Rants W Arcane | Pt. 2

It felt so good a while ago when I went to class and was talking tow friend of mine (WAY skinnier than me) and tell her I didn't eat anything that day, after she was rambling abt how much she ate. She was yapping abt how she had some side effect of meds and how she already had like 2 meals and snacks and still felt hungry, and I was like "oh I didn't have anything today."

She was so shocked, but I felt so good. Like yeah I'm bigger than you and still have a better discipline.

this!!! I often compare myself to others and can't hepl but get caught up in certain things i see online or w my friends. I still gotta remember that this is my journey and issue to deal with, and that the way someone else functions shouldn't decide mine

hey babes just wanted to say that you aren’t in a competition, actually you have an eating disorder which is a mental illness which is hard and sad and dangerous, and to maybe remember that and be kind to yourself even when you feel like you are failing at it okay because it’s not something you fail at and binging is just another symptom of your disordered relationship to food

Convos w Arcane | Part 1

On my previous account, I once mentioned how my bf kept bringing up calories. He knew I was dealing with ana, so whenever we were gonna order dinner or whatever, he'd be like "oh, maybe not that food, I know you don't like too many calories." And stuff.

While I understand that he's autistic and might miss the cue of not bringing it up (and the fact that he said he wants to eat healthier), it still bothered me.

Ppl were rather upset in the comment section, saying I should "pick a side" seeing how "I have an £d but don't like it when my bf is enabling me." And how that person would love it to have a bf like that. My thing, however, is the following. I don't mind talking abt it, esp if you want to understand me/£ds better. However, I'd rather not hear from ppl (esp close to me) being up calories and all that when we go eat. I already think abt it constantly and it gets worse when I have to have a bigger meal w ppl, so I'd rather not hear it extra externally. It's genuinely exhausting as is.

"oh the thing that's on your mind non stop on your mind and affects so many parts of your life and the way you function? Reminder that it exists. :)"

I was so skinny as a child, why didn't I stay that way

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Keep going until you're excited to weigh yourself

omg I'd be so skinny then :sob:

I'd burn like 2K cals on my lazier days and 12K-15K on my more active days, but like 5K to 8K on an average

In an ideal world 1 step would = 1 cal burned

Not to sound like a pick me but I don't like ppl I know irl reminding me of an e.d. only my boyfriend and best friend know abt it and while my friend doesn't really mention it, my boyfriend used to. He'd bring up calories and shit when picking what to have for dinner and it's just like, shut up?? I already obsess over it and it's genuinely draining me, it's not a quirky thing to lose weight and be healthy. Don't remind me even more.

I want to be able to hang out with my friends and not feel self concious abt my rolls

What are some of your favourite ⭐ving tips?