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Oedipus at Colonus, Sophocles (tr. Johnston) / John Winchester’s Journal, Alex Irvine / Everybody Loves a Clown

Katherine Angel, Daddy Issues; Alex Irvine, John Winchester's Journal.

Alex Irvine, John Winchester’s Journal

Alex Irvine, John Winchester’s Journal

Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights.

The Card Counter, (Paul Schrader, 2021)

Hannibal, Dolce: Season 3 episode 6

Richard Siken, Crush

I forgive the world because it has you .

hannibal lecter and will graham, hannibal (2013-2015) / litany in which certain things are crossed out, richard siken (2005)

hannibal (2013-2015) — 3×13 "the wrath of the lamb".

what if i'm standing in your closet trying to talk to you? and what if i kept the hand-me-downs you won't grow into? and what if i really thought some miracle would see us through? what if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?

The Bear, s1e8 x Seymour: An introduction by J. D. Salinger

gastronomy - jessica poli / garden song - phoebe bridgers / growing sideways - noah kahan / nobody likes a secret - lizzy mcalpine

when ethel cain said i’m tired of you still tied to me and when gracie abrams said i see you every night in my sleep anticipating every bad dream and when noah kahan said the ghost you dressed up as sure knows how to haunt and when lee mandelo said come on i love you but this is no life and when micah nemerever said all they were — all they had ever been — was a pair of sunflowers who each believed the other was the sun

a beast by maita / moon song by phoebe bridgers / i got heaven by mannequin pussy / knives out by radiohead / cop car by mitski

father & child

succession // source // yusef komunyakaa // motion sickness - phoebe bridgers // anne sexton // w.s. merwin.

I TALK TO GOD, BUT THE SKY IS EMPTY; ABOUT GOD

Keaton St. James (@boykeats) Salvation // pinterest // Lisa Marie Basile Andalucia // Sean Glatch (via @sicknessinmotion) // "Shiizakana," Hannibal (2013-2015) dir. Michael Rymer // Antonio Canova Psyche Revived by Cupid's Kiss (via @moonstoast) // Ethel Cain Sun Bleached Flies // José Saramago (tr. Margaret Jull Costa) Cain (via @morepeachyogurt) // Leila Chatti Portrait of the Illness as Nightmare

MAY I BURN. MAY YOU SEE IT; DEVOTION THAT SWALLOWS YOU WHOLE

George Bataille // @inbredlamb // Richard Siken Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out // Olga Koroleva with grandfather // unknown // Richard Siken "Planet of Love," Crush // Otto Künzli Ring for two people / Brooch for two people // Ada Limón "The Good Fight," Bright Dead Things // Phoebe Bridgers Scott Street

some inexplicable feelings & words.

blythe baird // isabel allende // clarice lispector // of age - the frights // olivia laing // unknown // alexandra latos.

on being a dog, being eaten by dogs, needing like a dog, losing like a dog

i bet on losing dogs, melody chua / the odyssey, homer (trans. by emily wilson) / l’oublié! (forgotten), émile betsellère / you want it darker, leonard cohen / i’m your man, mitski / jezebel eaten by dogs, aurelia de sousa / 1 kings 21:19 / roadside attractions with the dogs of america, ada limón / i bet on losing dogs, mitski

Intergenerational trauma / mental illness

The Sopranos (6x17) / Esquire Hereditary review / Moonlight / My Grandmother’s Hands by Resmaa Menakem / Pachinko (1x01) / I Love You, Honeybear (Father John Misty) / Russian Doll (2x04) / Doctor Sleep / Bojack Horseman (2x01)

I just want to say that there are so many tragic things about Dan Torrance in Doctor Sleep. But the one that really stands out to me is that his "inner library" is The Overlook.

Rose the Hat has a beautiful and extravagant mansion; it's as old, gorgeous, and well maintained as she is. Abra has her room, the only place that she really possesses and has control over at her age; the ceiling filled with stars and the promise of expansion as she grows up.

And then there's Dan's library, his mind is shaped like The Overlook, every thought, memory, and experience is stored in a place that he fears, hates, and cannot forget. Specifically, in the room where his dad would work. Possibly a room he liked before 'the incident'. But now the typewriter is eternally waiting and no one is coming back to it.

The hotel traumatized him so completely that everything he knows, every experience he's had in his life from before, during, and after the events of The Shining are stored neatly away in its terrifying halls. Every good memory must be revisited inside that sprawling, predatory, beast of a place.

His version is tamed, sure, but even without blood flowing out of an elevator or the twins at the end of the hallway, every time he turned a corner, surely he'd remember that at one point they were there.

Dan's mind is not a palace, formed in reverence for the things he knows and the years he's lived. Nor is it his safe space, that he can customize and manipulate to his liking, filled with possibilities. His mind is decorated with trauma and terror. And it frames his thoughts and all of his future experiences.

His mind is his personal hell, or was until he tames it, sobers up, and turns it into a place that he can walk through every day. Telling himself that he has changed it and made it different. That as long as he maintains control, he's safe walking the halls.

What a tragic glimpse into his life.

Emma. (2020)

Jane Eyre (2011)

Little Women (2019)

Pride & Prejudice (2005)

The Light Between Oceans (2016)

Far from the Madding Crowd (2015)

The Fireman's Daughter, Jonathan Kinsman

Li-Young Lee, "A Hymn to Childhood" // Adonis, "Body" (trans. Khaled Mattawa) // #6—AroarA // @inanotherunivrse // @heavensghost // Orson Scott Card, Ender's Game // Eight—Sleeping At Last // Anne Carson, Plainwater: Essays and Poetry // @lesbiantherian // @inanotherunivrse

Jenny Slate, Little Weirds // Melissa Broder, The Pisces // Richard Siken, "Detail of the Woods" // @minuty // Natalie Wee

@januaryhoney // @naynawrites on Instagram // @sunflorally // @geloyconcepcion on Instagram // @lucidloving // @petrichara

Interview with Melissa Broder, "Ask Polly and So Sad Today Talk About Feelings" // Miranda July, The First Bad Man // Giuseppe Molteni, The Confession

Kaveh Akbar, from “Personal Inventory: Fearless (Temporis Fila)”, Calling a Wolf a Wolf 

i love you in the strongest way there is

via nozu on tumblr // richard siken // charles bukowski // nothingbutloveforyou on tumblr // inanotherunivrse on tumblr.