When You Want To Learn Ballet, But You Refuse To Be Taught Unless It’s By A Old Grumpy Lady That Used

Heyyyyy! My name is Esme, and I am going to officially start posting on this account for shifting, the void, manifesting, and sometimes just to rant about random shit.

This account is for fun and to get help for myself in regards to shifting, manifesting, and the void. I wanted to post my progress somewhere so why not here 🤷🏾‍♀️

This is definitely NOT going to be an organized account because idk wtf im doing…

Anyway im looking for moots so if u like shifting and shit hmu!

i don’t think anyone understands how hard klance hits for me, and the fact that i have no one to talk about them with irl makes me cry everyday.

tumblr recs🍓

i figured i would make a tumblr recs list since it will be a while till i make another ao3 one hehe

thanks for checking out my list :), i say this everytime but this is important: make sure to support the authors!

also sorry i haven’t made a recs list in a while! i’ve been burnt out from school lately and just didn’t think to make one 🥲

various x reader, unrequited love with the haikyuu boys, made me sad but part 2 fixes it all trust me, 🍓

tanaka x reader, comfort short, so sickingly sweet it hurts, this lil fic is perf for when ur sad and need some love, 🍓

various x reader, how they cope with ur death, this one’s for when you want some angst :/, 🍓

osamu x reader, exes to lovers, this one sorta reminds me of those hallmark movies where the girl leaves her small middle of no where hometown for the big city for work, and leaves behind her boyfriend who stays behind to have a small shop in their hometown, i literally adored this one pls read it, 🍓

sakusa x reader, strangers to friends to lovers, 1930s/1940s au, MILITARY MAN SAKUSA! this one was just… wow, never really have seen an au like this, not disappointed in the slightest, read it now, 🍓

kageyama x reader, childhood friends ish to lovers, love this one, makes you feel all mushy for kageyama :ppp, 🍓

iwaizumi x reader, fake dating trope, literally love this one, i’m such a simp for iwa, if you love fake dating + iwaizumi this is for you, 🍓

kita x reader, fic masterlist, arranged marriage au!, okay so i’m not a big fan of arranged marriage fics, but this… this was incredible. it was so well written and the build up between y/n and kita was so natural and not forced, it’s only three chapters but the chapters are very long! pls check out it was amazing, 🍓

bokuto x reader, oneshot from the story ‘The Ghosts we see’ which i have on one of my recs lists here 😚, i actually really enjoyed this one since i adore the fic it’s based on, for-warning, pretty smutty😉, 🍓

iwaizumi x reader, this is by augustine!! i love all of her works, they’re like a pick me up, iwaizumi literally gives you sm butterfly’s while reading, in short, 3 of the valentines days you’ve spent with iwaizumi :), 🍓

sakusa x reader, ENEMIES TO LOVERS ROYAL AU!!! guys. i passed out from pure joy when i discovered this story. three of my favorite things in one fic: haikyuu, enemies to lovers, and royal aus. such a pleasure to read. trust me on this one and read it rn!!! 🍓

ushijima x reader, ushijima comfort ushijima comfort ushijima comfort ushijima comfort!! if you know me you know i love this man. so when i see beautiful comfort fics about my fav?? i lose it. 10/10 made me happy when i was sad. 🍓

akaashi x reader, angst. so much angst. it’s actually not really angsty with akaashi but with his current girlfriend (lil spoiler: she’s a fucking cunt). but the ending is so rewarding after reading it. it’s also by demxnsxcous which if you haven’t been to her page then go immediately after reading. have never read one bad work of theirs. 🍓

ushijima x reader, r-royal au, royal au!!!! king ushijima 🥴, i love this man. and this man as your protective king husband is more than i could ever ask for. this story gives me butterfly’s when he’s being protective hehe, 🍓

suna x reader, KNIGHT SUNA AND PRINCESS READER!!!! i think you guys can tell of my everlasting love for royal aus. this link will take you to the masterlist for this little miniseries. i really love this one. the relationship with reader and suna makes you so happy and sad. happy because seeing how happy they are and how much they love each other makes your day. but sad because they can never really be together becuase of social and class standards. 🍓

