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Himmat hai toh mujhe chole bhature khilao abhi ke abhii

Gulab jamun the love of my life<33

I am again in the mood to kill today

I used to struggle with my sensitivity a lot I still do and sometimes it's just too much to Cope up with. It's like a belief engrained in my head since childhood and who am I supposed to blame about that we literally adapt to behaviours that people around us point out in us. My dad called me sensitive that one time I cried when I was 5 and I am supposed to carry it with me all my life? Just because one of the girls in my class back in 9th grade said I don't possess leadership qualities because she was clearly jealous should I just close my eyes and believe her?? When people call you by terms you don't clearly identify with you will fucking believe it everytime and that's because you don't know yourself enough. When situations like these arise you are supposed to argue back and say no I am not. You aren't dumb if you can't solve that one math problem that can clearly be practiced. You aren't unlovable just because a certain someone failed at loving you. Never give anyone else the right to tell you who you are and don't look for the answers outside. You are much above those marks on the paper and number of people interested in you.

Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be a sorceress

Itni pretty ho aap kahin aapne hi toh mera dil nahi churaya hai??💖🛐🛐

Ha mere pass hi hai himmat hai toh Le lijiye hehe cutuuu <33

— Roland Barthes, A Lover's Discourse; Fragments [translated by Richard Howard]

तुम मुझ को कोई उपहार ना दो प्रेम का अपने प्रमाण ना दो बस क्षण भर बैठो साथ मेरे बस वह क्षण हेतु तुम्हारे व्यापार ना हो; तुम मुझ को पूरा संसार ना दो बस अपना ठंडा तुम व्यवहार ना दो मैं बनाना चाहता स्मृतियां संग तुम्हारे बस वो स्मृतियां तुम्हारे हेतु उपकार ना हो; अब अंधियारे का बाण ना दो मुझे तुम परिपक्वता का सार ना दो तुम चाहो तो करना सहायता मेरी परंतु उस सहायता का कहीं प्रचार ना हो; कहने को तो हो तुम पिता मेरे मुझे जीवन का उपसंहार ना दो ना दे सकते जो तुम अर्थ प्रेम का मुझे घृणा का आकार ना दो।

-nikamma