Filminah - Amimi

euphoria (first thoughts)

17:22 - 22 Jan 2022

just started binging euphoria and thought i’d share some stuff that came to mind a : this show is like visually amazing - like holy shit, costume design, effects, and oh my gosh can we talk about the hallway scene where rue’s high off her mind and everythings spinning? - that was some next level cinematography and set design right there b :  a LOT more graphic then i was expecting, like they really put the detail into every scene, warning that some stuff you may see (if you haven’t alr watched it) can be triggering c : not a realistic portrayal of teenagers at all, could have easily set them as being in college or even like early uni days - idk if its different for an american audience but teens over here do not act like that. d : casting and acting is cool but in some small moments i find it lacking, like kat’s a bit too calm for a girl who just got explicit videos of her leaked, because if that was real i would be crying my eyes out. so far i’m halfway through ep three but i’ll do another post when i’m done watching - feel like the twists and turns have lacked the shock factor but that’s likely mainly because i’ve watched all the spoilers on tiktok.  i’ll post some more later today or tmrw so look out for that!! - Amimi

it's 00:04 and i'm 17.

hot people have obsessions with true crime and could probably be the worlds greatest serial killers and get away with it but aren't athletic enough to go on the run

late at night a few days ago i saw a video of the illuminations firework show in paris that made me cry. today i saw a flyer advertising another firework show on the street and i burst out into tears all over again. pretty things and i can’t mix as much as i want them to. or maybe its just fireworks? i really don’t know. oh dear god  i just realised how sappy i’m being  lol bye ~Amimi

thoughts after finishing euphoria (s1) (pt3)

18:47 - 23 Jan 2022

i suggest checking out the other two `thought while watching euphoria` posts before reading this one! SPOILER WARNING - OK BUT THE ENDING - THE CHOREOGRAPHY AND MUSIC OH MY GOSHHH LABRINTH AND ZENDAYA REALLY ATE THAT SHIT UPP. - love fez #fezcosupremacy - cassies figure skating scene had me on the verge of tears, I love the callback to her childhood and innocence through the use of it, and like the costume being almost the same blue to the doctors scrubs?!! - FUCK NATE JACOBS - the fight between nate and his dad, when nate was screaming you could hear the pain and anger. - MADDY FINDING OUT ABOUT THE CAL JACOBS TAPES - i was NOT expecting that. - mouse is horrifying, like he hasn’t even gotten violent or anything but his presence just manages to give you that silent kind of fear. posted a bunch this weekend so don’t expect anything until later this week, i hope to do a season one overall review, maybe analysis?? and binge season two when all the episodes are out that’s all for now! ~ Amimi

the last day of secondary school (surprisingly never cried)

i'm making this post as just a literal dump of all my memories today so forgive me if its all over the place. this morning i was in a panic over my chemistry exam (which i definitely didn't get an A in but oh well) i showed my outfit to my friends (a cottagecore-inspired thing with puff sleeves and a small flower pattern, black tights - i was supposed to wear pumps but i forgot them smh) and i really found out who my real friends were. upon showing them ( O and L is what we'll call them ) for my irl friends on here it's very very obvious who they are. L, i found has a problem she won't say to me - i dont want to look back on this with bad memories so i won't go into detail. O is one of the greatest friends i've ever had. she makes me feel like myself which is the best thing a friend can do for you today i danced (like a stripper at some moments) in a party with my best friend, in a hall with a DJ in the booth, smoke machines and flashing lights with a cup of ice in my hand. (and maybe heartbreak number one was staring but i found i didn't care about him) Life feels like a movie. I went to town, i felt like i was having a real teenage experience for the first time on the last day of secondary school. today was a confidence boost. maybe i got looks from cuties too (but don't base your self worth on men - gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss) i felt pretty for the first time in such a long time, even with my skin breaking out. when i walked back to school to pick up my bag and the equipment, i didn't go to the blue balcony outside the art rooms like i've done every day for a year to reminisce and cry. i'm so tired of crying. i think today i reached some kind of self acceptance too, which is one of the best parts. The sky is so blue today. God, I Love Life. ~ Amimi

messing up every relationship with another human being i have out of self hatred check

he watched howls moving castle and decided to make movie howl his new personality

Darlington, demon and gentleman of Lethe, canonically reads and enjoys Diana Wynne Jones books

cute notes! (on a budget)

so i’ve just started putting in effort to make all my notes in all subjects neat and have figured out the following things: - writing scrawled across notebook pages are aesthetic too - its not just for the aesthetic it actually really helps in studying too and most importantly  you don’t need expensive stationary honestly anything will do. for the dark academics and studyblrs who aren’t able to afford muji pens and stabilo highlighters here are a few tips   - a pen and a ruler (and maybe a single colored pen and/or highlighter) will be       more than enough   - be creative with what you already have ( writing your title and subheadings differently with a lil effort or a cloud bubble round a key fact can make all the  difference believe it or not)   if you really really want pastels and such here’s some dupes highlighters: https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/wilko-chunky-pastel-highlighter-4-pack/p/0481344

https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/wilko-slim-highlighters-pastel-4-pack/p/0481346 https://www.therange.co.uk/stationery/pens-and-pencils/pens/highlighters/pack-of-six-pastel-highlighters/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIjtfZ3IC25gIVx7HtCh1uoQOUEAQYCSABEgJAOfD_BwE#203958 pens: i honestly think any good pen will do (when i say good i mean a pen that doesn’t smudge and runs relatively smooth ) so basically any ballpoint pen but if ya really wanna know then these are the ones i’ve been using lately    https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/paper-mate-inkjoy-black-ballpoint-pens-8-pack/p/0432408 not the exact ones but as close as i could find  i hope you found this post helpful! ~til next time Amimi

this. i can't tell whether its bad or whether i hate myself

I feel like my arts been looking worse than usual