Erlanddeity

my self esteem so low i dont even think im good enough for my favorite fictional characters

can i just say how much it hurts to read this?? this is a kid, barely 18 years, and caught up in an unfinished vendetta of the adults around him. you can literally feel how confused he gets as the chapters go on and when it gets to the climax and you read this... goodness, it gets real. like you understand how fucked up this all actually is.

i cannot stress this enough that he is a kid. a kid and he watched as the uncle he loved and respected and admired and held upto a standard, the only adult who seemed to truly understood jin ling, who saw how lonely he was and got him a puppy because he couldn't make friends, confess that he was the one behind so much of the disasters and deaths that occurred around him. not only that, but jin ling realizing that the smile his uncle puts on his face is fake. that he can lie so boldly and without a second thought. that maybe he lied about everything; maybe this person isn't who he says he is. all of this in just a matter of seconds.

and then we get to the foundation of his character. in the beginning, jin lings character was all about revenge. for himself, for the death of his parents. all he carried inside of him was hate. it also probably didn't help that jiang cheng was grieving for his sister and his parents at the same time while punishing any could-be wei wuxian. seeing these things, how could jin ling not hate the people who caused him to lose so much?

and now, there is all these conflicting feelings about who the true murderer is. he knows wei wuxian is the yiling patriarch and involved in the death of his parents but he's spent far too much time with him to hate him now and knows that it wasn't really his intentions in the first place. the guy is actually very likeable and has helped jin ling in all the times that they have met. wen ning who was the cause was merely a corpse out of control at the time. he also feels a lot of guilt towards it. as much as those things didn't excuse the murder of his parents, it wasnt reason enough for revenge either.

and jin guang yao, who he thought was kind and genuine. turning out to be a fake. all the likeness he has for his uncle in the past, should he turn it into hatred now? but he really can't. or rather, the past 16 years of positive memories are winning over the hatred of a minute.

so who should he hate now?

because he didn't deserve anything that happened to him. his parents didnt deserve it too. so who should he hate now? who should he exact his revenge upon? who should he blame?

he cries. because these are all heavy emotions and complex feelings for a kid. all the anger inside of him, the pain of being deceived, pouring out of him the only way it can. it is weak and jin ling probably shouldn't cry in front of so many people but he can't help it anymore. he doesn't want to let go of the hate he's nurtured for so long yet he doesn't have the energy anymore, nor does he have anyone to put the blame on.

and then there are those three words that just really tugs at my heart - "he felt wronged".

p.s: the scene where he is unable to look and listen as his uncle takes his last breath. chills.

jin ling is my fav character from mdzs and i just wanted to make a post to appreciate him. he is honestly so underappreciated. the way his character develops from just a really angry child to a child wounded by the actions of others is just *chefs kiss* he is so traumatized i wanna wrap him up in a blanket and hug him for eternity 🥺🥺😭😭😭😭

look how politely this mf sits

this was so relatable the first time i read the mangas

A Hundred Promises In One Kiss - erlandwrites - 東京卍リベンジャーズ | Tokyo Revengers (Manga) [Archive of Our Own]

"Takashi?"

"Yes?"

"You've read the latest chapter of my book, right?"

"Yes."

"Do you, by any chance, remember anything from it?" You sniffle.

Mitsuya halts the balance wheel with a jerk of his hand, his foot freezing under the table at the same time. Did he hear that right? Did your voice quaver slightly and crack in the middle of that sentence? And did you just sniffle?

me: so covid-19...

c-19: hmm...

me: why are you killing millions of people?

c-19: ...

how am i supposed to interview an airborne disease that is invisble to the naked eye and cant talk whatsoever!!!?

best album of the year you say? advice by taemin

me watching a volleyball match on t.v: huh, so they do fall on their bums...

remember when yall tried to cancel kenma

yeah still angry about that

idk if i should be worried about this but i can't seem to relax properly as in there is a dull pain in my chest, right above my heart - might even be my heart tbh but it's not like a searing pain. it's like if someone is gently pushing my chest.

my heart also feels like it's beating very fast but when I press my hand against my chest it feels normal. at least that's what I'm getting

ive never had anything like this

this has been going on for a while ever since I started to eat lunch. I came back from exams which is offline here. I felt nothing on the way. now I've washed the dishes (it felt weird even tho I used to do it all the time) and am on my bed now, going to fall asleep and hopefully wake up more refreshed. I admit school has been stressful cuz of the practical exams I had and now I have exams till second week of march.

idk if it's cuz of the stress I've accumulated but I just wanted to write it down. for evidence ig