You know how to love someone, but you don't know how to believe that someone loves you, and that is your tragedy.
“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life and start figuring out the one I have.”
— Holly Black
hey.
if you happen to be reading this, i just wanted to say some things coming from someone who knows what it’s like to fall asleep in tears.
you are not a burden or a mistake or a problem. you are a person with feelings and talents and potential. you deserve happiness even when you feel you don’t, and you deserve a future even when you’re stuck in your past.
life isn’t all about finding the one or succeeding perfectly. life is about finding your happiness and wellbeing in a world that gives you chaos. in that chaos you might cry yourself to sleep, might stay in bed for a day only getting up to use the bathroom, might mean shutting out the world out of frustration, might mean saying “fine. bye.” when you really just want them to stay. but you have tomorrow. and i hope tomorrow brings you at least one, real, beautiful smile.
you’ve got this. you’ve got a good heart. don’t forget that. even when all you can hear is reasons to give up on yourself, don’t. you have got this.
What’s your problem?
You’re always depressed. What’s new?
It’s all in your mind.
There are a lot of people worse off than you.
Your problems aren’t that big.
You’re not normal.
Why don’t you smile more?
You have no reason to be depressed, your life is great.
“Do more things that make you forget to check your phone.”
— Unknown
OUR YOUTUBE
you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after
you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared
you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings
you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love
you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident
you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you
you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it
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accomplishments of the day: still alive, went to therapy, had lunch, got some reading done, had dinner