I Met Autumn By The Cobblestone Path While The Trees Bled Onto The Earth. She Lingered For A While, Kicking

notes for future me (because 2022 is in three hours)

New Years Eve 2021 - 9pm

-confidence - work on speaking to people, noones going to hold your awkwardness over your head

(and anyone who does deserves to have all their movies spoiled and their favourite characters brutally murdered)

- study your ass off - this is your last year in secondary school. do well on your gcses and mocks. make it count, you want that scholarship you have to work for it. - you do you - let’s try to be ourselves and not care too much about other people and their irrelevant opinions this year and never cry over those who are undeserving Next year I want to sincerely better myself, please work on yourself too.  I’ll see you next year ~ Amimi

"I'm in Spain, but without the *s*" - old, boring

"I'm in Spain just like Darlington" - new, mysterious, dramatic, gives you an opportunity to talk about Leigh Bardugo's books

Few of my favourite things from the fashion of dark academia

hot people have obsessions with true crime and could probably be the worlds greatest serial killers and get away with it but aren't athletic enough to go on the run

london , buckingham palace,leicester square, convent garden and winter wonderland tommorow, will be v cool! tell you all about it when i get back!!

coming back from ncs (week one)

Sat, 30th July - 12:39 i'm back woahhh. this is going to be longgg. the first day of ncs was definitely the worst, but it was still interesting. i got to meet my group and surprisingly most were from my town, i was expecting it to be a lot more mixed with people from different places. the majority of my group (16 people including a Group Leader (GL) and Assistant Group Leader (ATL). in all honesty, my GL was overly enthusiastic and too strict but i really liked my ATL she was super duper cool (i'll talk about her more later) . the part that dragged it down was mainly expectations icl. i thought the place would be a lot nicer than what it actually was (we were expecting cabins but actually stayed in tents, the bathrooms being public were not amazing and the layout was kind of awkward) the food (a poorly made pie) was awful but it slowly got better through the week. the second day was mainly games - we did have a mini olympics but i didn't take part in much so i can't really talk about that - debates, getting to know eachother and a presentation on a sensitive topic - creating a social media campaign which was really cool, one group did a whole rap and it was vibes but they somehow didn't win :(. i made sooo many friends during free time who were mainly from my hometown which i was super happy about. there was some typical teenage drama and oml, tiktok was really not lying when they called it a teenagers love island because it literally was. the third day there was an almost 7-8 hour hike which included lots of activities, it was super sunny out and everyone wanted to go home after the torture but then it was just more free time, small games and activities and chilling so it all calmed down. it did not feel like as short as a time as it was. the days go SLOWWWW. so many instances where i thought it was like 3pm and it was only 11:45am. head on over to pt 2 bc i ended up being so long tumblr would not let me post it lol!

Studyblr?

I’m considering mixing in a bunch of studyblry things into this blog, should i?

manga lashes !!!!

i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.

da inspired dates noone will do w/ me

- going to a theatre and watching a Shakespearean play - going to a planetarium or stargazing and sitting in a comfortable silence -  spending time huddled up in a library back to back or gazing at eachother through shelves - writing dates where you meet up and write something together or seperately and exchange writing pieces at the end - watch harry potter together while in a pillow or blanket fort til next time ~Amimi