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I choose not to respond to these messages.
Not responding is not disrespectful, an expression of my self-respect.
The guilt is not mine.
The burden I carry no longer belongs to me.
I want to heal, not fight.
And that's why I hear myself most where I am silent
That's so high or am I just too small 🌸
Trying to be a strong woman, I grew balls😂😂😂
**The fire within me**
I am afraid -
not of the darkness,
not of the storm
that breaks through the night.
But of it,
of strange hands coming,
quietly, uninvited,
and try
to extinguish the glow in my eyes -
this wild flickering,
that lets me breathe.
Let me burn,
even if it blinds you.
Let me blaze,
even if it frightens you.
Because I am not a spark,
that can be extinguished -
just a star,
that awakens in its own light.
**The light in my eyes**
I am afraid -
not of the fall,
not of the silence,
that sometimes comes.
But of it,
that timid hands
touch my inside
and whisper: *"Don't be so bright. "*
But this light -
it is not a spark,
that can be extinguished,
not a fire,
that consumes.
It is a gentle glow,
that carries me,
a moonbeam,
that cuts through darkness.
Let me shine,
just as I am.
No less,
no more.
Also my greatest fear
One of my greatest fears is I will die without finding a single soul who knows what to do with all this fire behind my eyes.
Cindy Cherie
"I choose not to respond to these messages.
Because it's a way for me to keep my soul.
Not responding is not disrespectful,
an expression of my self-respect.
The guilt is not mine.
The burden I carry no longer belongs to me.
I want to heal, not fight.
And that's why I hear myself most where I am silent."
“I don’t want to answer without feeling guilty” means “I am at peace with myself now. I don’t have to be right, I just want to be at peace.”
From dear Derya to Derya's heart
I don't write to you anymore, I write to myself. because in this story I was the most tired, the most silent, the most understanding.
All this time I tried to understand you, out of a sense of sisterhood, out of loyalty to the family, out of a debt to the past, but now I realise: understanding doesn't mean I have to forgive.
You have expressed your reality many times. but I tried to swallow my own experiences and feelings.
Each time it stayed in my throat. Even in my dreams it sat in me like raw meat, the taste of which still lingers on my palate.
I don't want that taste anymore.
I no longer try to digest the relationships that hurt me.
I no longer silence myself.
I no longer feel guilty.
And most importantly: I'm on my own side now.
You won't have the last word. Because this is not a court of law. This is my life. And only I decide which door to leave open.
That's enough now.
This letter is not about you, it's about me.
I'm liberating myself.
I'm blessing my fragility.
And finally, I choose to hear my own inner voice.
With love,
Derya
**A silent encounter in Ximen's living heart**
The day was long and tiredness had me firmly in its grip. In my hotel room, I didn't feel like going out again - but something inexplicable finally drew me into the evening streets of Ximen. The area pulsated with life: colourful lights, laughing people, the muffled sound of the city. But in the midst of this hustle and bustle, I came across an oasis of calm - a temple hidden modestly between the modern facades.
The red lanterns cast a warm light on the carved wooden gates and the scent of incense hung in the air. I paused for a moment in front of the altar with the *Mother of Heaven* (天上聖母), mesmerised by the peaceful atmosphere. Here, between the whispering prayers and the golden statues, the hustle and bustle of the city seemed like a distant memory.
I lifted the camera and captured a few details: the ornate lettering, the *"Southern Show of the Guanyin Bodhisattva "* (南燕视世音菩薩), the simple elegance of the *Huade Dehua Temple* (华治德化堂). Each picture told of a world that took its time - a contrast to the restless hustle and bustle outside.
As I left the temple, I felt light, as if this chance encounter had reminded me of something important: that there are always places of calm in the midst of chaos, if you are only prepared to see them. The evening ended with a smile - and the certainty that it had been exactly the right moment to leave the room after all.
SAN – the silence before I speak.
AIRMADE – the wings I built from database queries.
93726.3… the exact altitude where my fear of flying turns into fuel. (Ask me about the code, but whisper – the stars are listening.)
Danke an @stochastique-blog und alle, die mir zu 5 Reblogs verholfen haben!
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I saw a miracle today and it was this. I had already given up hope but after 2 years with only one withered leaf I get my new flower. This means a lot to me because it shows me that you shouldn't give up too quickly and just take care of it and the shoot will give you a new flower.
You are free to fly wherever you want
“The bad news is you’re falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is, there’s no ground.”
— Chogyam Trungpa
Extraschicht - Die Nacht der Industriekultur NRW
I saw a miracle today and it was this. I had already given up hope but after 2 years with only one withered leaf I get my new flower. This means a lot to me because it shows me that you shouldn't give up too quickly and just take care of it and the shoot will give you a new flower.
I hope someone out there do that about me
“If someday the moon calls you by your name don’t be surprised, because every night I tell her about you.”
— Shahrazad al-Khalij
I am bold ❤️
I am confident ❤️
I love myself ❤️
My beautiful stay in Bangkok in May this year, beautiful city with beautiful and kind people
That's the only right thing, even if it hurts. Better to be alone than in fake relationships
My Mom once told me that she walked into a room where a couple of friends were discussing her, they didn’t know she was there. She shook her head, smiled and walked away. 🕊
My Mom also told me that she had a friend who talked bad about her, she never knew that Mom found out, Mom never mentioned it. She smiled and walked away from this friendship. 🕊
She told me she had family who chose to shift her out of their life because she stood up for herself for a change. And because she stopped crossing oceans for them when they would not even help her cross a bridge. She smiled, shook her head and walked away. 🕊
So I asked her how she could just walk away from people that betrayed her while pretending to be her friends or family? 🕊
She answered that every time she came to a crossroad like that, she had to decide who will be going forward on her journey with her. This showed her who she cannot take along with her. 🕊
So she explained to me that you should never get mad at a person who betrays you, even in the name of friendship or family. Just gracefully bow out and enjoy your journey with all the new people God puts in their place. 🕊
And yet the moon is the light that guides us
In beauty I walk
With beauty before me I walk
With beauty behind me I walk
With beauty above me I walk
With beauty around me I walk
It has become beauty again
It has become beauty again
It has become beauty again
It has become beauty again
As I began to love myself
I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is "AUTHENTICITY".
As I began to love myself
I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it "RESPECT".
As I began to love myself
I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it "MATURITY".
As I began to love myself
I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm. Today I call it "SELF-CONFIDENCE".
As I began to love myself
I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it "SIMPLICITY".
As I began to love myself
I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is "LOVE OF ONESELF".
As I began to love myself
I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is "MODESTY".
As I began to love myself
I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it "FULFILLMENT".
As I began to love myself
I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But as I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection "WISDOM OF THE HEART".
We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know that is "LIFE"!
Man is the most insane species. He worships an invisible God and destroys a visible Nature. Unaware that this Nature he’s destroying is this God he’s worshiping.
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