Grungeworld

I guess I should start writing again

Oops

Sorry about that

Of course you miss me

I'd miss me too

I'm not going to call

I don't want to talk to you

I'm not really sure if I ever will at this point

& I'm cool with that

If you'd please stop that'd be great, much appreciated

Should I start taking photography seriously? I enjoy it alot and I think im really good at it

✨️CATATONIC ✨️

I don't want to write about how i feel

bc I feel like shit

& im so fucking sick of it

it's like every day it's the same damn tricks

she's manic again it never quits

the grey mush is spreading nice

all around the brain twice

maybe if they feed it, that will be suffice

pain oozing, it's been sliced

we're at this point, the point we hate

where now our mental state

is up for debate

as if our fate won't devastate

oh for god fucking sake

please let this feeling go away

I'm finished now I don't want to play

if it must, it can stay

to keep the monsters at bay

we can't afford for them to come out and pray

is it my density to be this mad

is this hell or wonderland

why is everything so brightly colored

why is every noise muffled

I look in the mirror, oh no who's this

it looks like someone different

someone familiar but not quite right

you're hiding out in plain sight

that's you that's you that's you, you scream

the mirrored image is baffling

that's not me

oh wait, I see

my reflection, how could this be

change something immediately

work tediously

so they don't see

how you're bursting out through every seam

hurry now, they're so mean

they'll never understand defeat

sinking you within concrete

do whatever you can to avoid the carnival

it doesn't matter how loud you shout

once you're in you'll never get out

b a l c o n y v i e w