down his cheeks.

“Thank you…” he croaked and closed his eyes when you softly brushed another tear away that fell out of his blue eyes.

“Not for that! Never for such a thing as this! I needed this too.” You admitted and hugged him once more.

“You are an angel (Y/N)…” Tom started and kissed the top of your head in a heartfelt thank you.

Slowly you unwrapped yourself out of his arms and smiled. “How about I make us some new tea and you get the fire going again. We are having a slumber party tonight.”

Tom couldn´t stop himself from grinning even though his eyes still glistered. “Are we now?!”

You nodded and went into the kitchen. “Yes indeed! Since we just opened up our own hug-a-friend bubble we might as well stay in it a while longer. Tend to the fire and choose your poison: Movie, music, conversation.”

Tom smiled and felt a heavy load falling from his chest. “Yes, my lady!” He went outside to grab some more logs from your stack of dry wood. For the first time in a long while, he felt like himself again.

When you came back with a new pot of tea you saw Tom sitting on your sofa. The fire was well stoked and music was playing. His eyes followed your movement when you poured the tea. He smiled when you sat down next to him and spoke. “Music it is…”

“For now…” He smirked and lifted his arm. His voice was like dark chocolate when he added “Come closer, darling.” When you just grinned at him for a second, he grinned back lopsided and pulled you in.

~TBC~

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