A Way My Therapist Has Told Me To Approach Childhood Trauma Is Thinking About The Child Who Went Through

i don't think anyone really understands the levels of being passively suicidal like it doesn't matter where i am or what i'm doing i'd still rather be dead and it's so exhausting

Me trying to figure out how loki has all these powers yet decides to stab Thanos

A couple of thoughts I had after I listened to this interview by Russos:

- If you’re killing off a character, and audience doesn’t believe it, you’re doing something wrong.

- If you’re killing off a character, and have to break the 4th wall by using another character as your voice to tell the audience this is true, you’re doing something wrong.

- If you have to do the previous twice, you’re doing something wrong.

- If you have to kill of 7/8 of a race to make your character more interesting and human, you’re doing something wrong.

- If you think you have to kill the character to complete their arc, you’re wrong.

Quote from BoJack Horseman: Season 2, Episode 2

i mean it’s not like i spend every hour consciously saying “i hate myself.” it’s just that when things go wrong my first response is “of course” “i deserve this” “this is because i suck.” if someone asked me “do you like who you are” i’d be stuck. i don’t feel like i’m 13 and emo anymore, but i kept the sidebangs. i feel weird saying things like “i’m a burden and waste of space” but i feel like that. just maybe not in those words. it’s just like i swell too big for the area. like i splash over the sides, a party foul, the spilled drink. i mean how extra would it be to say something like “i don’t like myself enough to keep living”. doesn’t that just cause other people pain. doesn’t that just make people worry. but on the other hand i’m stuck because i feel numb, vague, blurry. like i should evaporate. like i do nothing but cause people distress when i should be helping. like okay. i don’t hate hate myself. but if the car was coming i wouldn’t get out of the way in a hurry.

I’m thinking of reasons why I liked you. It’s because I didn’t think bad about myself when I was talking to you, I didn’t have the urge to cut when I felt your touch on my skin, when I saw your smile and heard your laugh I felt like everything was going to be okay. You were the perfect distraction and now I have nothing…

~ via @missblack22

Mood rn

Breakfast 🔪

YOU IDIOTS YOU COWARDS YOU DEMONS WE DONT WANT JANE FOSTER BACK WE WANT LOKI BACK