iwaizumi x reader, i LOVE this one. it’s about a rich girl going off on her own and leaving her old life behind. and guess which tough bad boy she meets? mhm. it’s not done yet but i’m so excited for the next chapter, i’m on the taglist and everything ;)) 🍓

osamu x reader, fake dating, friends to lovers <333 this one only has 2 chapters out so far but i just know this one’s gonna be good. i cant wait for more and more chapters to come out and for this story to develop. i’m already in love with half the characters. adore this so far. 🍓

hinata x reader. i actually barley if ever read hinata fics. this one’s timeskip and i was pleasantly surprised. it’s such a satisfying read. i very much enjoyed it. the ending is also very sweet;) 🍓

kuroo x reader, angel reader and demon kuroo, half modern/half magic au. read this one a little while back, loved it. lot of smut hehe. definitely a guilty pleasure. the ending made me smile since it perfectly ended the game of cat and mouse kuroo and the reader were playing. 🍓

semi x reader, rockstar semi eita… much i say more? exes to lovers. oh my god. i remember when i read this for the first time, i could not stop reading it. i re read this over and over again. i don’t really wanna give too much away, but i’ll finish off with this: fuck semi eita ;)) 🍓

12:45am — gojo satoru ;

“cute earrings, where’d you get them?” shoko asks.

“hm?” still clinging to sleep, you absentmindedly reach up to caress the metal dangling from your ear. the sharp indents of its gem pricks you back into a memory. “oh, these. i got them from a friend last week.”

“friend? or do you mean boyfriend?”

shoko’s words are throwaway, her wandering eyes and yawn a clear indication yet your face warms despite yourself. shaking your head furiously, you exclaim, “a friend! just a friend."

shoko hums, shifting her cigarette to the other end of her mouth. her gaze flickers somewhere behind you and you almost look too, when her words pull you back. “come to think of it, i don’t think you’ve ever told me what your type was.”

“my type?” your mind blanks. “i’ve probably never told you because i’ve never thought about it myself. i mean, being a jujutsu sorcerer and all, romance is kind of off the table.”

shoko keeps looking at you, pressing you without words. you grimace and sigh.

"i mean, i guess, maybe someone good looking? someone who’s not boring? and now that we're talking about it, someone who is fit and athletic too. they'd have to be smart, but not book-smart, like, street-smart." the more you think of it, the more words seem to spill from your mouth. "and someone who has a good sense of humour, someone who will make me laugh.”

“someone good looking, interesting, sporty, smart and funny? that’s too greedy.”

you giggle. “you’re right, there’s no way there’s anyone that perfect. i guess i’ll have to be single forever.”

“you'll always have me.” shoko says, grinning.

you push her shoulder but don’t deny it.

yaga walks into the classroom, cutting your conversation short. you spin around in your seat to face the front, eyes accidentally meeting gojo’s. he turns around too, and you reason that he was probably looking out the window behind you. you see getou snicker and whisper something in his ear, but gojo seemed to be having none of it, blatantly ignoring him.

seeing his face makes you think. didn’t gojo kind of match your type? someone attractive, interesting, athletic and maybe not academic smart, but he definitely carried an air of confidence when it came to fighting. and it wasn't a secret that he lightened the air wherever he went, intentionally or not.

with a start, you look back at shoko. “and someone calm. someone with manners.”

“well-mannered and calm. what insane preferences.” shoko chuckles. “are there any more?"

yaga slams his hand on the table a few times, reluctantly drawing your attention back to the front.

your previous conversation dies and twiddles away into the background, overtaken by droning lectures and predictable missions. by the end of the day, you can't even remember what you had told shoko early that morning.

when you enter the classroom the next day, you’re surprised to find gojo already there, seated at his table. his sunglasses hangs lower on his nose than usual and most curiously of all, a book is held in his hands. you’re not sure if he’s actually reading or not considering that pages were being turned far too quickly for someone reading “ordinary objects” by amie thomasson.

his eyes flicker to yours as you head in. “good morning.”

“morning. what’s with you?”

gojo clears his throat. “what ever do you mean?”

your frown transitions to a grimace. “why are you talking like that? did you break something of mine? was it my potted plant, gojo i told you to take good care of it!”

