And I Just Can’t. Full Stop. It’s Killing Me.

Asajj Ventress has been a slave, a Jedi, a Sith, a Nightsister, a bounty hunter, a fugitive, and an airport security guard too apparently

embarrassing experience of not being an avid snapchat user, texting someone two consecutive messages and instantly having them slapped on your best friend’s list

for months i have been haunted.

i thought of a pun. at the moment it seemed like the most lung wheezing, knee slapping, eye watering, rib cramping pun ever. i made a mental note: “tell this to [friend] once class is over. photoshop it”.

and proceeded to forget.

my exam for chemistry is in a day. i’m brushing my teeth. suddenly it comes back to me.

soaps. micelles. michael cera.

michaelles. miceralles. michaelceralles.

the name still needs worked on.

OUCH

something something about Caleb Dume surviving the genocide of his people and divorcing himself from his culture and remaking himself entirely in order to survive

and something something about orphaned Ezra Bridger who loves Lothal but doesn’t quite belong being adopted into a self-made-cobbled-together family of outcasts from multiple cultures

and something something about Kanan choosing to embrace his culture and religion again despite his fear and the risk it brings to him and his family

and something something about Ezra embracing that culture as whole-heartedly as he can when so much of it has been lost

and something something about both of being denied the ability to practice certain aspects of their religion because otherwise they might be killed for it

and something something about Kanan remembering how Master Billaba carefully sheared his hair and oh so reverently plaited his Padawan braid and held it gently between her fingertips and told him she would do right by him and told him not to be afraid and told him she would be there for him until her dying breath and beyond and told him that he was going to be a great Jedi Knight one day and told him “you are our future youngling and I will do everything in my power to protect that future”

and something something about Kanan looking at Ezra’s wild hair with something hollow and aching tucked between his ribs because he longs to show Ezra the devotion his Master showed him and her Master showed before her and his Master before him but it’s not safe to gently plait that Padawan braid behind Ezra’s ear because such a sign of devotion will mean death and Kanan can only hope that Ezra understands how much Kanan loves him and how much Kanan is proud of him and how much hope and life he sees in his Padawan because while that Padawan braid may be the physical link between future and past tying together generations of Masters and Padawans who have lived and loved and passed on because “we are what they grow beyond”—

Kanan knows that every moment has led to this and Ezra is the future his Master and her Master before her never expected but they would be so proud to see Ezra now and Kanan can only hope Ezra knows how proud Kanan is of him too and know when he looks at Ezra he knows everything is going to be okay because “we are what they grow beyond” and despite everything that’s been lost to them Ezra is carrying the heart and soul of thousands of years of legacy and Kanan looks at Ezra knowing he can’t give him that Padawan braid but he’ll be damned if he can’t teach him the things that matter and he’ll be damned if he doesn’t do everything to protect the future he sees in Ezra’s eyes

let me be your perfume

need more “guish” words. anguish. extinguish. languish. great for when a character is bleeding out on the floor

me after every minor inconvenience

Happy Ides of March for those who celebrate <3