Help I'm Crying

i be like “damn i got a lot of shit to do” and then go lay down for 17 hours

cute notes! (on a budget)

so i’ve just started putting in effort to make all my notes in all subjects neat and have figured out the following things: - writing scrawled across notebook pages are aesthetic too - its not just for the aesthetic it actually really helps in studying too and most importantly  you don’t need expensive stationary honestly anything will do. for the dark academics and studyblrs who aren’t able to afford muji pens and stabilo highlighters here are a few tips   - a pen and a ruler (and maybe a single colored pen and/or highlighter) will be       more than enough   - be creative with what you already have ( writing your title and subheadings differently with a lil effort or a cloud bubble round a key fact can make all the  difference believe it or not)   if you really really want pastels and such here’s some dupes highlighters: https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/wilko-chunky-pastel-highlighter-4-pack/p/0481344

https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/wilko-slim-highlighters-pastel-4-pack/p/0481346 https://www.therange.co.uk/stationery/pens-and-pencils/pens/highlighters/pack-of-six-pastel-highlighters/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIjtfZ3IC25gIVx7HtCh1uoQOUEAQYCSABEgJAOfD_BwE#203958 pens: i honestly think any good pen will do (when i say good i mean a pen that doesn’t smudge and runs relatively smooth ) so basically any ballpoint pen but if ya really wanna know then these are the ones i’ve been using lately    https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/paper-mate-inkjoy-black-ballpoint-pens-8-pack/p/0432408 not the exact ones but as close as i could find  i hope you found this post helpful! ~til next time Amimi

nostalgic academia

- cleaning your room and finding old souvenirs from places you’ve been, notes left in blazer and cardigan pockets - religiously drinking out of only the swirly straw cup you bought from the national space museum all those years ago - looking at old polaroids, trying to commit every blurry inch of the pictures to memory - reading old notes you passed in class back from when you loved him - reading your old text messages with him, laughing, crying and cringing, til tears patter onto your screen - thinking of better days, back then with them (and you) i felt inspired again today, i was cleaning out my room and found lots of old notes and pictures and spent an hour looking at them and thinking til i cried, kind of wishing i was the same naive 13 year old. looking back at my intro at the start of this page makes me happy and sad, even if i haven’t been the most active or followed user, i remember every single post i’ve written and what i thought when writing them, all the emotions. it’s weird and miserable and magical (get that 22 reference ;) yes taysway)  until next time with all the love a person can possibly muster, Amimi

i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.

a reminder for you (but mainly for me)

the ideal university experience is a myth - all your mutuals on instagram posting about all their cool parties and cool friends don't live everyday like that, they probably don't look like that everyday either, people will only show you their best moments. people can be immature in uni just like they were in college and in school, coming to uni doesn't suddenly make you mature and neither does it make anyone else either. friendship breakups and all that petty shit happens to everyone. you're there to get a degree and not make friends, if the living environment or the people put you off, do you really want it that badly? i think i lost all my uni friends today because of a misunderstanding, some of them are in my classes and one is my flatmate who i can't avoid. but its only my foundation year and i'll meet other people next year. and when people have real jobs they have to work with people they dont like aswell, so its kinda like practice for the future. i think i'm gonna get back into movie reviews, drawing and painting again, and i was considering starting fencing? i think it would be fun. and i'm going to take my iron medication and vitamins too. because being alone isn't the end of the world. until next time (which is probably soon) Amina

Pierce The Veil - Bulletproof Love

why do I keep getting followed and messaged by accounts with p*rn, they heard teenage female and went 🌞 key demographic!!!!!!

spoke to the exams office and the deal was cut off, my fees won't be covered so now i'm unsure because i'd still really like to resit

a (very rare) math/science post.

hey! so i'm a british student but you'll see me putting things in brackets to help clarify things for my non british readers. so i did my GCSEs (i think the american equivalent is SATs?) back in may and june and one thing about me during my last year of school is i was in some deep shit. so i didn't really do that well. I got a bunch of 6s (B+s) and7 (A) in eng lit. i found i was couple marks off of a grade 7 (A ) in almost all my subjects including math and science. now i can deal with a B in art and a B in sociology because I'm doing them for A levels ( google tells me the americn equivalent is AP examinations) so doing well in them means that my gcse grade will be dismissed since i did better at A level today i asked my math teacher if there was any way i could resit and he cut me the following deal: if i resat my exams in either november or june of next year and got a better grade then he'd cover the fees and same goes for science. now, i just started sixth form/college so i'd have to learn in my own time somehow. i don't have anyone to teach me and i can't afford tutoring but i was offered to sit in the back of lessons during my free period every tuesday and that afterschool i can ask whatever available teacher for help for anything i really really can't teach myself should i go for it? please interact and tell me what you think.

london livelihood (the sequel)

carrying on from my previous post after leicester square we finally got to the most exciting part of the trip, winter wonderland. surprisingly a lot of people were only there for the food, which i was very surprised by, i think the main event is the rides, no? first up was the Eurocoaster, i went with two friends who i'm gonna name Tall and Blue at the time it seemed very scary but it was nothinggggg compared to the other two rides we went on after. it twists and turns and went up and down at the most unexpected moments, i think Tall was also wary of the fact she was sitting inbetween two motion sick people but thank gosh nothing went wrong. all three of us screamed our lungs out and then Tall said the ride wasn't even scary?? i think she screamed the most lolol. next up was my choice, The Boomer, a big 360 swing that also rotates the carriage so you're spinning upside down. this was without a doubt the scariest ride i've ever been on. i mean, go big or go home right?? when we first got strapped in i heavily regretted all my life decisions and chose that specific moment to tell Blue about my fear of height. remembering it gives me goosebumps. after all the mayhem, the ride came to a stop at the top and for a solid 5 minutes we had the best view of not only winter wonderland but the whole of london. i think for a few minutes i loved the height more than anything. we took a small break to cool off because that ride is exhilarating before walking around so Blue could have her pick. That ended up being the Munich Looping. I'm quite sad that I didn't get to keep the mid-ride picture because i managed to keep a straight face the entire time but alas! there is no proof. We explored the rest of the park after that! Took photos and met up with friends where we tried churros and macarons (overrated imo) I slept the entire ride home. I think it's definitely something I'm going to remember for a long time afterwards. The image of london from the top of the Boomer and the chill from the cold is engrained in the forefront of my memory until next time! Amimi

april aches (among added actions)

google dictionary really came in handy for the title this time i missed out march my bad, it's in my drafts somewhere, i'll post it another time. anywaysss, its the easter holidays and i should be studying but i really don't have the motivation, which sucks alot because exams are soon and i still have all of macbeth to cover. at this rate i really don't think my gcse grade goals are going to happen. MINIMUM i wanted 7s in everything and a 6 in french. however, right now it's looking like a whole ton of 5s my 16th birthday is tommorow! oh and my first official exam (french speaking) is on the 25th wish me luck i'll turn it all around Amimi