“i am taking care of it! it’s not dead yet!” he exclaims before pausing uncharacteristically. he sits back in his chair and turns back to his book. “i mean, it’s fine.”

“you sure?”

“i am.”

you narrow your eyes before looking away, dropping into your seat. “it better be. shoko got me that one.”

“speaking of shoko, is she not coming today?”

“i think she stayed overnight at the morgue.”

“is that so? perhaps i should write notes for her. i wouldn’t want her to miss out on class.”

you turn to him horrified. “so you did kill my plant!”

“i said it’s not dead!” gojo bursts. another pause. he clears his throat, adjusting his glasses. “i simply worry for her.”

you stare at him and watch as he fidgets under your gaze. “are you feeling sick? did you eat something wrong?”

“i’m not sick. what part of me looks sick?"

“well you’re usually not this…” you watch him as you wrack your brain, trying to find a word to describe this situation. “c…”

gojo leans forward. “yes?”

“crazy.”

he falls back in his chair, groaning, book forgotten and placed harshly down on the table.

you tilt your head. “where's getou, you guys didn’t come to class together? don’t tell me you fought.”

gojo peers up and frowns. “no, can i not show up to class early just because i feel like it?”

“it would be extremely out of character, yeah.” you rest your chin on your hand as you watch gojo mutter to himself, his jaw jutted out and his nose scrunched.

he was clearly unhappy, it didn’t take a scholar to know. it might take a genius to figure out why though.

you had time to kill, might as well take up the challenge. maybe he hadn’t had his morning dose of sugar yet, or maybe his favourite anime had delayed it’s upcoming episode. maybe he didn't save properly on the new game he was playing, or maybe he simply didn't sleep well last night. or maybe he had lied to you and he had fought with getou, leading to this strange attitude.

the more you thought about it, the more it made sense. the way he was acting now was like a mockery to getou's usual behaviour.

“are you trying to be like getou?” you try.

gojo whirs around to face you. “what?”

“well, you’re trying to be composed.” he keeps staring at you and you clear your throat. “like more well-mannered. more calm.”

gojo remains silent but you watch as his jaw drops. you think that he might say something but then his mouth closes, only to open again.

gojo speechless, what a sight. but as good of a sight as it was, you were beginning to feel concerned.

“are you sure you’re alright? what did you eat yesterday?”

he doesn’t register your question. “you think getou is well-mannered?”

“yeah?”

“and calm?”

you nod. “more than you, at least.”

“do you think he’s interesting too? sporty? smart? funny?” he pauses. “good-looking?”

the questions throw you off guard and you sit up. “what? where is this coming from?”

“oh my god, you do.”

“no? i mean, i think getou’s great and everything—”

“you think getou’s great?”

“don’t you?”

“you think getou’s hot.” he concludes. “and you think getou’s great.”

"what are you even saying?"

"i don't know. why don't you tell me?"

baffled, you flail for words. “are you jealous of him? that's strange, i didn’t think either of you would ever feel jealous of each other.”

gojo grits his teeth and looks away. with a pout, he says, “me neither.”

the door to the classroom is thrown open and getou steps through, rubbing the back of his neck. he yawns on his way to his chair and it wakes him up, looking between you and gojo as you both watch him enter.

“what did you guys do?” he asks with a sigh.

“nothing!”

“nothing.” gojo says and glares at him.

getou blinks.

“okay.” he says slowly, sliding out his chair and sitting. “what did i do then? why are you both looking at me like that?”

“gojo’s being weird.” you snitch. “are you guys fighting?”

“how should i know? i thought we were doing okay. gojo, if i did something, use your words and tell me.”

"i'll use my words to tell you to suck my dick instead."

