Eccentricechoes - Sunshine

I want to be productive, I want to be creative

but no matter how hard I'm working, I just kinda hate this

hate being stuck in my head. Hate getting better, and then wishing I was dead

I hate feeling stuck in a cycle

And so, I just keep working. But, my thoughts are still disturbing

Have I always been like this? am I breaking through denial?

These would be so cutesy in my room

I had to do math in one of my theatre classes today and got so stressed that I started crying in front of everyone

My kitten is crazy. The little menace just attacked me because I didn't give him a cheez it

“I have never known who or what I am supposed to be. The only thing I know for sure, is that I am supposed to be more than I have been.”

— William Chapman

I wish I was a manic pixie dream they, living in a whimsy goth castle

Despite using Tumblr on my Chromebook, I still scroll on it like I would if it was on a phone. My finger hurts, and yet I continue

At the start of class earlier, my professor gave a whole ass monologue about the assignment I didn't do and how we need to do our work. I was so sure this was about me, because of course everything is about me, but, apparently in a class of 20+ students, only one did that darn analysis

Update on that homework

I tried to focus for a few minutes, but then my cat started ripping up the fabric bins I use as a chest of drawers and took a massive shit. I guess she doesn't want me to do that analysis either