Eccentricechoes - Sunshine

1910s Moon and Star Pillows

Credit: linnhe on Pinterest

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I was assigned my scene and scene partners for class and it's from a play I never heard of with a classmate I never heard of. I'm so confused, who is this person and why wasn't the play mentioned in the syllabus?

I'll always be a wanderer

Exploring where I really shouldn't go

Both mental and physical places

I find that I just have to know

What is really out there

How things work, and why

Even when I don't actually want answers

Even when it makes me cry

Sometimes, I worry that my mental health will never get better, not because I'm incapable of improving, but because being not okay has become a part of my identity. I've spent so much of my life being anxious and depressed that I'm scared of learning who I am outside of that; Even though I know my life would be far more fulfilling as I continue to get better.

Screaming, crying, projectile vomiting, crying again

Do you ever just want to curl up in a little ball and do nothing?

Despite using Tumblr on my Chromebook, I still scroll on it like I would if it was on a phone. My finger hurts, and yet I continue

These would be so cutesy in my room

I wish I could love you with every piece of me.

I wish I could be the person you'd like me to be.

I wish I could discard everything I hate about myself, create something new.

I wish I could be sweet, and kind, and a little more like you.