"so i did do something. you're so predictable, gojo."

you snicker as gojo huffs and glances away, looking away out the window behind your head. his train of sight cuts right past you but you can’t help but feel slightly flustered as he looks on, almost like he was looking at you, so determined to ignore getou’s pestering.

subconsciously, you drown getou out too, your traitorous mind observing the blue in gojo’s eyes. you had always thought it was just one colour, but looking at it now, it seemed more like a kaleidoscope of blues, the many shades sparkling and dimming as he watched birds flutter outside the window, and you watched their shadows through his eyes.

something shifts, in the air or in the skies you don't know, and gojo meets your eye. startled, you hold the gaze and he holds it too, just long enough for your lungs to run out of air.

you look away hastily and inhale.

gojo glances to the front, oddly fidgety.

getou looks between the two of you. “what the fuck was that?”

“nothing.” gojo says.

getou clearly doesn't buy it but though he tries to get an answer out of you, you don't give him one either. cupping your cheeks, your thoughts mirror his question. what was that? it was embarrassing, that's what it was and your realisation is only heightened as a silence fills all four corners of the classroom.

gojo clears his throat. “for me, i like someone who i'm already comfortable with. someone i already know.”

at his words, you look over at him and find him already staring. he frowns as you don't give him any other reaction.

yaga saves you from addressing his statement, walking into the room as the bell for class rang. "oh? you're all early, even you gojo. where's shoko?"

“she’s staying at the morgue because of the recent mission.”

“i see.” yaga nods. “then let’s start.”

your mind fails to work as you turn over gojo’s words, thinking them through. what did they mean? what was he talking about? did this weird confession have something to do with why he was acting so strange?

slowly, you draw connections between your conversation with gojo and the talk you had with shoko yesterday morning. an epiphany shoots through you and you cover your mouth to hide a gasp.

did that mean…?

someone he knew? acting strange? getting mad when you said you liked getou?

you watch gojo’s side profile, hoping he’d turn around. if what you thought was right, he’d turn.

seconds tick past. yaga’s voice drawls on and yet gojo doesn't even spare you a glance.

no, maybe you were wrong after all.

just as you were about to face yaga again, gojo’s head shifts and his eye flicks over to yours. they widen when he finds you, and you’re sure you’re in a similar shocked state.

oh my god, you think, eyes darting between him and the other boy in the room.

gojo has a crush on getou.

filler imagine based off of that One scene from the manga: "megane tokidoki yankee kun"

It’s crazy when your looking for some fluff and you see the title of a piece and it looks like it’s fluff because of the sweet title. Little do you know it’s literally the sluttiest smut fix you have ever layer eyes on.

YESSSSS!!! LETS BRING BACK SHIFTING TO FANFICS!!!

I don’t see enough people talking about shifting to mangas and manhwas. Me personally i love the idea and i already have 2 scripts, one for a manga and one for a manhwa

you don't say anything as you push the door to his room open, and to your relief, neither does satan. he watches you from his cross-legged position on the ground, glinting green eyes scanning you over before flickering between you and his bed. you know it's his permission for you to stay, so you bow your head in gratitude before shutting the door behind you and shuffling over to his bed.

you're careful to avoid the stacks of tomes scattered along the ground as you make your way over, gracefully hopping up onto his mattress so that you can rest your back on the headboard and spread your legs out on the bed. all the while, satan watches you with muted adoration, face stoic enough that you might think he didn't care about what you did, but heart racing all the same.

as you settle in, satan takes his cue to move to his bed as well, swiping a book you hadn't seen before from his shelves. the blond stands at the side of the bed, gesturing to you to shift over and make enough room for him to slide in beside you. he throws a blanket over your legs, tugging it so it can cover his as well.

once satan decides he's found the perfect position, he flips the book open to the first page, throat clearing as he prepares to read aloud.

his voice, like a river in the night, is cold, and soothing; flowing and gentle under the low light. your eyes grow heavy, and it's not long before satan guides your head to his shoulder to rest.

satan whispers a soft goodnight into your hair as his fingers trail along your jawline, leaving you feeling like you've gotten lost the clouds as you finally fall asleep.

nobody:

Me: randomly dancing the N/S choreo 💀

i feel like i’ve just come up with the best idea ever. hear me out, a dr where it’s like your waiting room BUT there’s a thing where you can live out the scenarios you want to experience but not make an entire dr for. LET ME COOK!!!

(I literally could not go to sleep until i let this thought out and I have school tomorrow 🙃)