Things No One Tells You About When You’ve Been Mentally Ill For Years And It Won’t Get Better

Things no one tells you about when you’ve been mentally ill for years and it won’t get better

— everyone will give up on you. Some will say it upfront, some will have indirect ways of showing it (you’re a lucky mf if you still have someone )

— your symptoms/ breakdowns/ panic attacks are cute for a few months. Everyone wants to help. Later on people find them annoying and inconvenient

— you will be blamed for not getting better. Doesn’t matter if you’re doing therapy, taking meds, exercising, eating well and sleeping. You can do all of it, some of it or none of it. They will find fault in your efforts.

— desensitization to your pain. This one isn’t their fault, it’s human nature. But it happens and yes it hurts cuz you would wish you were desensitized to your own pain but you have to feel it no matter what. Doesn’t matter if it’s the millionth time. It demands to be felt.

— people move on. But you can’t. You see people cope and get over things while you simply can’t. And it’s so much worse if you’ve been mentally ill for years. Even the smallest things break you and trigger you.

— you slowly realize this world isn’t made for mentally ill people in any way

— you’re tired / fatigued all the time. You have been for years now. You simply exist but you aren’t capable of living anymore. Your illnesses have taken everything that made you feel alive. You’re nothing but a shell. A body.

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This is for you Marvel and you Kevin Feige.

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But for your disgustingly insensitive comments at your actor who we love Tom Hiddleston who deserves far better than you gave him.

This is for even thinking after 2 days of #bringbacklokialive and fans waiting to hear you explain your comments on that dumb as fuck podcast we would want Jane fucking Foster to come back.

I am so angry right now it’s not even funny.

Fuck you russo brothers.

Please sign the petition

https://www.change.org/p/marvel-studios-loki-returning-in-avengers-4-alive

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