I Would Like Actually Just Curl Up On The Floor And Cry Then Cry Then Cry Again Then Only Get Up Because

hi gaes i just figured out the joys of reblogging yipiiuiu

realized i had this in my drafts and planned to post it a month or two after the wheel dropped and then forgot about it. oops! here you go

"why does it feel like i just got scammed", my contribution to the wheel of wow, a small dialtown fic collection comprised of randomly-generated ships written and illustrated by our group of friends! we released it this past valentine's day, and i'm unbearably proud to be a part of it. please take a gander if you haven't!

the ship generated for this one was, uh, milton r. wallace/milton r. wallace. well i hope you like it (please check under the cut for the feelings/concepts behind the comic and my ramblings on the dialup!)

ive been thinking a lot about the dialup lately and like. okay. milton was opposed from day 1, he never Stopped being opposed, but- obviously the dialup is Unfathomably Unethical, i agree with this. a violation of bodily autonomy on a high-incomprehensible scale. but there is that little nagging doubt, what IF it all went exactly according to how callum said it would, if it accomplished all the improvements to people's lives that it was meant to? (given everything we know it seems unlikely it ever WOULD.)

but damn if me, i, griffin, were posed with the choice to press a button where "quality of life improves significantly for like everyone on earth, and also phone heads happen" i would probably definitely press the button. now, i dont think milt would, but like, this comic is meant to explore that bit of doubt, that little voice of callum's in his head going on about changing the world, helping people. what IF it was possible, what IF it worked.

which is also why, in this, hypothetical post-dialup-milton talks more like callum than he does milton (hence why he specifically calls him "milt" and not "milton" on the last page). that little needling voice of doubt speaking up, that after consideration (ie, this conversation) just solidifies his conviction- that the dialup is something horrible, but also not something he feels like he has the power to stop, anymore.

also phone head notes!

it's an ericsson n2200 wooden wall phone, as mentioned in the first page

i wanted an ericsson model specifically since that's the same company that made callum's model (an ericsson dbh of some kind)- playing on the "made in his image"/callum-as-god theme.

unlike callum's model, this is a wooden phone specifically- it's primarily made of organic materials.

the front is completely blank. there's lots of bits and bobs on rotary phones that can read as facial features- dials, bells- i wanted him to be as blank and faceless as possible, removal of expression and individuality. he's not as much a person anymore, he's a vehicle for callum's ideas and ambitions.

Yoyoyo? No way? Hat is actually doin' an intro post?? BAHAHAAAA ALRIIIGHTY LETS DO THIS WITH NO REFERENCE WHATSOEVER!!!I am sooo the very best at intro posts, I assure you

I usually go by Thing, NOT ANYMORE!!! I AM HAT NOW!!!! HI!!!!! am a WEMEN and am aa MINOR KEY!1!1!1!

but hey Hat0nie/Hat is pretty fine aswell! (totally not my roblox user I keyboard smashed to get hhh) MY PRONOUNS ARE U/S/A!!!!!!!! (actually its sheher but if you flipped it it'd be like Hershey chocolates so like sillh)

Onto my interests: I LIKE ARTS. ARTYY stufff... Traditional, watercolour, clay, and kinda aueh workin' on digital aswell! Point is, I just like creating. And reading! And and... I donno man I just find whatever to fill my time

(Jack of all trades yet master of none... BUT IT'S DAMN FUN!!!)

Main fandom: I forgot uhhh hmmm... Forsaken, Dialtown, and I forgorgor my ocs I gues????

edit: so i just figured out why ppl tag... sO HERES MINE 🔥🔥🔥

Stuff i made n stuff: #Thing Creates

just wana say stuf(?): #Thing Yaps

Reblogs: #Thing Reblogs

(these r my two fav colours btw!)

