Now Remember, Sugar Is Your Worst Enemy

too bad I hate throwing up and i'm too much of a pussy to do it to myself

I was pissing my bf off for the giggles, and he was like "yk I'm gonna go get lunch later, right? What if I eat your food before I get home."

He was obviously joking, but he doesn't know that I acc wouldn't mind lmao. An excuse to skip the meal

I'll get home later and eat something at around 6.30 or 7 pm, and then do a 16 hour fast until tomorrow at nook 🗣️🗣️ I'll keep y'all posted

Lowk tempted to do a 24 hour but I'm a bit anxious that I'll pass out after my class, since I have class from 3 to 6 pm. I was sick this one time and didn't eat the whole day except for maybe a banana and some apple juice, and when my class was done, my head was pulsing and I felt like fainting any second. I'll keep y'all posted tho

why do my parents have to love food so much

don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat

I wish I was a pickier eater

If you'll feel too guilty eating it, don't.

I hate myself for struggling w/ a b.e.d. for so long and not trying to get better out of stubbornness

It felt so good a while ago when I went to class and was talking tow friend of mine (WAY skinnier than me) and tell her I didn't eat anything that day, after she was rambling abt how much she ate. She was yapping abt how she had some side effect of meds and how she already had like 2 meals and snacks and still felt hungry, and I was like "oh I didn't have anything today."

She was so shocked, but I felt so good. Like yeah I'm bigger than you and still have a better discipline.

DPDR core

Feeling like you're stuck in your body/brain

Feeling like this is some sort of dream you can't wake up from

Everything is overstimulating

Agoraphobia

Trouble sleeping

Not being able to function because you're so distracted by the feeling that nothing exists

"Am I really me? Is this body me?"

Overly anxious

Panic attacks

People thinking it's a funny quirky thing, not knowing it consumes every bit of you

using your phone or laptop as a distraction from existing

Feeling numb

Struggling with eye contact

Being restless in crowded places