When U Think Ur Doing 'well' So You Try To Eat Normally Again But Instead Get On A Choo-choo Train To

I should've worshipped her sooner

tempted to steal my Dad's laxatives

I got a new book to reeeaaad

I don't read a lot (I used to inhale books as a kid and I have my fanfiction phases, but I just don't have tiiiimeee and when school is stressful the last thing I want to do is read even more 🥲)

But I'm supper excited for this one

big plans this easter (getting drunk‼️)

I feel like I know every single weightloss hack to ever exist but still fail to lose weight

I'm going to the store after school today yay :D

I think I'm just going to buy some protein bars and sf energy drinks and gum... I may buy some corn/rice cakes as well and look for new safe foods in general, if I have time... Man, I haven't been shopping like this in a while and I'm more excited than grocery shopping probblably justifies to be lol

Any suggestions on what else I could look for?

Binging on safe foods is literally the worst :(

Just let me enjoy my protein bars please

my week has been going well but then today I ate some biscuits.... which were like 500 cals.

I feel so fucking guilty now and I'm going to have to have dinner with my family later, and tomorrow is my friend's birthday and she loves food and it's Saturday so I'll have to eat two meals instead of one, and none of that would be so bad had I not fucksed up today

The next few days are going to be incredibly busy for me, but that's awesome because I'll literally won't have time to eat :D

I'm not going to try and fast though, because I will need the energy

It started today with me having to stay at school until 6pm (🥲) because of choir practice, tomorrow I'll have to leave almost right after school to play at a concert (I know I'll barely have time to change and maybe practice the pieces one last time)

And on Saturday I'll have singing stuff from 8am to 4pm

Both crying and laughing right now because I know I'll be DRAINED when all this is over, but I won't be around my parents to watch me eat, I won't be at home with all the binge food and I'll probably be to busy to even think about eating anything, hopefully

As I mentioned though, I will be having dinner, because it's the only time I'll be around my parents and I will really need that energy