(they're still Thing because I'm too lazy to change it okay)

[last updated may 11]

Watcha Want // Forsaken Animatic

go my shitty whiteboard comic that was supposed to be based off my killer skill issue but uh.

bonus:

Do people think the way I think? Feel the way I think? Love the way I love? Maybe they all do... Maybe they don't... If only communication wasn't that hard they had to come up with ANOTHER communication tactic

Dogman is my Dialtown oc (Laitlynn, heh, get it?) canon

Dear Dogman (hehe some typa english tool or sumhn) How do you eat your oreos???

i just eat them like any kind of biscuit. i don't twist. i don't lick. i find the cream too sweet and the chocolatey layers too bitter without the contrast of the other, y'know?

life is all about duality. day and night. cacophony and silence. jake and logan paul. yin and yang. one hand washes the other and so forth. inside your irises, whole universes dwell. from the smallest particle to the grandest behemoth, all matter trembles in the wake of its own creation. this is it. this is all that there is. anyway, that's how i eat my oreos. hope this helps!

Feeding

Haha lookie I am 2 of the 4 msg screenshots... will read all other things ever after nap probbaly

i think i'm having mental issues...

wanna see isopods? i like you

isopods are so cool,,,, im the same but with cicadas, wanna hear cicada facts? there are many many cicada species (more than 3.000) but a lot are undescribed :( i think thats because people normally refer to them as two types, annual and periodical, periodical cicadas are the ones ppl are more interested in because they spend more than 10 years being nymphs underground until they emerge to the surface to become actual cicadas, and also I think that's why they are or were a symbol of rebirth in China, and I have a few more thoughts about it

one of them is that the cicadas' defense method in nature is.. dying. yes, dying. LET ME EXPLAIN: when cicadas emerge to the surface, they emerge in veery long groups, right? that's because they only have like 3 weeks to live when they are actual cicadas, and they mate in that period of time (A curious fact is that they use that buzz sound of their wings to attract each other, both when there is a predator nearby or when they are looking for someone to mate with, and only the males can make this sound with their tail and wings, it's like snapping your fingers.) and they also die in long groups, close to trees, but to the point, THEY DIE TO LET OTHERS LIVE and that's because predators hungry blah blah and they want to eat them. they let them eat them, predators are satisfied but there are still too many cicadas, predators don't eat them because they don't need it, CICADAS LIVE!!!! or at least the rest of em

i made a cicada poem like a year and half ago and yeah they are my favorite insect (as if my name isn't literally cicada but with aesthetic numbers with no meaning)

and psst.. there were also giant cicadas in Palaeontinidae... I need to research more about them because it sounds very cool

CW: cicadas illustration above

annual (left) and periodical (right) cicadas (credits to the illustrator because i found this in pinterest X_x)

OK IM DONE I LOVE CICADAS AND ISOPODS ARE VERY COOL I LOVE LITTLE NICHE CREATURES

Hmmm longer than anticipated nap

Yes, yes, I approve of all this information. Very nice. 10/10.

i think i'm having mental issues...

wanna see isopods? i like you

isopods are so cool,,,, im the same but with cicadas, wanna hear cicada facts? there are many many cicada species (more than 3.000) but a lot are undescribed :( i think thats because people normally refer to them as two types, annual and periodical, periodical cicadas are the ones ppl are more interested in because they spend more than 10 years being nymphs underground until they emerge to the surface to become actual cicadas, and also I think that's why they are or were a symbol of rebirth in China, and I have a few more thoughts about it

one of them is that the cicadas' defense method in nature is.. dying. yes, dying. LET ME EXPLAIN: when cicadas emerge to the surface, they emerge in veery long groups, right? that's because they only have like 3 weeks to live when they are actual cicadas, and they mate in that period of time (A curious fact is that they use that buzz sound of their wings to attract each other, both when there is a predator nearby or when they are looking for someone to mate with, and only the males can make this sound with their tail and wings, it's like snapping your fingers.) and they also die in long groups, close to trees, but to the point, THEY DIE TO LET OTHERS LIVE and that's because predators hungry blah blah and they want to eat them. they let them eat them, predators are satisfied but there are still too many cicadas, predators don't eat them because they don't need it, CICADAS LIVE!!!! or at least the rest of em

i made a cicada poem like a year and half ago and yeah they are my favorite insect (as if my name isn't literally cicada but with aesthetic numbers with no meaning)

and psst.. there were also giant cicadas in Palaeontinidae... I need to research more about them because it sounds very cool

CW: cicadas illustration above

annual (left) and periodical (right) cicadas (credits to the illustrator because i found this in pinterest X_x)

OK IM DONE I LOVE CICADAS AND ISOPODS ARE VERY COOL I LOVE LITTLE NICHE CREATURES