Moms Will Just Say The Most Hurtful Shit Off The Cuff Randomly Like You'd Need To Get Me To Sit Down

shooting myself in the back of the head so my suicide looks suspicious and i waste everyones time

the song is an Italian meme

translation:

sad to think that us

us two will never be anything

how much silence on the roofs between a thousand discussions

and your coke light

I never told you[...]

yes that is my actual room

this is referencing an anecdote from Wanda von Sacher-Masoch aka Angelika Aurora Rümelin aka Sacher-Masoch's first wife. She describes how Sacher-Masoch starts a correspondence with another man inspired by his own novel "The Love of Plato". They meet in a hotel one night and other shenanigans happen (meeting at the opera and other stuff). In the end this friendship/situationship/I-don't-know either-ship doesn't end well, the end also apparently includes a strange fanfiction but a few years later Sacher-Masoch and Rümelin spot a picture in a newspaper. The article is about the mysterious death of Ludwig II of Bayern. They recognize him as the admirer.

This is obviously something that you should take with a mountain of salt since it has been said multiple times that Rümelin's biography is very sensational and stuff. Tho it is very funny.

Some are calmer and it's just something that pulls me closer to certain things. But I love some special interests so much that when anything even remotely related to it is mentioned, the excitement breaks the scale and turns into physical pain. Full body reaction, discomfort with vague pain in my chest. So filled with joy that I burst and it turns into misery again. But special interests give my life a meaning and were almost always the reason why I chose not to kms.

My special interests feel like they are studying themselves on their own while things that don't interest me are sometimes impossible to study. Often when I'm researching a SI, questions start spawning in my mind and they spiral to the point where finding the answer becomes impossible and I become frustrated. It's like I'm trying to zoom in to an infinitely small point that I know I'll never get to, but it still hurts.

autistic people: what does having a special interest feel like to you?

(and if u want to say, what is your current special interest?)

Trying to enjoy the last hour and a half of Zuzana Čaputová being my president and trying not to cry

How could she ever hate them for what was at bottom merely their weakness? She would probably have done things like those that had befallen her if she had lived in one of these houses. To measure them by her own yardstick, as her father put it. Would she not, in all honesty, have done the same as Chuck and Vera and Ben and Mrs Henson and Tom and all these people in their houses? Grace paused and as she did, the clouds scattered and let the moonlight through, and Dogville underwent another of those little changes of light. It was as if the light previously so merciful and faint finally refused to cover up for the town any longer. Suddenly, you could no longer imagine a berry that would appear one day on a gooseberry bush, but only see the thorn that was there right now. The light now penetrated every unevenness and flaw in the buildings and in the people. And all of a sudden, she knew the answer to her question all too well. If she had acted like them, she could not have defended a single one of her actions and could not have condemned them harshly enough. It was as if her sorrow and pain finally assumed their rightful place. No. What they had done was not good enough. And if one had the power to put it to rights, it was one's duty to do so - for the sake of other towns, for the sake of humanity and not least, for the sake of the human being that was Grace herself.

Dogville

Lars Von Trier

The non-hierarchical structure of leftist groups leaves me feeling confused, atp I'm gonna join the military/j

Thank you for this contribution

Leopold and Hulda von Sacher-Masoch (bottom right) with amateur actors at the "witch tower" in their garden

The only thing keeping me from entirely losing my sanity is the soundtrack from Nymphomaniac atp